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~~Louis' Pov~~

When Harry fell asleep almost to the end, he was laying on my lap. His tail and nose would twitched once in a while and I thought it was the cutest thing ever.

I picked him up, shutting off the tv and walking up the stairs, himself curling in my arms.

I laid him on the bed and he curled up into a ball. I take off my pants and shirt, getting into the bed and cuddling into Harry. He fitted right along there. Even though he was a few inches taller. He fitted like a snug glove.

I soon fell asleep to the sound of Harrys soft snoring.

~~Harrys Pov~~

When I woke up I heard soft snoring in my ear and someone snuggled against me. Louis. I bit my lip and just laid there, feeling safe.

Louis moved and our legs were tangled together, his grip tightened on me and groaned out. I smiled and he yawned behind me. "Good 'orning, 'arry." I smiled at his words as he skipped over them.

"Morning, Lou." I giggled and I felt him get up, groaning.

He stood up and I got up, leaning against the bedpost. He smiled as he put his pants and sat by me. He tilted my chin so I was looking at him. I bite my lip and he smiled.

"Come down when you smell food, k, Harry?" I slightly nod and looked back down. Louis tapped my chin back up and when I looked back up, he was closer. I could feel his breathing on mine, and my breath hitches.

"Answer me please, Harry." Louis said, a smile upon his lips. "Yes, Lou," I murmured. He smile and gave me a peck on the cheek. At this, I was stunned. I've never been kissed before. Have I? No...... No, I've never been kissed before. Now...that's just sad.

I look at Louis and fiddle with my fingers. I whisper, "I've never been kissed before..." And he stared at me, as if I was crazy. Maybe I was? For not being kissed yet? Huh. Okay...than.

Louis smiled and said, "That's good, Harry. That's means that your strong and don't like to give up to people. Now, Harry, this is an important question and I need you to answer it truthfully." I simple nodded and he continued.

"Have you ever had sex before?" My eyes widen at his words and I silently shake my head, no. I mean, yeah, I've see hybrids give up their stuff for money or so the rich people can adopt them. But no one wanted me. No one wanted my innocents, and I was fine with that. Not like I was gonna give it to one of those random people anyways. But now that Louis asked... Will he take it? For pleasure or for just so he can 'get some'? Well he take my first kiss too?

The first time I found I like guys, was when I was in the laboratory. Kinda strange, but that person who changed us, asked what we were. Straight, Bi, Lesbian, or Gay (for the guys). I said, "Gay." I don't know how I knew but when he asked again, I tried to say, "Straight," but said, "Gay," again. That's when he threw me out. He said, "No person is ever going to like a GAY CAT!" and, then, I was homeless. Living off of food in the dumpster, finding dollars on the floor sometime. Using them up for food and sometimes clothing.

But, he had lied right? Here I was, in a bed, with a gay man, I was guessing. And hoped.

I then looked up at Louis and he had a frown on his face. He then noticed I was staring and forced a smile. He stood up and patted my knee. He winked and said, "Make sure you come when you smell food, k?" I nodded and he left. Without his shirt on. I bite my lip and layed on the bed, thinking about Louis.

It must have been 5-8 minutes and I could smell food. I didn't know what it was, but it was something.

I was still fully dressed so he hadnt taken advantage of me and I walked dowstairs, petting my tail once in a while. I heard humming and then two voice. One small and one husky. I was gonna guess the one that is huskey is Lou's. And the others, a girl.

I bite my lip and started to walk a different way. I knew ive should have asked him if he liked me or was gay. I should've! Now, I feel really stupid. Of course, he was just taking me in, to help me. He wasnt gay and I got ahead of myself.

I decided I wasnt hungry and walked back to the room. I quietly shut the door and locked it, not wanting Louis to come up here and find me. I turned off all the lights and saw a balcony. I opened the door quietly and saw a green chair.

I quietly sat on it and curled up into a little ball, my knees to my chest and my chin on them. I heard sniffling until I realized that was me and shoved my face into my legs. I cried more and more. No wants me. Im a Gay cat, the last one. how can they? Ill never be loved. Just like the person said. No one likes Gay cats.

I stood up and looked at the balcony. I walked to it and looked down. It was far but then not far. I jumped on the rail, sitting on it and slowly turned around so my body was facing the woods. I could jump now, and end it all, yes? I could. That other voice had to be a girls and probably she was his hybrid.

I then remember the collar he gave me, and I start to play with the little bell. Should I take it off if im gonna jump? Not give Louis any harm. Buts thats when I heard my voice come from the belcony doors.

"Harry."

I quickly looked to see Louis standing there, a frown and sad look on his face. I felt bad but I didnt care. He didnt care about me.

He took a step closer and I scooted of the edge more. His eyes were bright blue, they widen and he looked me up and down. Tears were in his eyes.

"What are you doing, Harry? You're suppose to be downstairs, eating with me..." he trailed off, biting his lip.

My bottom lip started to tremble and I whispered, "You dont want me. You dont want a Gay Cat. You already have a hybrid. I bet im just here so you can have fun.

"I thought maybe you were Gay, too, Lou. I was thinking maybe you wanted a Gay Cat, because you were Gay too. I just... I dont deserve what you're giving me, Louis... Im sorry..." I say before I slide off the edge. The worse part? I didnt want to die and I was lucky because Louis grabbed my waist and hauled me to his chest and sat on the chair.

I cried and cried into his chest, he kept saying, "Shh, its okay, Harry. Its okay....its okay..." He petted my hair down, and I got his shirt all tear'd up, a big wet bloch on his shirt.

I soon fell asleep to Louis singing a song.

I figured it out

I figured it out from black and white

Seconds to hours

Maybe they take some time

I know how it goes

I know how it goes from wrong and right

Silence and sound

Did they ever hold each, tight like us

They ever fight, like us...?

You and I

We dont wanna be like them

We can make to the end

Nothing can come between You and I

Not even the gods above

Can seperate the two of us

No, nothing can between You & I

Oh, You & I

Ive figured it out

Saw the mistakes of up and down

Been in the middle

Theres always room for commen ground

I see what its like

I see what its like, for day and night

Never together...

I then fell asleep, into a deep and black hole.

Being A Hybrid // larry stylinson |editing|Where stories live. Discover now