What the Heart Wants

Chapter 1- It All Started With Spin the Bottle

Sitting on the sofa as everyone mingled, I sipped at the fruity cocktail in my hands, feeling out of place. This wasn't the first time I had been to one of my friend Ashley's parties, but I always felt lost when it came to hanging out with people. Even my friends, to be honest. I was more of a loner, not in the bad way. Just in the way that I enjoyed solitude. I liked being alone with my thoughts.

I looked up from my lap as Candice, my outgoing and beautiful friend sat down beside me with a big smile on her face. She was your typical definition of beauty, from her flawless skin, to her straight blonde hair and bright blue eyes. Candice was tall and slender with perky b-cup breasts and a cheerleaders body. "You'll never guess what I overheard Andy and Ronnie talking about with Chris and Christian!" she said in a shrill, excited manner. I laughed nervously as she looked at me with those bright blue eyes and smiled at me with her perfectly straight white teeth.

"What?" I asked softly, kind of afraid to know the answer. They were guys. Who knew what they liked to talk about.

She giggled and leaned in really close to my face. I could smell the fruity alcohol on her breath and knew that she had been drinking, so I wasn't going to take whatever she was going to say seriously. "You!" My eyes widened in shock and my face flushed. Me? Why on Earth would they be talking about me? I hadn't done anything worth talking about.

"Are you sure?" I asked, raising an eyebrow in question. She nodded her head vigurously and I turned redder. "Why?" I asked, glancing in the kitchen at the group of guys I considered my friends. Chris, my friend since grade school, looked up at me just then, smiled, and waved. I blushed and waved back. Great. Real casual, Jenny! Like that wouldn't raise any red flags. Mentally scolding myself for blushing at him, I scrubbed my hand over my face and looked at Candice with an exaspirated expression. "Are you sure you heard right? Maybe they were just talking about the lot of us, and you just so happened to hear my name?"

"Maybe they were talking about how cute you are?" I turned redder than ever and took a large sip of my drink. "I know just what to do!" Before I could question her, or attempt to stop her, she was standing in the middle of the room screaming, "SPIN THE BOTTLE!!!" I pressed my hand over my face and shook my head as our group of friends gathered around and began to find their place on the floor. "Does anyone have an empty beer bottle?" Candice asked, looking at each person in turn.

"Here." I looked up and watched as Ronnie held out a bottle toward Candice, who shook her head.

"You're bottle, you go first." Running to me, she pulled me off the sofa and pushed me down into a sitting position across from Ronnie and sat beside me. I avoided eye contact with him as he put the bottle in the middle of the floor and gave it a good spin. Around and around the bottle spun, slowly slowing down as it soon came to a stop on Chris. People chuckled as both men groaned, but leaned over and kissed each other. I giggled and watched as Chris went next. Around and around we went, each one of us spinning the bottle and kissing whomever it landed on.

"You're turn, Jenny." Candice nudged me forward and I almost spilled my drink. Handing her my cup, I crawled over to the bottle and gave it a good spin, crawling back and watching it as it spun round and round. After a while it slowed down, only to stop on one of my crushes: Andy Biersack. Blushing, I looked up at Andy to find him smiling at me. I brushed hair behind my ear and took in a calming breath before I crawled over to him and looked up. He was so much taller than me, what with only being four foot eleven inches tall, and him being a full six foot four inches. Andy leaned down and softly touched his lips to mine, sending a shock of electricity against my lips. I gasped and jumped back a little, hearing him chuckle as I touched my lip.

"Sorry." he said, touching my lip gently. I flushed even more and crawled away, glaring at Candice who was whooping and hollering in excitement.

The game went on like that for another round, until everyone got tired of playing and just continued drinking. I stood up off the ground and picked up my drink. Turning around to head back over to the sofa, I bumped into a hard body. Hands grabbed my arms, keeping me from falling over as I stumbled back. I looked up to find Andy and Ronnie. I flushed. "Sorry. I didn't mean to bump into you." Andy smiled, letting my arms go once he was sure I wasn't going to fall over.

"It's ok. No harm done." I smiled at him and went to walk away when he continued talking. "Are you enjoying the party?" I looked back up and shrugged.

"Parties aren't really my thing. Too many people for my taste, but yeah. I suppose I'm having fun."

"Yeah, crowds really aren't my thing, either." Ronnie said, rubbing the back of his head akwardly. I nodded. Ronnie hardly was ever seen hanging out with a lot of us, but when it was a small gathering, he was there. So yeah, that made sense. "Andy made me come."

"If I had to be here, then so did you." Andy teased. I giggled at them. They were like a couple. It was cute.

"So, Jenny," I looked up at Ronnie, who stood only three inches shorter than Andy. "You got a boyfriend I should be worried about? You know, someone that'll beat my ass for talking to you?" I felt my cheeks turn bright red and my eyes widened momentarily before I shook my head.

"N-no."

"So I won't get a black eye for kissing you?" Andy teased. I shook my head. "Good, because I'd like to try that again some time. Maybe without the shocking." He winked at me and I bit my lip. Were they teasing me or were they for real flirting with me?

"I think I need to sit down." The room was starting to spin. Andy and Ronnie took my hands and helped me to the sofa, sitting on each side of me. Ronnie took my drink from me and set it on the floor.

"No more of that. How many have you had?"

"Four." I admitted. He frowned.

"You've had too many. Let me drive you home."

"O-ok." Ronnie lifted me in his arms and carried me out of the house and over to his truck. "Let me know if you feel like you're going to be sick so I can pull over." I nodded as he put me in the passenger seat and Andy climbed in the back. I was so embaressed. I had never been drunk before, and the drink hadn't tasted like alcohol. It had just been fruity.

Ronnie drove me home with no problem and parked outside of my house. He opened the door and lifted me out of the truck. Andy followed behind us and dug my key out of my jeans pocket to open the door. Once we were inside, he flipped on the light switch and looked around. "My room in the first door on the left." I said as I pointed down the hall. I was so happy my house was clean. Ronnie closed the door behind us and walked down the hall and into my bedroom.

Andy turned on my bedroom light to reveal a spacious bedroom with gothic art all over the walls, a queen sized bed covered in black sheets and a black comforter and pillows. The bed had tones of stuffed animals all over it, and sitting in plain sight, out in the open by my pillow was my adult pacifier. I turned bright red and hide my face in Ronnie's chest. I was sure they would make fun of me for it, but no one said anything. Ronnie sat down on my bed as Andy took off my shoes and placed them gently on the floor. "What's wrong, Jenny? Why are you hiding your face?" Ronnie asked.

"I'm embarrassed."

"Because of what? A paci?" I nodded and he pulled me back so that I had no choice but to look at him. He smiled. "I think it's cute. So you have a pacifier? You have stuffed animals all over your bed. I bet you have onesies too, don't you." He raised an eye brow as if he dared me to lie to him. I nodded, my face bright red, and he smiled again. "That just makes you a princess. And you know what princess need?" I shook my head and waited for what he had to say, but it wasn't him to answered.

"They need Daddies to take care of them." I looked at Andy in surprise and found him holding one of my stuffies. I slowly reached out and took the caramel colored bear from him and hugged it to my chest as he smiled. "Do you have a Daddy to take care of you?"

"N-no."

"You do now. If you'll have us."