Complicated (Danganronpa 3)

Complicated

TW Suicidal Thoughts

"You think you're better than us too?!"

"Hoping that siding with that bitch will help you get scouted? Maybe as the Ultimate Suckup."

"I heard he's poor."
"This isn't a place for paupers."

"Hangout? Uh... maybe next time? I um I've got to complete some assignments I totally forgot I'm such a klutz ahaha."

"Him? Oh I heard hes involved with the Kuzuryu, its best to stay away."

I wish they would all shut up and leave me alone. I want to cover my ears and pretend I'm not here, pretend that I'm with the Ultimates, not just a nobody but one among them. It feels like reaching for the stars.

Suddenly it was a lot quieter. I took a peek from the corner of my eye. Great, its Kuzuryu, exactly what I need right now an even bigger headache.

Thank god she didn't head towards me, for now. I'm not sure which is worse hearing the others run their mouths or her's.

I don't think I was wrong to try to defuse the tension Kuzuryu created but if I knew this would be the outcome I wouldn't have gotten up from my seat. Now everyone thinks I'm trying to get on the Kuzuryu clan's good side.

It's honestly stupid if they can't get one of their own into the Ultimate course how would they get me in? And that's if they actually even knew I existed. Just cause I kind of defended Kuzuryu once and subsequently suffer bearing her presence doesn't make me her friend.
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Beep beep beep
'Another day, I haven't even gotten up but I feel tired'

Beep beep beep
'5 more minutes.'

Beep beep beep
"Shut up."

Beep beep beep
'Why did I put so many alarms today?!'

I fished for my phone, knocking down a couple of things in the way. I squinted at the reminder on screen "Oh... right exams, great" I muttered. Crawled out of bed, turned off the dozen other alarms I'd set and stumbled into the washroom.

My gaze wandered mindlessly as my body carried out the simple but monotonous task of brushing. 'Simple but monotonous, that kinda sums up my life. What a positive and motivating thought to start the day.'

'I miss my old alarm clock, it's was loud but familiar and less... mechanical. It was also one of the few things that reminded me of home. If only we could afford to repair it. Maybe we couldve if I weren't so- ow'. Right don't monologuing while combing.

I quickly drank some orange juice, 'I should eat something. Hmm later I'm not hungry plus I think I forgot groceries so if im lucky theres some nuts round, somewhere. Maybe malnutrition is why I'm like this'. Just checked my messages, still empty. 'Guess she's still sick'. Finally I lugged the first book onto the table, I've yet to even open it but a frown has already settled on my face.
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"Some people are born with talent."
'Maybe Komaeda is right?'

I shook my head 'If I'm starting to take Komaeda's bs seriously then I really need a break. I wish I could sleep till tomorrow but' the pile of books on my table are impossible to forget. 'I can spare 5 mins to grab a quick coffee.'

The weather is getting quite chilly lately so not many others are out. I hope the coffee shop isnt crowded. The warbling of the water fountain brought my thoughts to Chiaki 'it's almost a week now hopefully she'll recover soon. I wish she took better care of herself.'