It's a forsaken world

~chapter one~

I don't remember the last time I saw any sign of life on this barren planet. It's all been infested with the walking dead. Lifeless corpses who's only priority left is too kill. Kill and eat any living creature it senses. It's quiet in this old abandon church. Too quiet. I can usually hear the sounds of harry reloading his shotgun, or my father planting vegetables for us too eat. Since every other piece of meat has been taken. By them. 

" Josh? Dad? " no response.

I walk into the living room we made from a room in the church. Nothing. Where are they? 

*BOOM*

I run downstairs to the basement. There they are. Both of them. Torturing some poor zombie. 

" What are you doing? Stop it! " i yell running towards the cage there keeping the zombie.

" This is none of your concern karinha, go back upstairs and keep watch " Josh says pushing me aside, jabbing a metal rod at the zombie, insisting for him to move back. 

I've been raised to hate zombies. To dispise every characteristic about them. But i can't. I know that at some point in time, they weren't like this. They've been human before. They can be changed, they can learn to be normal again. But my father doesn't understand this. He doesn't have any hope for change. He thinks the world will stay like this forever, or until the end of humanity. 

" Don't touch him ! " i scream running back to the cage. I open the back fence leading to the outside. As soon as the zombie see's this he runs out, leaving this torture chamber. 

" Why did you do that karinha, i told you, you have no jurisdiction involving what we do to the zombies. " my father says, giving me a death glare. 

" There's no need for any of this ! They aren't as horrid as you think they are, we can show them how to be human, we could find a cure and lead them back to health ! But there's no hope in that if all you do is take them one by one, finding out how to kill them."

My dad walks over to josh, whisering something in his ear. He then walks towards me and pulls me by the arm, back upstairs.

" That hurts ! " i say pulling my arm away.

" Sorry... you know your dad, why do you always have to test his patience. There's no chance in changing his perspective on the situation. " josh says, barely whispering the last part. 

" I know. I can still try.. " 

We walk towards the room we share upstairs. There's 3 rooms in this church. My dad's room, mine and josh's room, and the living room/ kitchen. And the outhouse is out back. Josh walks in and lays on the old bed. The matriss is stiffer than a wall of cement, but it'll have to do. I sit down on the edge of the bed, removing my combat boots and jacket. I lay back down on the bed and rest my head on the pillow. Should I even call it a pillow ? It's just a pillow case filled with old newspaper. my thoughts were interupted my josh poking at my rib.

" Do you want to lay with me ? " he asks signaling for me to lay on him.

" sure " i move over to lay with him. He nuzzles his chin into my the crook of my neck, wrapping his arms around my waist. He wraps his legs over mine, intertwining them. 

" josh? "

" yeah? "

" Do you ever think about the future? Like what'll happen next? "

" karinha, all we need to think about know is supplying for eachother, and staying alive. Nothing more, nothing less. " 

" I know but.. do you ever think there could be more to that ? We could train them to be good ! O-or we could find a cure and nurse them back to he- "

" ENOUGH ! " His sudden burst of anger frightened me. Why does he always get so sensitive about this subject ? He notices the fear in my eyes and speaks up again.

" I'm sorry. I-I didn't mean to startle you. It's just...we can't get our hopes up for change. Because when nothing does change, you'll be let down. Disapointed. And we don't need that kind of pressure right now. Please understand karinha. It's for the best." he says closing his eyes and drifting to sleep. Before he does he whispers something into my ear.

" I love you karinha, I just want the best for you. "

" Goodnight josh. " 

I can't help but keep my thoughts on the subject at hand. It wasn't always like this. It feels like just yesterday i was eating icecream in the park with my parents..

[[FLASHBACK]]

The warm breeze swept my light brown hair into my face, dipping into my chocolate icecream.

" shit " i whisper to myself.

" Don't use those words karinha, they make the perfect curve of your lips and mouth seem repulsive. Like smeering a beautiful red rose with old black paint. " my dad says wiping the icecream out of my hair.

" Sorry dad "

" Times are changing k.k, and i know you know that. This might be hard for you to understand but you have to try. People are changing. There not normal. They feed of there own kind. The population of these creatures are increasing more and more every day. Soon enough, we'll have to fend for ourselves. No more walks in the park, no more icecream, no more watching movies with the family, no nothing. I'm warning you now so your're not shaken up when it all starts. Do you understand me ? "

" yes daddy. " I dont think he realizes what he just told me. He's basically telling me to let go of my childhood. To forget all the things i love most in the world. I don't know if i can do this, but i'll have to try.

" i love you daddy, i'll always help you"

" let's just- let's just head home. "

In that moment, i knew he wasn't my father anymore. He was a cold man, that lost all hope for the future. 

So.

What happens now ?

........

[[END OF FLASHBACK]]

[[END OF CHAPTER]]