Insanity

Chapter five: its not your fault

I wake up, another nightmare and I start to cry into the pillow 'ches? What's wrong?' My eyes widened, mudkips here. I sit up still with tears falling down my face 'I..mudkip..I..I didn't want it to happen..im..im so sorry' I sobbed 'oh chespin...' he says worryingly he then imitates hugging me and I imitate back knowing I couldn't truly do this and I cry more 'hey..its okay ches, I know it wasn't your fault' I sniff and thank him. 'Maybe this isn't the best time but I can help you with the plasters you bought if you'd like?' He said I nod and go sit infront of my mirror and open a plaster and apply it the way he told me to. It covered my scar and it made me feel a bit better about it because maybe I wouldn't get so many weird stares in the street or no more "where's that scar from?" from random strangers so I smile.

I had been getting into robotics ever since his death so I decided to work on the robot id been building, and after a couple of hours it was finally done 'you finished it already? Its been like a week that was quick' mudkip says 'yeah kip I've beeb doing constant research and its kinda tiring but it'll all be worth it once my big thing is ready!' I say happily, this 'big thing' was for him though he's not getting to know that yet, Im really excited for his reaction I hope he likes it. I smile and continue researching 'you could atleast hint to what your big thing is you know?' He says and I roll my eyes jokingly 'all I can tell you is that its for you!' I smile and he gives me a funny look 'you do realise I can't like hold anything, yeah?' He says 'no I know' I reply and continue. A couple of hours pass and I decide to check the time and notice its 1am.

I turn my computer off and close my notebook, I then put all my tools away then went to bed and go to sleep.

I wake up the next day and notice the date, its a month since mudkip died and tears fall. I get up and get changed into one of mudkips white button t-shirts he let me borrow before....and I left the house and bought some flowers then made my way to the grave yard and found his grave and sat by it. My tears fell, I couldn't help it even if he was haunting me I still missed him. I knew there was no body In the coffin, nobody else did but I knew and suddenly I hear the voice behind me 'what are you doing here?' I sniff I didn't exactly know how to reply but I guess he knew so he sat next to me 'its not your fault' I nod and sniff and I stayed at the grave for a long time, it was getting dark but..let me rest my eyes for..just a second..