Baby Boy | Namjin | AU

Chapter Four: Secrets

A few days passed without mention of Namjoon's weird reaction, before Jin finally decided to bring it up again, hoping to get a real answer from him.

"Namjoon, can we talk?" he asked one night.

"Okay, what's wrong?" Namjoon replied.

"Nothing's wrong, necessarily. It's just- can we talk about what happened at lunch a few days ago?"

"What?" Joon questioned, confused.

"Remember? How I had to send my food back and order something else just so you would stop crying?" Jin didn't wanna put it so bluntly, but he knew he had to in order to get his point across. Namjoon looked down.

"Oh... What about it?"

"I was just wondering why you got so upset about it. Did I do something wrong?"

"No... No. It's just- I don't- I don't think crabs are food. Please don't eat them around me." The truth is, Jin had already vowed, after seeing what happened when he did, that he would never eat another crab in front of Namjoon, but that didn't make him any less curious as to why it was such a big deal.

"I won't. But I just wish you would tell me why."

"Like I said: I don't think crabs are food. And it upsets me when people eat them, so please don't." Namjoon spoke harshly, knowing that if they talked about this topic for too long, it would force him right back into littlespace again.

"I'm sorry. I should've realized before. You've been telling me you won't eat seafood since our very first date." Jin responded, kind of mad at himself for not understanding Namjoon's reasons, but still not 100% convinced of why he would have such a strong reaction to it.

"It's okay, I'd just rather not talk about it, alright?"

"Okay..." And with that, Jin dropped it, realizing it would probably be better if he just left it be, at least for a while, and then maybe eventually he'd get a better explanation. "What are you doing tonight?"

"Nothing, why?"

"Do you wanna go out? I heard there's a new amusement park that's only open at night." If Namjoon was being honest, the idea of it sounded great, but he knew it was a bad idea. Just the sight of the teddy bear prizes and cotton candy was enough to make him slip into littlespace and not be able to get out of it. So, despite wishing he didn't have to, he lied.

"I don't really- I don't really like amusement parks. I'm sorry."

"Oh, that's okay. How about a movie? I heard there's a new one playing at the theater." Unfortunately for Joon, cinemas were another thing that he couldn't go to without being forced into littlespace by the sight of popcorn and slushies.

"I- I'm- I don't really like watching movies with strangers." Again, that was a complete and total lie, but he just wasn't ready to admit the real reason he couldn't do all these things with Jin. He really, really wanted to, but it was just too much. With no luck, Jin gave up on trying to find something to do outside of the dorms anyway.

"Okay. Why don't we just go to sleep then?" he offered, hoping Namjoon would at least agree to something, even if it wasn't going out.

"Only if you'll sleep in my bed. I don't wanna go to separate rooms." Joon admitted. Jin smiled, happy that he wasn't the reason Joon didn't want to go out.

"Of course." he agreed. They both went to bed and held each other tightly. It was times like this that Namjoon wanted to confess his secrets the most; number one being that he was a little, and number two being that he was in love with Jin. But, unsure of how Jin would react, he simply fell asleep, having told him nothing.