"So any grandbabies coming soon?" Anne asked raising her eyebrows curiously.
You, your husband Harry, Harry's mom Anne and stepdad Robin were having a dinner at your house. Harry is having a little break from tour at the moment.
A few months ago you and Harry had brought that grandbaby thing up because you have been married for 4 years so you decided it would be good time for a bab ybut then Harry had to go on tour.
A week before Harry left for tour you were in a car accident, nothing major but it still affects on you. You have been having more panic attacks and anxiety since the accident which made you life even more rough.
When you and Harry started dating you were just an ordinary girl, you didn't have celebrity family or anything else, you were just a normal girl whom Harry happened to fell in love with.
Now you were here having a baby talk with your mother-in-law and father-in-law.
Y/N's P.O.V
I don't honestly know what I should answer... Of course I want a baby, my biggest dream is to be a mom but there is this but...
Since the accident I have been taking pills to stop the panic attacks. I think it is not just the accident but about everything going on at the moment. Harry is on tour. I'm working as a lawyer. I know that Harry says that I don't have to work "I make enough money to support our family." as he puts it but I want to work because I love my job. I have also had some photoshoots for magazines. I don't know maybe is just my personality but I constantly think what other people thinks. I feel like I don't do enough. And that makes me even more stressed.
"Y/N, are you okay?" Harry asked worried and I flinched.
"Oh, sorry I was just thinking." I said, trying to pull a smile on my face. "And yeah, maybe soon." I answered to Anne's question trying to smile.
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"Thank you for having us, the food was amazing Y/N!" Anne smiled and hugged and gave a quick kiss on my cheek.
"Thank you for coming and welcome again." I said while hugging her.
"Okay bye then! We hope to see you again soon!" Robin said stepping out of the door.
"Byyee." Harry and I said both at the same time.
***
"What was that about at the table earlier babe? Harry asked me while we were cuddling on the couch later that night. "You were in your own world. What were you thinking? Please just don't shut me out. I know it's been rough lately but talk to me, please." Harry said looking deep in my eyes.
"Oh just nothing..." I said, trying to pull brave face and smile. But Harry knew me good enough to see that I was lying.
"Please just talk to me..."
"I'm fine, it's nothing.."
"Babe.. Please.." He said, looking deep in my eyes. He knew me too well.
"Okay, here it goes.." I started. "Since we started dating you know how self-critical I was and still am. You know how I take the pressure. Since the accident I have been having these panic and anxiety attacks and I have been taking pills to stop them. I hav-"
"Wait, you have been taking pills to stop the attacks?! Really? And when you are going to tell me? Huh?" Harry said angrily.
"I'm sorry, I didn't tell you. I know you have stress about the tour. I just didn't want to upset or worry you." I whispered.
"I am your husband. You are my number one priority and you shut me out! How I am supposed to help you!?" Harry nearly shouted, standing up from the couch.
"Baby, look, I'm sorry. I just feel like I can't cope with everything that is going on at the moment. And then there is your mom who wants us to have a baby. Even more to stress over. Yes, I know we told our parents that we are trying for a baby but then you announced the tour. Right now you are on tour and I'm working as well. In addition I'm doing photoshoots for a magazine. I still think about the accident and think if something happens to you. While doing the photoshoots I think if I'm enough if I'm good enough." Tears started to roll down my cheeks.
"Baby, look at me... Please..." Harry said and took my head between his hands. "You are the first priority in my life like I said. I love you just the way you are. I love you so much. And I don't want you to be sad. Okay?"
"It's just so much to handle. Even I have been in this for past 7 years I do not get use to everything. I feel pressured and stressed. I'm so stupid." I cried.
"Baby, sshh, shhh, please don't cry. I hate when you cry. I hate to see you like this. I'm going to take a break from tour. I need to take care of you. You should take a break aswell." Harry said while stroking my back up and down, calming me down.
I burried my face into his chest and closed my eyes while smelling his perfect scent.
"No, you can't do that. You can't let your fans down. I can't take a break either, I have way too much work to do." I said.
"It doesn't matter. You are my everything and I want that you are okay, anything else doesn't matter, really. And you have to rest, you do way too much at work all the time. Just trust me and take a break, it will be worth it. Babe I love you so much, you're my everything. And after tour if you are ready we can start baby making but only when you're ready. Then we are both going to take a break until our baby is old enough to go to daycare. Deal?"
"Okay, I trust you. I'm going to take a break. After tour:baby. Deal. I love you so much, you're the best thing ever happened to me." I said leaning to kiss his perfect lips.
