Lights Out

Chapter 1(snippet)

Chapter 1:

It feels a way I can't explain so hold me babe
I know you can't stay too long
And every melody has a way of reminding me of one your favorite songs

And I know we can't turn back time
I know we can't right those wrongs
But at least inside my mind (at least inside my mind, oh yeah)
It doesn't seem like you're gone (gone)
Even though I know you're too busy (ooh ooh) lovin' somebody else
And you're a million miles past gone
I wish my bed was warm but you lovin' somebody else
You can hear my heart saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh)
Are you lovin' somebody else?
You can hear my heart saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh)
'Cause you lovin' somebody else? (Somebody else)

When I see your face I start to break
I love you babe, it's hard to keep staying strong
'Cause it's takes strength to keep from crying
Wish I knew how to not hold on

And I know we can't turn back time (can't turn back time, no no)
I know we can't right those wrongs
But at least inside my mind (at least inside my mind, oh yeah)
It doesn't seem like you're gone (gone)
Even though I know you're too busy (ooh ooh) lovin' somebody else (lovin' somebody else)
And you're a million miles past gone
I wish my bed was warm but you lovin' somebody else
Oh babe, you can hear my heart saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh)
Why are you lovin' somebody else?
You can hear my heart saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh)
'Cause you lovin' somebody else? (Somebody else)

You say I treat you like your ex did
So you screaming F this, being to the exit
They say love is like chess,
Well I've been playing checkers and you was playing Tetris
Complicated and way too many levels
Too many skeletons in my closet, too many devils
Too many elephants in the room, I need a shovel
To maneuver through the manure all we do is settle
Arguments about (about), all my whereabouts (whereabouts)
All the girls I was with (I was with), all the reason that I'mma be without (without)
But I'm honest enough to admit, I shoulda honored your bluff
The material stuff there's hardly enough
Now when I'm calling it's like I'm calling with what
Now I know I shouda buy me a tux (ooh ooh, ooh ooh)

Even though I know you're too busy yeah lovin' somebody else (lovin' somebody else)
And you're a million miles past gone
I wish my bed was warm but you lovin' somebody else (lovin' somebody else)
You can hear my heart saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh)
Why are you lovin' somebody else? (Are you lovin' somebody else)
You can hear my heart saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh), saying (ooh ooh)
'Cause you lovin' somebody else? (Somebody else)

Rico Love - Somebody Else

*Korbin's Point of View*

I doubled over the toilet with my face damn near in the toilet. This was my fourth time throwing up. I opened my eyes and pushed back the tears that came to my eyes from me vomiting so hard. I noticed more blood in my vomit, and I became dizzy so I fell to my knees. I coughed up more blood. I groaned at the piercing feeling in my stomach. I heard my mother running for the bathroom so I quickly cleaned my mouth and flushed to toilet. When she walked in the bathroom, I pretended to be fine. "Are you okay?" She asked.

I smiled and nodded my head. "Yeah ma, you know I'm always good." It was hard to hold the smile knowing on the inside that I'm in serious pain.

She studied me. "Are you sure, Korbin? I'm worried about you." She said.

I chuckled lowly and wrapped one arm around my mother. "Mama, I'm alright." I gave her another reassuring smile.

She nodded her head and walked away. "I'm going to start dinner." She said.

"I'm not hungry." I said following behind her. Before she could respond, I heard someone ring the doorbell. I opened the door, and found Nick standing there.

"What's up bruh?" Nick asked giving me dap. Nick was a married man now. He was married to Sharon, and I've never really seen a couple so happy. On top of that, Nick is now the father of a little girl named Serenity now, and she's adorable and chocolate. Serenity is about 5 months old now.

"Nothing much." I nodded my head towards the stairs and walked upstairs into my mancave. Nicholas followed behind me and closed the door behind him.

Nicholas looked me up and down, and I could tell he was a bit hurt. "You're losing weight, man." He said shaking his head.

"Don't bring that shit up right now, Nick. It's bad that I have to deal with it. I don't want to be in this situation right now." I said sitting down carefully, but another waved of pain pierced into my stomach. This time I couldn't hide my wince and small yell of pain.

"You alright, man?" Nick asked looking worried.

I held my hand at him stopping him from coming closer. "I'm straight. Have a seat." I said.

He sat down and he just stared at me looking as if he were at a lost for words. "When was the last time that Chanelle saw you?" He asked.

I shrugged my shoulders. "Since the wedding I think." I answered remembering that Chanelle refused to drop my son of directly. She would take him to Sharon's and either I would have to go get him from there or Nick would bring him to me.

"Man, if she could see you right now. . .Sh-"

I interrupted him. "She would what? She's loving somebody else. She wouldn't give a damn about me." I said bitterly.

"Stop bullshitting, you know she would burst into tears if she saw you like this. I know that you still love her and she still loves you. I swear Natalia ain't nothing but a place holder."

I just stared at Nick because I wanted him to shut up really bad. "Look, I fucked up, and people have to learn how to let go and let the person they love be happy. Chanelle deserves to be happy so that stage of my life is over. Just leave her in my past." I said.

"Look me in my face and tell me you don't miss her." Nick said.

"Let's change the subject, I don't want to talk about her anymore." I sucked in a gust of air and then let it out dramatically because just the thought of Chanelle made me feel regret in my heart.

Nick must've caught the message because he changed the subject. "Are you going to play this season?" He asked.

I nodded my head. "I don't have a choice. I have Brielle, Kieran, and my mother to feed." I said.

"Football is not worth you losing your life, bruh." Nick said.

I shrugged my shoulders. "Then how will I be able to get my medicine or feed my family? I need this job."

"I'll help you out."

I immediately dismissed that idea. "Hell no, I can't let you do that man. I just can't." I shook my head.

"Football just isn't worth you losing your life." He repeated.

"I get that shit, man, but I have everything to lose if I don't play."

"You're too sick, Korbin."

"Am I immobile?" I snapped. Nick was quiet so I continued. "Alright then, I'm not giving up my meal ticket cause of some damn cancer. I'm still going to play no matter what the doctor or you say."

"Does anybody else know?" He asked.

I shook my head. "I don't need everybody worried about me while I'm worried about them. It's bad enough that I have you stressing over me." I responded.

Nick just glared at me. "What?" I asked.

"It's amazing that you're the sick one, but you're trying to take care of everyone else."

"Stop saying that shit man, I'm being a man." I answered.

"Are you scared?" He asked low.

I was quiet as I tried to hold back tears. Hell yeah, I'm scared as hell. "I'm a warrior. I fight my battles whether I'm scared or not so that doesn't matter."
"You know, Chanelle. . . . . . . ."