The Lost Letters: The Dark World of Narcissistic Abuse

You Are Not Alone

Two months have passed since I wrote the final words of the previous chapter. On November 1st, in the midst of the second wave of the COVID pandemic, I returned to the UK from my writing sojourn in Poland. Writing this book helped me more than I could ever have hoped. The healing journey continues and I grow stronger every day, in heart, spirit, and mind. Meanwhile, the court case drags on plagued by my once-husband's relentless need to keep his promise to leave me with nothing. I use Hanlon's razor, think positive thoughts, cultivate gratitude, am cautious of the influences I allow into my life, and keep my thoughts and beliefs focused on healthy, positive objectives.

Of course, there are days when things are overwhelming, when my lawyer has no choice but to contact me with another flaming hoop my ex has tossed into the arena for us to navigate, soaked in lies and misrepresentation. On those days, there is nothing else to do but let the horror of what I must endure wash over me. There are moments of sorrow, anger, and at times, justifiable rage, but what's the point in feeding these emotions? It only makes me feel worse, and the goal is to heal. Exercise helps in these dark moments. So I hike, hard and fast through the English woodlands and muddy fields. I call it 'outrunning my demons'. I look at the sky, the birds, the clouds, the trees, the sunset, the moon. I don't think. I just be. Sometimes I take photos. Some are beautiful. Life is like that, even in pain, there is beauty—if you know where to look.

I won't let him win. He had that power for years. Not anymore. Now it's my turn. He can take me to court for the rest of his life if that's what he wants. I won't ever give in. Ever. I will fight him. Because he hurt me, and treated me awfully, and it's my duty to resist his malice as hard as I can. I believe justice will prevail. And you attract what you believe when your intention is pure and good.

But let's talk about you and where you are with things. You have read this far. Thank you for trusting me and being a part of my journey. My greatest hope in publishing this book is to encourage you, give you hope, strengthen your belief in yourself, validate your reality, and prove even against all the odds you can escape. That it will end and you will rise again, stronger, smarter, wiser, and more powerful than ever before.

The main difference my book has from other books about narcissistic abuse is the warning of the shock you will experience after you get out and begin to heal, of the daily battle you will face once you have exited your narcissistic abusive situation—how their lies continue to live within you, buried like a poisonous seed. That's what I want to help you with. That day-to-day fight where you need the strength to overcome what's inside you, so you don't let the lie of your trauma bond send you straight back to the place you fought so hard to escape. (Or, even worse, into the arms of another narcissist.)

So, just as I promised throughout the book. I am here. You are not alone. I am available if you need additional support in your journey out of your trauma bond and back into the immensity of your stolen power. However, I can only support a limited number of women, so places are first-come, first-served.

You can read more about my support service here.

I am a woman of deep empathy, introverted, sensitive, creative, positive, spiritual, and caring. All my life, I have been the one my friends have turned to for comfort and consolation in times of difficulty. Now more than ever, I believe the gifts I have been given can be put to good use. I can help you, support you, and give you the tools to cultivate the strength you need to help you find yourself again. I have been through what you are going through. All of it, and I have made it through. I am here for you, to help you heal. But only if you want it. You need to want this more than anything, because, beautiful one, you are in the fight of your life, of your heart, of your soul.

Remember, you are not alone. No matter what they tell you. It is a lie. It is time for the truth, and for you to live your life as you were destined to do.

With love,

Elizabeth Anne Carter