Undying love (Saiouma fluff shots)

Understand that I love you(angst with fluff pregame saiouma)

Requests. 

This is a bit of a vent some things I want to happen. I think it'll be pretty easy to guess what, so...yeah.

It's a shitty day at the shitty school...I wish everything could get better Kokichi thought to himself. I still want to cry. I want a hug. I want lots of them, but I'll sound weird...why can't I be normal? He was by himself. He usually treasures being alone as he feels like he deserves this, but now he doesn't want to be alone. He was a bland person with hardly any personality to him...that's what he thought. He had this facade around his friends and someone he loved; he loved so much. The act was happy, overdramatic, sarcastic, and a jokester. He wanted to make people happy because he well knows; well, he thinks he knows that no one could ever love him in any way, shape, or form. He honestly wants to hurt himself... He used to not want to live, he didn't wish to die, but he doesn't want life either... 

He felt empty like there was nothing more to him other than someone in the background who, if he had gotten hurt, everyone would function fine. However, whenever Shuichi was around, even if it was a glance, he couldn't help but fall in love, yes they were already dating, but still, he felt comfortable around Shuichi like he could say anything. One day Shuichi confessed venting to a friend and then later vented to Kokichi... which made Kokichi think they were in pain...I can't open up ever, and I will make them feel worse with my dumbass problems. I don't want him to feel worse because I say how...whatever...not as it mattered. 

One day, after a couple of years passed, Kokichi, just like he wanted has started to disappear from people's lives. He hasn't been to school in the past month and has left all his friends on read. One day, Shuichi knocked on Kokichi's house. Kokichi slowly opened the door, and he looked...horrible. 

I mean, his eye bags were huge and had a dark purple and red color indicating that he hadn't been sleeping, also crying--a lot--his hair was messy and everywhere. He looked very pale and a bit more skinny than he already was. 

"K-Kokichi..." was all Shuichi could say. Kokichi sniffled a bit and rubbed his glassy eyes. 

"What do you want," he mumbled. Shuichi hugged him. Kokichi liked it; it was so warm and inviting. Yet he told himself he was doing this out of pity. 

"I need to know how are you, without any lies," Kokichi led Shuichi into his house towards his room. He silently sobbed, not making eye contact with his ever so worried lover. The silence drenched the room, and Shuichi put his hand on Kokichi's face. 

"You can tell me whenever you're ready," Shuichi reassured, but that just made Kokichi's face and eyes prick with tears. He sniffled and gasped as his tears suffocated him. Shuichi pulled him into a hard hug, making calming noises. "shh, it's ok, I'm here just tell me what's wrong...I will help you, angel," 

"Why Shuichi..." he stuttered. "Why do you have to care? There are so much better things out there than whatever I am. I can't even live properly; I use stupid ways to cope and calm down. I hurt myself; that's how I get calm, so why do you--" he was cut off by a small kiss by Shuichi. 

"I love you because of who you are. I love you because of your ability to listen when people need you to. I love you because of how perfect every single part of you is. I love--" 

"I love you too...I'm sorry," they hugged tighter Shuichistarted to kiss Kokichi lightly. 

"It's ok, love, you have nothing to apologize about; I am so proud that you could open up about these things," Kokichi slept in Shuichi's arms as he heard those words. The world stopped for the better.