Damon's diary

part 4

dear death note

remember last time i wrote that i was reborn or time-traveled. well i haven't gone into detail cause i was 50% sure that stefan would snoop around my room and try to get some dirt then kick me out of mystic falls even though he will need his amazing, handsome, charming big brother to save him from the big bad hybrid and the scary~ originals when the drama starts.

although i have lived my life and all the drama, knowing what will happen in the future and all the terrible yet amazing plans i had made that failed because some people (elena,stefan) tended to get too emotional and ruin them, i have started to see things from the perspective of others.

honestly back then when i heard klaus had died i was happy and celebrated for the whole week, but then reality hit and i realized i was truly alone.

No Stefan- he decided to sacrifice himself, when it should have been me

No Elena- because deep down i knew she had a suicidal streak

No bon-bon- always saving the day

No blonde- dead before anyone could blink

No baby Gilbert- disappeared when everything fell apart leaving me behind even though we had gotten close. close enough to feel like brothers

No originals- all those times as enemies and fighting for no reason when i could have been there to help. To help the broken family that did not know what to do about raising a child. the family that did not know how to feel about there own mother, brother, father there own blood trying to kill them. The family that sacrificed themselves to only be remembered as evil and abominations.

I'll save them all.
Ill try to save as may as i can because although they all saw me as selfish and inhuman, I'll save them ..... because for the first time in awhile i can now see that some things are worth saving and sacrificing for. I'll be the hero that mystic falls needs once again but when I'm done, ill find peace for myself in either the other side, or in hell.

Stefan if your reading this I am still the bad one out of the two of us. Just because I'm getting sentimental does not mean that you can start talking about your heroic deeds to me. I'll probably end up tearing out my own heart. God I've become a sap.