ULTRAVIOLENCE; Eren x Reader FF

004; recovery

           "𝐀𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐆𝐎 𝐁𝐘, 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐄
                                                                                   𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐄"

TW: SH MENTION

You woke up with a pounding pain on your head and the sound of some monitors beeping, you opened your eyes to realise that you weren't in your dorm but in a hospital? You turned the side of the bed getting up and walked out of the room, seeing Sasha and Connie sleeping on each other's shoulders, you smiled and walked off exploring the hospital.

You found yourself  in a small outdoor garden and sat on a warn out bench with your Iv drop hanger beside you.

You sat staring at the trees, which were swaying due to the wind as you tried recalling what happened.
"Oh my god, Y/n!" You turned around to see Jean running up to you, he hugged you tightly, he was shaking it was obvious he was worried. He pulled away grabbing your shoulders

"How could you do that to yourself?!" He yelled shaking your shoulders.
"W-what do you mean Jean?" You glanced at him with a confused expression.
"Do.. you not remember" he asked concerned as he tapped his head. He sighed and pulled your arm towards your face. It was bandaged.

"But I didn't do anything" you spoke
"Then how did she find you with bleeding arms?"
"But I swear i don't remember cutting"
"It wasn't just that, it was exhaustion and your anemia" he spoke as he hugged you lightly,

"Lets go in before you get any worse" he spoke lightly as he covered you with his coat. You got up and began dragging your Iv with you back to your room. You felt empty and confused. You slipped back into your bed and glanced out the window to where, rain drop landed on.

You recalled that day and began feeling worse remembering what Eren  had said. You glanced at the clock above the door; it read 4:28, you called out for Jean.
"Yeah? Is there something you need" he asked concerned
"Just.. what day of the week Is it"
"Tuesday, you were out all weekend"

"Oh okay, I'm sorry for burdening you guys" you looked down at your fingers feeling ashamed , your stomach churned at the thought of Sasha having to clean your blood of the dorms floor.
"Y/n you didn't burden anyone, ugh come here" he pulled you into a tight hug, without realising warm tears starts falling from your eyes as you hugged Jean back tightly.

It had been 2 weeks since the incident, despite you release you had spent time at home unable to get out of bed. "That's it" you heard Sasha swing your door open, "let's go, get up, I'm not gonna sit here and watch you torture yourself"

"Come on y/n" Sasha dropped to her knees crying pulling on your covers as you stared out of the window crying.
"Y/n" Connie started, sitting behind you "Speak to me, tell me what happened, I can help okay, just don't do this to yourself" he turned to see you, once her realised you were crying he pulled you up by your arms and hugged you tightly. "Don't do this to yourself please,"
he rubbed your back tightly.

"Come on now lets go out for a walk, we'll visit the record store and I'll get you something okay" he smiled before kiss your head and walking out.

You smiled and began crying once you realised that you had people who actually cared about you. You got up and changed into some black flare jeans and your black turtle neck pairing it with a black skull graphic buttoned up shirt.

You walked to the bathroom and began to brush your hair, before brushing your teeth. You stared at your reflection and took a deep breathe before walking out. When Sasha saw you her teary eyes lit up and she pounced onto you and hugged you tightly, wrapping her hand behind your head. "I love you y/n don't do that to yourself okay."