Age,Fame and all those Little things

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

I quickly peck Harry on the lips and run out of his car into my house I wave bye quickly as I reach in my back pocket.He stops backing out.When he tosses me my keys at me through the window.He pulls out and I wave one last time and go to put my key in the whole when the door opens.A glass of white wine,A red suit and the smell of chanel #5.Yep my mum is home."The first time were home and you late.Who was that?" "I'm sorry there was crazy traffic."I try to walk past her to get inside but she stops me."Who were you with?You only 14 you shouldnt be with someone who drives." "Hey mum.I'm 16 and I can already drive.I was just with Harriet and the girls."Not a complet lie.Harriet is Harry in girl name and the girls are El,Dani and Perrie."I don't belive I have met Harriet." "You did she was the girl with curly brown hair and the green eyes." "I thought that was Kami." "Kami has strait hair now.And it's blonde.And were not friends any more she moved to a town in Chesire" "Wow Harriet isn't looking to good."Yeah cuz she is a he."Sorry I was late let me get into my dineing clothes.Who will be joining us tonight?" "How did you know that people are joining us tonight?" "I have know sense I was 7 mum.You have to reconect with your soical friends.I know." I slid past her.And she get a smell of something."Honey why do you smell like colonge?"Shit.I must be from one of the guys."Oh Louis popped by over there." "I swear you have to many friends to keep track of."And thank God of it.Thats one of the perks to being a cheerleader at a huge school.I run up to my room and get dressed into this.(On the side)But sense I got it a few years ago My boobs have gotten to big for the bust and the show.Plus the fact I have a push up bra dosn't help.Lets hope that they don't bring their any of thier friend's sons tonight.There was a knock on my door."Come in." I yelled to the door as I looked at the back of my dress in my full body mirror.I hear my door open but no voice.I turn my head to a male about few years older than me.Maybe Harry's age.I clear my throat.Then i use my guest voice that my parents want to me to have when ever we have guest."Can I help you?"I used my posh voice.I swear I hated talking like this."Actually I was looking for the bathroom.I guess I took the directions wrong."the male said in his american accent."Your American." "Yeah everybody have been picking on me about it.Can't wait till school tomarro." "What school are you going to?" "I'm not quite sure yet." "Well you should probly figure out before morning comes love."I said crossing my arms over my chest maeking his eyes snap back to my face.He thinks I don't notice.He's cheeks turn a deep shade of red from imbaressment."How about I show you were the bathroom is."I walk across my huge room and slide past him."Follow me.Sorry you had to see me before I was ready."I appologized to him.I walk him to the bathroom well away that he was stareing at my bum the whole time."I stop in the middle on the long hallway."I would greatly appriceate it if you were stareing at my body the whole time.I have a boyfriend of 2 years and I would really like it if you were looking at me as if you were a dog and I was a pile of meat.Thanks"This time I said it in my normal everyday voice.I really didin't feel like putting in the extra effort."I'm sorry I didn't think that you noticed." "Well I did-"I stated then I went back to my posh voice."-The bathroom is the last door on the left.If your turn down the hall your to far.I'll see you at dinner."I left him standing there starstruck.As soon I get in my room I close the door and jet out my phone.I really want to talk to Harry.I know I just saw him but cut my some slack I want to talk to him and I didn't see him that much really.I was basicly with the girls the whole time I was there."Hey babe."His voice was raspy and huskier than normal."I'm sorry did I wake you?" "It's fine." I could hear him moveing around by the rusteling of the sheets.He cleared his thoat to talk better."Whats up?" "I just hate the fact that this is their first night home.They are haveing company over as usual and there was this awkwardly stupid,obnoxious guy and We haven't even sat down at the dining table and i'm already stressed out.Sorry I'm ranting!"I said in all one breath which I quickly retrived not a second later after I finished my sentance."I't ok just breath.This is just like all the other times they get back.You can just text me under the table till your parnets catch you.Besides it's not like you talk to them they jsut talk to their friends.It makes me wonder why you even have to go when all you do is eat and text a handsome curly lad all the time." I smile to myself."Yeah this cheeky lad." I said with a chuckle."I don't know how but everything just seems to be gone with you.It's almost like I'm in my own little world." "Our little world