Americano | sope fanfiction

13. omg

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Yoongi POV:

Now I'm happily out with Hoseok on a skating date. He stopped by and purchased some groceries when he found fresh tofu and dairy products. I smiled at him how this feels realistic.

Everything was going well until I saw his childhood photo in his wallet. I think my world has crushed into fragments at the thought of it.

It's because I've seen Hoseok before, a long ago, in a very bad situation. I saw him wailing as a little kid and hugging the lifeless body of his mother. The nurse dragged him away but that short stubborn kid just held their parents' hands with teary eyes.

I was heartbroken by that sight and cried together seeing my mother who was driving past the incident happening before us.

Like a stranger who is passing the way but she is the reason why that kid is breaking down, she is good at acting as a stranger by hiding the fact that she is the one who crashed and took two lives by her drunken driving.

I saw them from the rear window until they disappear in my sight.

That kid's innocent eyes which couldn't handle that tragedy internally broke me down. The thing that I couldn't forget. I hugged my knees by leaving some tears. I even had nightmares about it, his sorrowful face haunted me but didn't had the guts to find that child.

And now that child is sitting beside me in my car smiling like an idiot. My heart churned at that sight, Feeling guilty. I couldn't focus on driving but to think if I should ask him or not.

Then I felt his hands on me and flinched. He was startled and I met with his worried face,

"What happened? You were quiet for a while."
Hoseok held my hand that was on the gear.

I shrugged off shaking my head no and returned a small smile.

"Just thinking about work"

"Ok, you can think at work. Focus on driving "

I nodded and decided. I might hide that now. I can't see him leaving me because of my mom's fault and I wanna be with him, some more. Until my mind is strong enough to handle the rejection.

NAMJOON POV:

I went on a business trip for 10 days to L.A.

I'm back in Korea now and the project was a successful deal.

I was so excited to inform Yoongi Hyung.

I always dreamt of a collab with American artists for a Hip-Hop album and it happened now.

When I opened the Chairman's door,
The sight in front of me shattered me into pieces.

Yoongi Hyung looked gloomy and dull.

His glowing face was gone and the glow was replaced with baggy dark circles and puffy cheeks with bloody red eyes.

His hair was messy and tiredness occupied his whole body.

I never saw my friend this pathetic.

He was reading the files and noticed me.

"Welcome Namjoon ah, I heard the project is sanctioned. Nice job"

---he said it with the most sorrowful voice.

I can't believe this. Hoseok confessed to him and he said they were good.

But what happened now?

I took him to the empty meeting room after work.

I spoke,

"Hyung, what happened? I have never seen you like this. Is there anything between you and ho---"

"nothing"

"Nothing means many things hyung"

"I said nothing, just leave"

"Hyung"

I pressured him with a stern voice.

I saw Yoongi breaking down. It was so sudden. Why should this happen to him?

I patted his back and calmed him.

"ypu can take your time hyung "

"he is that kid Namjoon. He is the one, the owner of those innocent sorrowful eyes that I encountered a long time ago"

"what?"

It's a big shock that the nightmares he had about a kid was Hoseok, the one who Yoongi fell in love with.

"I can't Namjoon. I couldn't face him properly. Guilt is taking over my body and Don't know how he'll react when I say the truth."

He sobbed in my arms and I held him tightly. What I worried more is I never saw hyung trembling and worrying this much. Even when his father died.

I said sweet nothings into his ears and couldn't believe that a strict boss would cry like a baby.

Few minutes later, he pulled away muttering an apology.

I slapped my cheeks and realized it wasn't a dream.

"hyung, think twice about this.

According to me, he'll apologize you. You know he is a psychologist. He might understand well"

He nodded and replied,

"but I'm afraid of the another possibility. I feel like he is the right one for me. What if he hates me? What if he leave me as I hurted him?"

"First of all, you didn't hurt him. It's not your fault. It's your mom's and that's a sorrowful past. Move on and live in the moment. It's your wish to say the truth."

Yoongi sniffed and chugged some water.

"ok Joon, thanks for hearing me out"

"its okay hyung"

YOONGI POV:

I didn't even go outside that day. I locked himself and didn't come out. I cried my heart out and my son knocked on the door and left me thinking I must be busy.

And I did the same for the next day.

After that, I carried out my routine and said everything to Namjoon. I think that I'm making things difficult now. I feel so bad and horrible.

Why my mother ruined everything? She never gave me a happy life. She is an expert in giving me misery. Just because I'm gay, she made my life hell and now also giving nightmares.

So, I'm not gonna tell Hoseok the truth. Atleast not now. I'm trying to be selfish here. Also, I made him worry as I didn't reply to his texts. I should meet him but blame my coward heart, It's not even giving me strength to do that.

But, I'll never leave you Hoseok. You made my life beautiful and I'll try that that to you too...

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That's all for today. Sorry for the sudden plot change.

Today I suggest a wonderful BTS song, "graduation".

Simple yet catchy graduation song by the fetus bangtan.

Enjoy this and bye, guys.