a heartless life (short story)

why? why me? I didn't imagine this happening to me. I feel lifeless, useless, and mostly un-wanted. I just wanted to be noticed, so here's my story.

*flash back*

"mom, you will love me no matter what I did right?

"what did you do!"

"nothing I promise! please don't hurt me!"

I was sobbing I couldn't stop. then I saw her hand raise at me. I clenched then in a blink, she slapped me.

"why can't you be like your older brother!?"

"I'm sorry, I....I just don't know."

I was thinking why does she always compare me to him? I couldn't take this abuse from her anymore.

*flash forward*

I was tapping my foot while waiting for, a response from my friend. finally Aleasna answered.

"what were you going to do, tell me please!"

*flash back*

so many things went through my head that night. Here's a list.

•suicide

•killing her

•running away

That's all that went through my head, and that night I cried myself to sleep.

"mom" I said nervously.

"yea bub?" she said.

"Am I a pain to you?" I said with a shaky voice.

"Sometimes, but I still love you waaay up to the sky!"

she said all mother like.

"oh ok I was just wondering."

so that night I ran away, but as soon as I got to the door my mom heard me. she got up and yelled.

"Why the @#%$ are you running away from!? am I not good enough for you!"

she beat me with a belt, then turned the stove on. she told me to lay in it. I struggled and screamed to get away. but no one could hear me. my hand touches the blazing fire and I screamed louder, so red, and the tears rolling like a river. she finally gave up.

*flash forward*

"That's horrible! I'm so sorry." Aleasna said

"it's fine but I'll continue you my story now.

*flash back*

she yelled my name.

"Greg, get your @$$ in here!"

I was nervous, scared, and most importantly terrified. I walked in her room. she found my journal! I didn't have time to think, I ran out of the house. I ran to an ally, and made my first attempt at suicide.

"why can't I be loved!?" I screamed from my lungs.

tears trickled down my face, my memory went blank. I woke up in a hospital. I asked.

"where am I, Wha.. what happened?"

they said someone found me in an ally and bought me here. I thought I would have died, I sliced my neck with a broken glass. why didn't I die!?

"what's going to happen?" I asked.

they responded with,

"well you will be transferred to your house."

I begged not to let me go back, I pleaded and cried. But it was worthless. when i got home, I got a knife from the kitchen. I went to my moms room, and I stabbed her 18 times in the chest, 5 times in her legs, and 6 times in her stomach.

"DIE, JUST DIE!!" I screamed and I cried.

she begged me to stop but I couldn't, there walls a rage I couldn't stop! so I left and came here. the police will be looking for me, so I came to see if you will hide me.

*flash forward*

"so that's why I'm here."

"Greg as mush as I love you, I can't help you. I'm..I'm sorry but I just can't."

"it's fine ill just go to my true friends house!"

"but Greg I am your friend, it's just goings to causes ore trouble."

"no I get it you don't want me!.

I look For a beer bottle and when I found one, I broke it and stabbed myself. suicide was the only way out, so now I'm here just a soul...wondering around.

-Nathan.

i hope you liked my short story!

by why_do_you_care