fate shall decide

Chapter 4 - Shopping frenzy

As we drove to the mall I had a strange gut feeling. I looked in the side mirror and could see Leah and Aaron in the back. They were hugging and looked as though they were gunna kiss. I shuddered at the thought and looked at Oliver. He was smiling and tapping on the steering wheel. " like this song" I asked. " Yeah mind if I turn the volume up a little" he replied. " I dont mind at all and neither will Leah" I said. He turned the volume button slowly and counted the amount of times it clicked. I had noticed he had kept doing certain things. His hair had to be just right and he kept rubbing under his eyes then there was the fact he counted everything to a certain number, OCD came to mind. I shrugged it, he was to friendly to be a pyscho and he had a friend something real pyschopaths cant keep. All of sudden he slammed the brakes on.

"For goodness sake Oliver, what is wrong with you we are just having a little fun" Aaron shouted. Oliver turned his head round to look at him " you were touching her in a personal place how would you like it huh". I stared at them back and forth. Aaron took his arms from around Leah and he just stared out the window. Oliver turned back around and placed his head softly on the steering wheel and started mouthing something. I put my head on his shoulder and he immediately stopped shaking and he lifted his head. " I dont want to lose either of you I want to be one of your permanent friends if hes doing that she will get sick of it just like his mother did when his dad wouldnt stop... tried to tear us apart she did and now hes getting the same way" Oliver mumbled. I noticed he did have a slight stutter and he became nervous at certain situations. I instantly knew then he was Autistic.

I was so cautious of situations like this. I desperately wanted to get out the car but I knew if I asked Oliver might freak out and ask questions or worse make the situation worse by doing something stupid. I just stayed calm as I knew the ride would be over soon. Finally we pulled into the mall car park and I relaxed a little. I looked in the mirror to see Leah giggling with Aaron maybe these boys were in it for love maybe I had them wrong. Aaron seemed like the romantic type and Oliver was doing everything possible to fight his biggest fears. I knew I should just loosen up and trust them a little more maybe then I could delve deeper into Olivers life.

As we pulled into the mall Oliver turned the music off. Aaron put his bag on his shoulder and Leah grabbed the back of my seat. I just stayed put why rush its not like its gunna be packed when we got there it was still early. Finally Oliver got the car parked and stepped out then he ran ran round the front of the car and opened my door. I stepped out and he grabbed my arm as I did so. I pulled it away. I gave him the look. " Still only Matthew I guess" he mumbled. I nodded my head and smiled then walked towards Aaron and Leah who were already nearly at the mall entrance. This was gunna be awesome.

As I skipped along the path into the mall I dropped my bag. The phone my mum had given me slid across the pavement and smashed. I picked it and hoped it would work... it did not. I knelt down next to it and sighed " you had a good life" then picked it up and placed it in a nearby bin. Oliver walked towards me and asked if I was ok, I just nodded and then followed his lead. The mall was a huge building, quite tall and there were hundreds of shops and a few escalators scattered here and there some of them looked as thought they lead to nowhere. We met up with Aaron and Leah at the bottom of one of the escalators. " we shall start at the top and make our way down " he said. Oliver, Leah and I all nodded with approaval and then one by one put ourselves on the first escalator.

As we made our way up I looked behind me towards the mall entrance there was a huge window and from the height we were now at you could see out of it. There were many houses and apartments stretching out for miles, it all seemed so peaceful yet I knew that down on the floor it would still be the same busy city. I smiled yet something inside me told me I wasnt gunna meet Matthew. LA was so big there was just no way I wuld find him. I had tried contacting him so we could meet somewhere but I got no reply maybe Matthew just wasnt the celebrity I was ment to meet. I looked in front of me and there was Oliver just casually lent against the side of the rising esculator. He was the one and deep down I knew it. I would now be a lot nicer and relax fully as surely if he wanted to harm us they would have done it already right?

As we stepped off the escalator I grabbed Olivers arm. He pulled me in closer to him and smiled " finally I thought you were always survive off your minds creation of false hope". I sighed and just shrugged my shoulder " we never truly get what we want or deserve and a celebrity is certainly a long shot even for me". Oliver laughed and then put his head down and shuck his head. His smile was gorgeous and he seemed so casual in every situation no matter what happened he always tried to smile. That was the second best thing about him he had the most perfect smile. I wanted to love him so bad but my heart said Matthew still god why was my body so complicated.

We went into a few shops and then I ran out of money. I love buying things from Hollister and converse they were just so expensive I lost track of my money. I told Oliver I had ran out of money and he handed me another $100. I handed it back to him " I cant" I said. He looked at me with sad eyes as though id just rejected him from a date or something " please take it I want to make you happy besides Leah said she was gunna treat us lot at the clubs tonight so this is just a early pay back as I know she will be paying for us with your money". I laughed and I knew what he said was right. I had to be more like Leah she was socialising and getting somewhere I still was not. I guess she had just given up all hope of meeting Matthew same as I was. I really did hate being torn two ways. 

After another 3 hours looking round I spent my money then me and Oliver met back up with Leah and Aaron. Leah had more bags then me but she didnt have designer things like I did. As soon as she saw me she rolled her eyes and said " why didnt I guess you wre gunna spend all your money on designer things". I giggled and then looked at Oliver he was looking in another direction towards the entrance of the mall. I paused and squinted my eyes. Was that Matthew...

I chucked my bags at Oliver and ran towards him. Suddenly I was stopped by security " were you going in such a rush" he said. I mumbled and stuttered " its Matthew did you not see". I paused and looked again that was not Matthew. I apologized and then headed back to Oliver this had to stop. Searching for him was driving me insane, ruining my holiday by making me permanently on the look out and it was probably ruining the only love life I was ever gunna get.

Finally we left and in the journey back to the apartment it was silent. Nobody made eye contact with me and Leah looked pretty upset. I was puzzled something once again wasnt right but I shrugged it off. I guessed she was just nervous because tonight was probably gunna be the best night of our lives.