what just happened? | an avengers ff

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When I got home I sat down on my couch and thought for a while. 

I didn't really want to admit it but. . . I was scared to see my family. It had been so long, years and years, I couldn't remember the last time I talked to them in person. my mother was bound to be excited, I bet she would coddle me and ask me all about how the suburbs were treating me. who I was friends with if I was talking to anyone. my father would not be as excited to see me, but still happy nonetheless. I would see all my cousins and we would play together. i would tell them stories and we would laugh at the small dining table. all crowded close, just enjoying each other's company. 

I felt my eyes burn and immediately blinked away what would have inevitably spiraled into an hour-long crying session. 

 I missed them. And I was going to see them. 

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" Shit. " I slapped my steering wheel. 

I was about an hour into the 10-hour drive, and the snow was picking up a lot. the radio was on, and the man was spurting something about terrible road conditions. it didn't help that I was in the middle of fucking nowhere. and that i'm a terrible driver. 

 I took a deep breath and kept on, going relatively slow. 

minutes passes, minutes turned to hours, and soon I was just staring at the whipping snow on the windshield. 

the visibility had become exceptionally terrible. I now couldn't see anything 7 feet from my car. 

Which is why I didn't notice the car coming right toward me until it was 7 feet away. 

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you know that feeling of just being. like floating, the feeling of weightlessness. just drifting along in the neverending darkness. it felt like a horrible dream. 

I heard the crunching first, and then the terrible sound of all the glass in the world shattering. the sounds were deafening.  I heard the tires squeal and I felt the airbag inflate into my chest. I think my head hit the steering wheel, or maybe it was my arm? I didn't feel real. my leg. oh, gods, my leg was on fire. 

breathe. 

breathe. 

breathe. 

I willed myself to just breathe. it was the only thing I could really do at that point. 

gods. this was terrible. 

thankfully it didn't last long when the ocean of blackness took me down again. 

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I opened my eyes. 

I didn't hurt. 

why didn't I hurt? well i'm not complaining but--

I was in my car still. my not-wrecked car. 

confused. I felt confused. 

did I-- did I imagine what had happened. it had felt all too real, though. 

" What the. " My voice was harsh against the silence in my car. 

Did i fall asleep while i was driving? It must've been a dream, then, or a nightmare I suppose. 

I was pulled over on the side of the road. I looked at my watch to check the time. 10:00am. 

I slept for some time then, considering when I lost track of when I was. 

I looked outside my car, it wasn't snowing. it was sunny, and it looked warm. I pulled out my phone to look at google maps to see where I was and how much longer I had to go. I guess the snow melted? that is really, really weird. but you know what? whatever, it doesn't really matter to me.