Trivial Love

Of Course

Chapter 7
Imma change it so yeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaa

(m/r) POV

Of course, of course it wasn't real, it was all a dream. Some of it was true but Matt is no longer here with me. Matt died saving the city from a explosion that I could have helped stopped. If I was there that wouldn't have happened to him and he would be with me. But no, right now I am at his grave on my knees staring with a blank stare. I feel my fingers twitching I guess they missed the touch he gave too. I sigh and feel as the air is cold and windy, I squat down to the ground.

    I clean his grave making it shine and stand up with the same blank face. I walk home and hear my stomach grumble but I ignore it. When I get to my room I stay there just lay in bed. After a while I see the sun go down and stand up. I put on my suit and jump out the window and onto the roof. Can I really live with out him? This thought always goes through my head every night and day.

    I dream and see him with me but still think about it. After I get onto the roof I go to my roof I always visit. Once I get there I sit down and look at the city, focused on it's lights. I sigh and turn around annoyed but remain with a blank face. "What do you want Iron Fist?" I say annoyed and sarcastic, he comes out of his hiding place. "Heh I know your there... Luke, Jessica."

    They walk out to and I roll my eyes and get ready to leave. "We just wanted to check on you (m/r)." I look up at Luke with a annoyed face and flip him off. "I'm fine I'd be better if I were alone though, or if I just you know. whoops!" When I said whoops I jump off the building not looking. I run to a different building and turn seeing them try to look for me. Except for Jessica she was fine with everything I did. I know she just acts like that but she comes by my house sometimes.

    When I got away I walk back home and change into different clothes going to drink. I drank there quietly and just thought about how it was so different now. I could get so drunk easily when Matt was there now I can't. Turning around I get up putting the money down. When I got home I decided to put it back on and go out. After a while of fighting some bad people I decided I should leave. When walking home I turn but then I see him not my him though.

*mention of attempted suicide*

    Rage fills my body and I go to charge at him but before I can he vanished. I scream in anger because of course I couldn't do it. Of course I can't get out of my stupid time loop of sadness. I look down the building and get closer and closer to the edge. Contemplating and I do it, of course I jump, I feel the air flow through my hair. And I smile a little feeling the wind in my hair as I fall. I feel arms go around me and take me away from falling.

    I sigh and look over at them seeing it was....... SPIDER-MAN?! I turn away though and stand up. "I could'be gotten myself if I wanted thanks anyway though. Goodbye" He turns to me and grabs my hand as I turn to walk away from him. "WAit-! Uh what's wrong why did you do that?" I look at him and smirk a little but take my hand away from him. "I'm a wanted man honey, I can do anything I want. Goodbye~"

    I turn away and disappear from his sight as he's left there stunned. I laugh a little and run back home to sleep after or stay up at night. The moment I get to bed I slow down walking instead of running. Once I got to there I changed the shirt and went to lay down on the couch. Tired I fall asleep but wake up for some reason and turn around seeing glowing eyes. I smile at them and watch as a black blob comes closer and lays on me. The black blob was my black cat, I think that being good luck to me and bad to others.

    They liked Matt I think for a while but feel Emrys' claws touch me. They meow at me and I smile and fall asleep again. When I woke up I heard talking so I pretended I was asleep. I could here them and turned to my other side and open my eye a little. I sigh and see it was Foggy why was he here? I watch as he tries to go into Matt's room and I jump up in front of him to stop him. "What are you doing here?