Maybe If I dream hard enough Dreamwastaken x reader

Uno<3

A/N: Thank you to those who have chosen to read this! There won't be any Covid in this and just so you know there will be swearing and suicide!!!!also clay will have some random last name so don't think it is his real one and same with drista's name. I won't keep you from reading that was all I wanted to say, now Have fun! Playlist recommendation: https://youtu.be/jhX-2wYCjxI

Y/n's age: 22

Clay's age: 23

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" Ughhh" Y/n groaned as they woke up to hearing soft and delicate Pitter patter of the rain on Her roof. " I really don't feel like getting up, Maybe if I dream hard enough then things will change and I won't have to do the same shit everyday,  I have to go get groceries today though" She thought to herself. As they got up they went to their old wooden wardrobe she stared at her clothes boredly not wanting to continue with the normal, boring, dull day.  " This will do" they muttered as they grabbed some random red long-sleeved shirt, a pair of denim ripped jeans and a black and white checkered jacket. she walked down the empty, silent hallway with rotting wallpaper, their feet touching the cold, old wooden slabs. When they reached the moldy old bathroom she closed the wooden door and placed her clothes down next to the yellowish coloured sink. they slowly took off their clothes and stepped into the old bath with a shower head above it and turned the water on to the right temperature, She grabbed the soap and rubbed it on her body then watched the soapy suds go down her body and glide into the drain. After that they grabbed their shampoo and pored some of the thick mixture into their hand and rubbed it into their scalp till it was foamy then washed it out and grabbed her conditioner and placed some into her hair as well then washed it all out. She opened her eyes and stared at the wall plainly, not thinking of anything in particular then they had a flash back from when she was a little girl. She slid down the water-slide with her mum and they landed in the pool of water together, all that was to be heard was the beautiful, happy laughter coming from her gorgeous mother. She came back to her senses and felt a tear roll down her cheek, they missed their mum so much because sadly her mother died when they were eighteen years old due to a bad car accident when y/n was at school. she got out of the shower and  dried herself with an old grey towel, they put on their outfit and placed the jacket on her waist. She put on a bit of mascara and lipstick, grabbed her phone, keys, wallet and left through the front door, she never trusted car's since the incident so she always walked to places or caught the train or bus. It was raining but she found some odd comfort in rain, she kept walking till she reached the shop that she liked. They grabbed onto a shopping cart and strolled through the rows of stocked shelves and pulled certain items off of the shelves till she thought she had got enough stuff to last her a couple of weeks. She walked up to the self checkouts cause she was filled with anxiety that day, she swiped all of her things across the red light on the machine and payed for everything. They put everything into bags and walked back into the rain again. Once she was on her street she saw a familiar looking person on her doorstep, "Hello?" They called out. " Ahh your exactly who I was looking for" the rough male voice stated. He turned around for y/n to notice that he was their father that cheated on her mother. " What do you want?" she said coldly " oh so you do still recognize me sunflower" He said sounding proud. " Don't call me that and you never answered my question" They said wanting him to leave " Oh don't be like that sunflower and I came here to ask for a favor." . " What do you want from me?" she said sounding confused " I need at least one-thousand dollars and before you ask why it's cause uhm one of  my buddies is in jail and I wanna get him out." he said clearly lying  " no" she said plainly " tha- wait what no? why not?"  he asked " I said no now leave." she said starting to get angry " fine but just so you know you mum was an ugly, lying, bitch and I am more than glad she is dead and y'know what? I hope you die as well bitch!" He said with a smirk. Y/n didn't say a thing she just stood there with her head down while hearing him walk away. After a few minutes of him leaving they went inside placed their groceries down then left the house again, In pure anger and sadness she started to cry and cry and cry. She ended up storming off to a park full of gorgeous emerald green trees and a bridge with clear blue water flowing beneath it. They sat down at a wooden bench with their hands in their hair. She was having flash backs of when they were a happy family and all loved each-other very much but then her dad turned bad and y/n found out what he was doing and he gave her money and threatened her to stay quiet. They never had many friends either only about three and they all betrayed her so she decided to not trust anyone anymore. She had nothing left anymore her mum was her everything and now she had lost her, "What's the point anymore I have nothing left." she thought as she was staring at the silver bridge. She got up and walked to the edge of the bridge slowly.  " DO IT YOU ARE NOTHING AND HAVE NOTHING, YOU ARE POOR AND LONELY REMEMBER!" she heard her fathers voice say in her head " don't sweetheart you have so much more to live for." she heard her mums delicate voice say in their head,  she stood up on the bridge's edge " I am so sorry mum but I want to be with you I can't live like this anymore." They said with tears falling down their face. Just as they were about to jump a random voice yelled out to them to stop and she listened and turned around to see the most gorgeous man she has ever seen running up to her. He had dirty blonde hair and one of his ears pierced. " Please Please don't do it I beg of you" he says while trying to catch his breath. " I-" she didn't get to finish what she was going to say because of her stupid foot slipping. Then she was falling but all of a sudden she didn't want to be falling she wanted to alive and be friends with that guy. " NOOOOOOO" they heard the man yell just as she reached the water. The next thing was a bit blurry for y/n but what they could remember was hearing a second splash and being picked up. Their eyes slowly opened to meet with a pair of beautiful green ones. " wh- where am I?" she asked quietly " oh umm sorry I hope you don't mind but you are at my house." he said while getting red " hmm what happened?" she asked " I think maybe we should talk about that after you have had some paracetamol and relax a bit." the man said with a kind voice. "Here you go, oh my name is clay by the way. What's yours? " He asked while giving her the pain killer " uh my name is y/n nice to meet you clay." they said smiling " oh you too  oh and uh I just thought I would ask what are your pronouns?" he asked. Y/n was surprised since nobody had every asked what her pronouns were " m-my pronouns are she/her how about you?" she asked while smiling. " oh I go by he/him ( a/n: Ik he uses they/them too but that would be confusing so...)" he said kindly " that's cool" she said actually feeling safe. " so just to get it out of the way and you don't have to answer but uhm why?" he asked sounding concerned " why what?" they asked confused " why ah were you going to jump?" he asked carefully not to hurt her " oh umm my life just isn't in the right place right now and that was my only resource to make it better." y/n said a tad confused as to why they just told a stranger all of that. Clay didn't say anything after she said that he just got up and pulled her into a tight hug in which they returned, " Why is it always me clay?" she asked tears falling out of her eyes. " shhh it will be okay I'm here you don't have to worry." he shushed her, They stood there for around ten minutes till y/n stopped crying. " Thank you clay, you saved me and y'know I will always be so grateful for that." she said while sniffling " It's okay I understand that you've been through a lot" he said lightly holding on to her shoulders. She gave him a whole hearted smile.