Anime AU's

piece # 6

title: "Drawing Our Moments."
penned by: s.rkive
piece #: 06
ship name: yakulev
anime: haikyuu!
date: March 10, 2022
time: 02:19 a.m
note: italized part means flashback. another angst serotonin, enjoy!

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When everything I thought was perfect fell apart, it was really painful....

Affection. It was what we have. He was affectionate towards me. He was sweet and caring—a total package—anyone will wish to have. On our relationship, I always feel like I'm the luckiest man alive. I could never ask for more. Being by his side was enough for me.

Our love was perfect, at least that's what I thought. Him, falling out of love for me never crossed my mind. All because I believe he would never will. Not until the day I've always been anxious of, finally arrived. The day I feared, happened.

I still remember everything that happened that day. I remember how fate turned its back on us. Everything he said, from the beginning until the end, i still remember.

Three Months before his birthday, I've been preparing. I thrift all my salary just to give him an extravagant celebration. However, everything fell in vain. All my efforts was thrown away in just a blink.

Yaku called me out of the blue. And as usual, I was excited to answer his call. He told me he wants to see me; that he wants to talk to me; and that I should meet him at a cafe. I was shock I may say. Yaku never tried to make the first move before, and so, I was really surprised.

To suddenly call me when I was the one who always calls him first; telling me he wants to see and talk to me; moreover, meeting him at a cafe he and I never went to.....everything was aberatted.

I was supposed to feel pumped with butterflies flapping on my stomach as always, but today, I wasn't. Instead, I was extremely anxious...nervous. So anxious that I was overwhelmed by the feeling.

I abide everything he said and meet him at the said place. When I entered the cafe, I immediately saw him. Our table was located near the door. As I approach him, his deadpan face became clearer. The anxious feeling I felt doubled. My knees trembled.

I sat at the vacant chair in front of him. He took a deep breath silently and I cleared my throat, trying to have the tension lessened. My heart was pounding as I wait to finally hear what he's going to say.

Our conversation started normally. It begins with one of us asking how the other was coping with life. Everything was normal....the tension lessened, and the awkwardness from the start remains. It doubled, actually.

We ordered a simple dessert and two drinks to try and ease up the situation. This time, he clears his throat. My heartbeat began to race. I began to sweat.

"Despite my best efforts to stay inlove with you...." From the first sentence of what he said, I felt the pang in my heart. I was sweating heavily. But then he added. "I express with regret that my heart drifts towards exploring life's possibility without you. I just couldn't find the word to say goodbye but it seems to be the only option."

"Wait..." I sighed. "My thoughts were in fragments I could hardly piece together. What happened? Why?"

My thoughts were a whole mess. My mind was full of questions only him could answer. "Yaku....where did I go wrong? What did I do? If I made a mistake somewhere please tell me...and I'll try my best to fix it. Just tell me, please.."

"You didn't do anything wrong, Lev. It's me...I am the problem. I tried to love you again like before. I swear I did. But it just didn't work out. It was easily said than done."

I don't understand anything.

I look at him with my eyes full of plea, asking him not to leave me. I was begging. Though his face shows his pained too, the determination to end the relationship we have was evident. I can't help myself but shed tears.

As I cried, the water began dripping. It was like the weather is with me. I never love someone before like how I love him.

He left me all alone at the cafe that time. And I remember how I cried for hours and also left that place on agony....with the food we ordered, untouched. I was doleful as I left that place.

After going to places we went to, to try and reminisce the memories; I sat at the bench this time, the place where everything on our relationship started. In the end, I was left drawing our moments.

I sniffed my cries and sighed. With the image of him on my head, I thought I was finally ready. I was hoping I am ready.

"It grieves me to put a closure in this relationship. Entrusting you to someone is a reality I couldn't even fully grasp. I'm trembling with gigantic plate and regret that I could go on further. But watch me gather all the courage I could muster to walk away. Trust me, all the memories we shared will remain in my heart and that will last forever. I am truly grateful I got to experience how to be loved and to love someone like you. This is me letting you go for good."

-end.