just another roadie {s.t}

11

Despite the amazing show the band put on for the crowd, the concert felt like an eternity. The reason it felt so long was because my mind was stuck on talking to Serj after the show. What was I going to say to him? How was he going to take what I say? So many thoughts raced through my head, it was hard to keep my attention on the men performing on stage. However, I still enjoyed the show when my brain would allow to me put my attention on it.

It was mesmerizing watching Serj on stage. He seemed truly happy when he was up there rocking out. The way he would try to make each concert special by changing the pitch of his voice during certain parts of some songs, occasionally switch lyrics around. This band's stage presence was truly remarkable. I even found myself swaying my body to the songs I didn't even know. The way each member knew their instrument like the back of their hand was incredibly, not only to listen to, but to see as well.

After this show, I was unfortunately banished to the opposite side of behind the stage than the band would be on. I still had to stay true and consistent with my work, even if I was just doing it to see Serj. The time in between the end of the concert and the time I would be able to go see Serj dragged on excessively long. I found myself speeding through my tasks, even helping others with theirs to make the time go by faster. I was really looking forward to seeing him and if it were up to me, I would've been by his side the second he got off stage. Regardless of the fact I had seen him earlier that day, I still longed to see beautiful face and hear his melodic voice that I had become so used to within the past few days.

I thought about what I would tell him. Was I going to admit my feelings towards him right then and there? Perhaps the kiss was a lapse in judgement and he is currently wallowing in regret, searching his brain for a way to break the news to me. Though I did not want this to be true, there was a part of me that was bested by my self-doubt. After all, we've still only known each other for a few days and he had been drinking that night. With all of my feelings in a jumble, there was one thing that I knew for sure and that was how I craved to feel him hold me so close again. I dont know what affected me the most, the kiss itself or how his arms cradled my body so perfectly as if we were made for each other.

My impatience made my job feel agonizing. My nail had been unconsciously fitted between my top and bottom teeth, unaware of it until somebody mentioned it. When my finger nail was unavailable, my fidgeting moved onto my hair, letting my index finger twirl small sections of my it.

It felt like an eternity before my boss finally gave me the O.K to leave. We were staying at another hotel instead of leaving to the next city again tonight, so I felt sure enough that I wasn't going to be left behind by the roadie bus.

After my shift had ended, I pulled out my cellphone, flipping it open, and searching for Serj's contact name within it. Seeing his name made my face light up, a smile appearing on my face as I clicked it. Putting it up to my ear and letting it hum its familiar ring while I waited for him to pick up.

"Hey!" He greeted through the phone.

"Hey, I was just wondering if you still wanted to hang out? Maybe a little less interrupted this time?" I asked as I exited the building. It was night-time now and the air had went from hot to brisk, so I would have to change out of what I was wearing before going to see him.

"Of course, I was hoping you would still be able to." He said, causing my heart to pick up pace knowing that he wanted to see me. "I saw you for a second after the show, but you seemed pretty into your work." He continued with a short laugh.

"Oh, my god," I groaned, embarrassed that he saw me without my acknowledgment while I was at work.

"Hey, I think it's cute how engaged you are in what you do." He said, softening his voice for a moment. I couldn't help myself from flashing a huge smile at what his words. However, if anyone else were to have said that to me I probably would have kicked their teeth out.