babe.Cuz that makes two of us."My smile some how gets bigger.Bang,Bang."Ella dinner is being served meet us-" "In the dining room I know.I'll be down in a second."I yelled away from the phone but Harry knew the drill."I still haven't finished my hair and make up is it cool if I put you on speakerphone?" "Yeah." I push the button and walk over to my huge vanity."So why were you sleeping at 6:00?"I ask him with my curiosity that has been building up."Cause I was tired." "Did you have another dream last night?" I ask not moving.I was pretty scared about his dreams they were so dark but he only talked to me about them.I'm glad I have that rust from him.It proves I'm not just his girlfriend for my body or for publicity or to date Harry Styles.But because I love him and care for him.Bacasue I want to know whats going on with him and why he feels this way.But latly his dreams have been conecting.But they are all difrent.Like a puzzle.I have been trying to figure them out for awhile now.And I don't know how a sweet boy who is thankfull and happy for liveing his dream could be so dark.I mean yeah theres days were everybody is like"Why are we really here if all they are going to do is judge us for not being enough"But he's that was everynight.Not to mention if it was really bad sometimes he'll thinks the way that he thought in the dream.It was almost like theres a happy cupcake Harry and a Dark Harry.Just dark.Some times I worry about him.I don't even know if the boys have noticed the days were he was Dark Harry.But when ever he was he would be here.At least the great thing is,is that no matter which Harry he is he dosn't hit me.My other boyfriends didn't abuse me.But you'd think the dark Harry would be physical but he's just deep."Yeah I did." "What was it about this time?" I ask looking at myself in the mirror.Looking at green eyes wich were exactly like Harry's.I did that alot when we talked looked at my eyes pretending they were his green loveing eyes."You don't have much time till the dinner.I can tell you later."It must have been to long and bad I guess.I was worried and you could easily see it in my face.A few tears sliped out of my eyes at the thought of Harry struggeling with keeping everything together and haveing to deal with these dreams."Fine But as soon as I leave that table we are talking about it.Have you figured out any idea of why you get them?" I start fixing my make up knowing my mum will come back up soon yelling at me partily drunk for keeping people waiting.But I have a few minutes before she notices out of the crowd of people.I could even here them silently through my ari vent.It might be about 20-25 people.Knowing my mum she will bring a few friends tonight and some more tomarro.She will also keep a few seets empy at the table to make it look like she has to much table or because she wants them to think other people are coming so certain people would come or just to make them jealous with how many friends they had from traveling around the world."No I'm still clueless well maybe your smart girl brain can help figure it out.So far you have been saying stuff that seems right."Why thank you."I tried to sound happy for him.Maybe cheer him up and forget for awhile.Thats what usually happens.He goes back to sleep after being up for awhile about his dream and when he wakes up he just forgets it for the day and it dosn't bother him till he goes back to bed and wakes up with another one.I put on natural make up then quickly straiten my wavey hair."Ella!You were supose to be downstaris!"My angry mum speed walks through the door."You still not finished with your hair!What are you a child do I need to do everything for you?"She yanks the comb out of my hands and is quickly fiddling with my hair.Please Harry don't hear this to well."If you weren't goofing around with your silly little pom pom friends you would be down starirs and ready right now!" "Hey!I wasn't even with my squad!And what took me extra time was that stupid American boy walking in on me and stareing at me like I was his personal stripper!"I need to go to the bathroom.But while you walking let me check out your ass and cleavage!"I yelled back at her."Ryan is Harmless in this sitchustion!You need to be a little more responsiable!I knew that both of us traveling the contry was a bad Idea.But no Darren is just fine with babysitting you!" "Darren is fine i listen to his rules and I listen to yours!I'm sorry i screwed up i'm only a human!"I screeched at her.She sighs heavly full of aggrivation and anger."Just don't be late for tomarro." "I got a game tomarro." I mumbled."Ok fine.I don't care if your here or not tomarro but your going to be tonight!"She said tightening the hair tie on my eleagent ponytail."Ow!"I ened up screaching in pain.I could feel my head throb.now I was pisssed off.She exits the room"Be down in less then 10 minutes or you will be punished."She slammed the door and tears priked in my eyes.I wipe