TRIGGER WARNINGS: EXPLICIT LANGUAGE MENTION OF SUICIDE
NOAH's POV
It's been a whole week now since we had came back home from uncle Damien's house and Rocky still haven't let me touch him , he's been distancing himself and it's been pissing me off he doesn't even lay in the same bed as me .
I thought we had went over how sorry i was for being to primal during our sex session but i guess my apology wasn't enough .
I had never had the urge to cry but the lump in my throat was hurting from me not doing so but i knew i needed to get away from everyone and just be by myself for a while so i went to the only place where i wouldn't be found .
When i arrived to the small cabin i built by myself i dug the keys up out of the dirt and unlocked the door it creaked as i walked inside so i had to remind myself to fix it up because i maybe be sleeping here .
By the semi-large window there was a small grey loveseat with a small wooden nightstand beside it and on the left it had a wooden table with two chairs placed on each side of it - it also had a small black and grey fridge on the side of it and lastly it had a small coffee table in the middle of the room .
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After an hour of crying and burning wood i was still pissed , stressed and frustrated , that usually had helped but now it didn't and i didn't know what else to do so i walked out locking the door and making sure to bury the key again before i shifted Seiko was just as pissed as me and i knew he was ready to haunt.
SEIKO's POV {Noah's wolf}
I crouched down as low as we could go between these two huge trees it was nearly dark and my black silky fur was starting to blend in with the darkness , when the deer trotted a-pass just strolling i took that as a opportunity and pounced on it-it started bawling loudly trying to kick with it's back legs i placed my big paw on his stomach before i sank my canines into his torso .
NOAH's POV
When we were done haunting i walked into my parents house thanking the lord that no one was here i stalked straight up the stairs to my father's office his office always had a lot of whiskey in it and although i wasn't a drinker i needed one right about now
I grabbed the big glass of whiskey and me a glass cup and went to sit behind my dad's desk .
*drink one*
Did Rocky not want me ? Was i not good enough for him? Was i a horrible mate that he thought wanted to kill him?.
*drink six*
Fuck Rocco if he thought i wasn't enough for him then that's on him i wont sit around and wait until he feels like talking to me he got me fucked up if he thought i was going to come beg him to talk like a puppy.
I was starting to catch a headache and i thanked god when i saw a bottle of pills i tried to read the label but everything was blurry so i opened it taking out two i think and swallowed them i drowned another cup of whiskey to wash them down , my eyes immediately started getting heavy.
ROCKY's POV
He always does this he always leaves when shit gets to hard for him and i hate it , i hate the fact that he's never willing to fight for me and i'm not talking about physically.
It's been almost twenty four hours since i last seen my mate and i was getting ate alive something didn't feel right and Nevi was just pacing calling for our mate through mind link but he blocked us so with worry i went out of the house and shifted .
It's been an five hours and i still haven't found Noah , i was about to shift back but i caught his scent and immediately started following it.
I walked into my alphas house sniffing "Anybody here" i yelled but continued to search when i didn't see or smell anyone .
Worried filled me as i followed the strong scent of whiskey and my mates scent mixed together, i kicked down the office door once i couldn't get it unlocked and there was my mate , on the floor with a big bottle of whiskey and a empty pill bottle.
My heart sinked and i rushed over to him immediately putting him in my lap "come on baby" i said i didn't know i was crying until tears started falling , i put my head on his chest to see if i could hear his heart and i could only it was faint "oh my god" i cried while picking him up and running out of the house "hold on for me please" i begged my unconscious mate while i rushed to the hospital wing
Come to the hospital wing asap i said mind-linking Aiden
On my way he responded.
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NOAH's POV
I groaned as the sun light hit my face , i had a pounding head and the constant beeping was pissing me off "how could you" i blinked before looking over at my mate who's eyes was puffy and red as if he had been crying all day .
Why was i in the hospital wing?
"What are you talking about" i asked him while pulling the IV out of my arm "you were willing to die on me , you were going to leave me here alone mourning your death until i died" the sound of his cracking voice had me trying to get out of the bed but the nurse came in pushing me back down making me growl at him "Rocky tell me what happened i can fix it" i told my mate but he only shook his head getting up from his chair
"I love you but clearly that's not enough" he said before he walked out "let me the fuck go" i yelled at the nurse who gulped but kept a tight hold on me , i couldn't shift and i couldn't use my abilities "Noah stop" i instantly freezed at the sound of my mom's shrill voice "you can't go anywhere son" daddy said as he came to stand beside me .
"You were going to kill yourself instead of talking to us or your mate Noah what the hell is going on" mom asked sitting down in the same chair that Rocky sat in i shook my head not wanting to talk about it because if i did everything would come out .
"Your unstable right now Noah and i think you should take a break from your duties" i shook my head quickly
"Mom i promise i'm stable i admit i was drunk but i thought i only took two i'm not suicidal" i told her truthfully "you took a whole bottle of pills Noah , you shut everyone out including your mate then you disappear out of fucking thin air as is you didn't have duties or a mate who feels alone when he shouldn't" i couldn't stop the tears that fell from my eyes , Rocky felt lonely and i didn't even noticed , i was pushing everyone away and was blind to the fact that i could lose my family .
