LIFE

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I don't know the meaning of life at first. And same as everybody. That's because this is up to us to discover and to.......understand. As a kid I thought "Nobody is leaving me, I have such a lovely family" and yes.....I do have a wonderful family and everyone love each other. Time pass I was in Tarjah 4......or 5, I was having the best day at my grandma's. We were having delicious food, snacks and soda....basically almost any kid's favourite food. At night we're watching TV shows. I thought that day is gonna end like any day else. That is until my dad got a call....it's from a hospital....

My grandad had a accident, a car was driving and hit him, he's deaf so he can't hear the car coming. The car hit him......send him to the air and landed head first. We were rushing to the hospital, scaring that whats gonna happen to him. I see him from the window, serverl nurses are doing CPR on him while the doctor is figuring a way to save him. Minits later the doctor transfer him to a bigger hospital, they told us to wait for news as my father follows because he's the eldest son. So we went back, waiting. An hour later my mom walks out from his room, eyes were red from crying. That's the moment  that me and my grandma knew......he's gone. We hug each other, crying for hours until we decide to go to sleep.

Time passed to 2020 of  Apirl. my mom got a call form my grandmother's (her mom). Said thst my grandfather passed away from a heart attack. So she immeatly pack her stuffs and head there for 2 weeks, and because of covid and my dad is at singapour , my mom said I'm in charge when she's gone. Its not easy since I need to both accept my grandfather's death and to also take care of the house with my grandma and my 7 year old brother. that 2 weeks feels like 2 years. After all of this happed I thought to myself "god had take away 2 of the most important person in my family, who's next? " I kept thinking and thinking until I start breaking down, it took me 2 years to accept what happed and although I'm okay now, I'm still scared for what's coming next.

I realise that no matter how much you're prepared death still find a way to surprise you. You never knew what is it's next move, all we can do is accept. yes it's hard but this is how life works, from born to death, it's like we've been coded like this. Today I'm now 17 but I still got a long road to go and I knew that there's even more road like this ahead of me. But I am ready to face it. Again I write this just to express my emotions not to gain readers. And I hope my story will let you understand how life is. If you still don't understand I'll simpilfiy it. Life's hard, but the only thing you can do is keep going and never give up, and when you know it, you'll be very sucsessfull.