denial. [ chris evans ]

[ 1. apartment hunting ]

Daphne.

I don't really trust myself much, but this is what I needed to do. To be independent and to be able to handle my own shit without running to my mom about everything. Mom and I are really close, not as close as my twin brother Danny. I'm older than Danny by 10 minutes, kinda cool to be honest though. Besides the fact that my university is close to our home, I have been thinking about this decision since my first year in college, I guess I was just really attached to my mom and the ambiance of our home. I would catch my mom sleeping on my brother's arms while watching Harry Potter on HBO, I would think to myself 'How can I tell her?'.

Danny, or Dan as he prefers, has no intention of going to college since he was blessed by a deal from an entertainment company to be a choreographer. Which, might I add, pays a whole lot of money. Dan and I would occasionally rent a dance studio so we could dance together, learn choreographies, teach each other knowledge in dance that we don't know, etc. As kids, we were already into dancing, but my brother and I are two different people even if we're twins (not identical, just a heads up).

The real question here is, how am I gonna come up with money for my school allowance and fees? I actually have a scholarship because I was appointed by our organization at school of being the university's Dance Team President and Head Choreographer which helped me eased my decision of letting go of home. At this age, I should be going out there to reach the responsibility as an adult making my way to the industry that I wanna go into. Dancing could be a side hustle since I really wanna focus on Psychology. I fished my phone from my hoodie after I closed my laptop and searched for my best friend's, Jo, contact and facetimed her.

4 rings later. "Hi Daph." Jo was scratching her eyes and getting up from her bed.

"Jooo! Did I wake you again?" I asked as I giggled watching her holding back her laugh.

"Yes you did, thank you very much." She got up and flipped me off. I laughed at her sleepy ass.

She asked why I called, I haven't told her about me moving out yet. I know this would be so hard since she loves to come by our house after classes when I don't have dance trainings. My mom adores Jo, whenever I'm unavailable by dinner Jo would go to my house and help mom with dinner. There are times when Dan and I's schedule would clash and mom would be left alone at home during the evening, Jo would call my mom and come over to accompany her. I don't know what I'll do without her, I'm grateful for this sexy ass bitch.

"Why'd you call Daph? Everything okay?" She put her phone down on her bathroom sink, I think she's taking a shit.

"I need you to come with me. We're gonna look for a nice and budget friendly, I hope, apartments so I can move this week."

"That early? Your first day at uni is not until 2 months later." She has a point. I have thought this through, I needed to allot some time for me to adjust to being alone and independent. Stuff like buying groceries, learning how to fix this and that, talk to neighbors and not be too much of an introvert.

"Jo, if you think about it, I really need time to adjust to everything. So that when uni starts, I have nothing much to worry about."

    Jo sighed quietly. I know she's upset- well not really upset, sad rather about me going away. I know how much it means to her, for us to be with each other. Jo only has me, mom, and Dan in her life, she basically lives alone now but her aunt (who is nice, don't worry) would always give her allowance and extra money for her expenses.