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||Labyrinth||

There had been days when you were excited, enthusiastic and involved. You would embrace things to the fullest and enjoy the moments as they present themselves before you. But now, suddenly, when you look back, the warmth is all gone. You learn harder, try harder and put effort but your heart is just not in it. You feel detached, lonely and alone. You're surrounded by people you close, whom you call friends. You talk, you laugh and listen but it's just not the same. You no longer feel the emotions, you are merely a spectator. You take all the sources you could and glimpse back the memories. The people are still the same, so are the circumstances, but something has changed and you don't feel like getting into it anymore. Everything feels useless and mundane and you escape to your own world that you have built, where everything seems perfect. But suddenly you are pulled back into the real world, faced with things for what it is and you feel dissatisfied with everything. You have no time, nothing you do seems to yearn the results it used to. 

It's all suffocating, threatening to wrap you around and swallow you whole. You have no reason for it, there are much worse things happening around to others, they say. But you can't help yourself. You wish you had a bit more time. You can't stop thinking about it, can't stop the sorrow or regret. You can't stop the what ifs that go through your head. The thoughts are overwhelming, threatening to drown you, and there's no escape. People around you try to comfort you, say that it's nothing and that it's no big deal but you can't handle it. Tears brim in your eyes, but even they couldn't give you anything but another throbbing headache.

You try to focus on what you've got to do next, but it's hard, you go back to the same thing again, which overclouds your mind and makes you feel detached and no success makes you stop thinking about it. You yearn for a second chance and is not satisfied for the next opportunities. You find it hard to find peace. The moment you get another chance you may feel better, but will you be satisfied? Will you get the chance you yearn for? Will you be able to utilize it? So your thoughts go again in a whirlpool and it's omnipresent and neverending.