away the few stray tears makeing sure my make up didn't get ruined."Looks like were talking about more than just my dream arn't we." "Yeah.I guess so.I got to go.I love you." "I love you too."I hang up sliping on my shoes then walking down the many steps carful of tripping and breaking every bone in my body.As I got to the the dining room the chatting got louder mix with some eleagent laughs.I hated haveing lot of poeple here.See I didn't mind my parents being home or have their friends over.But 25 people at a time and not even talking to your daughter the first night your home.Well that just pissed me off.I couldn't care less that they are living their dream and traveling around the world all the time only home for a few days then going back around the country.I perfectly fine with being a mistake that kept my mum home leaveing dad alone to travel for a good amount of months.My mum already told me how I was a mistake last year.But she was drunk and said she didn't mean it.But she always tells the truth when she is drunk.Because when she's drunk she dosn't care.Not that she cares much when she's sober.I enter the room taking my seet next to my dad."Hi Darling."He sai kissing my cheek because of my red lipstick."Welcome home daddy."I crossed my legs under the table potioning myself nicely.Crap I forgot my phone upstairs!Great now a dinner with this.At least I got a seat next to my dad.I like my dad more than my mum.He's more understanding and not as stressed out and or strict."What have you been doing these past two months?" "Nothing out of the usual.Games,practice,school.Nothing to crazy."An exact lie.I never do anything normal.I'm almost always out doing something."My good girl.Your always so focased on school.Are you still planing on takeing up in our buisness?" He had a giant smiel on his face.I don't know hwy he wan't me to follow his footsteps.I don't want to travel around the world all the time.I actually want to have kids and be with them most of the time and be coneccted to them and know how old they are or what grade they are in.Thats the thing that they don't get about me.I'm not them.I the complet opposit of them."Actually Daddy I don't want to do what you and mum do."I admitted.His face drops alittle."I'm sorry Daddy,its just that I dont want to constently be flying around the world never seeing my kids." "It's ok everyone if diffrent just take the path that makes you happy.-"He leans in close to me."-Just dont tell your mother she had a bad plane flight." "Well that explains alot."I mumbled back to his whipser.We both ened up laughing quietly when I shared a glance with the American boy.I do a very small smile for my mum's sake but it quickly disipers.It was on my face for no longer then a second.But he smiled back the started talking to an older woman.Which I'm asuming is his mum."Daddy." "Hmm?"He turns his attention back to me putting down his wine glass."Who is that American boy?-Thank you."I said the last part to one of the servers we had for the evening."Ryan Darling?He's Kathrin and Auther's son." "Auther?As in your best friend Auther?You know I don't even know how he got that name.It's like a name from a fairy tale or something.It makes it original.I kindo of like it." I stated picking up a galss of white champage.I know I'm only 16 and the drinking age is 18.But I'm not going anywere and I get permission when they throw a party or have a dinner gathering.Of course I don't get drunk but if i do I'm happy the night they are here.It dosn't matter anyways.My parents only let me drink that night and if they see my drink then I'm not allowed to leave the house.And of course if the police come then the truth is if I am drunk in my own home with permission to drink by my parent I'm allowed as long as i don't leave the house.But the police never come and if they do it's because they are friends with my parents.But they try and keep away from the police because they know I like to drink some champagen,maybe even alittle wine when they get back.But I like to stick to champagen,sometimes red sometimes white.I know I know.A 16 year old talking about the kind os alcohol she drinks.Judge me any way you want to,I really don't care.I take a sip of it from the eleagent glass."Yes as in Auther one of my best friends." "Can you tell me more about him?" "Why do you fancy him?" "No,I'm just curious about him,And is you say that I fancy him again I will not be happy.I have a crush at a guy at school." "I'll have to meet him."I roll my eyes inless you don't care that He is 3 years older than me and is a teen heart throb then you can meet him soon."Well anyway,Ryan just moved here from Californa with his parents,He's 19 but he got held back one year in high school." "What school is he going to be attending?"I take another sip letting the nice liqued go down my throat."I'm not sure they only moved here a week or two ago.I think they were going to settle in abit before he was enrolled." "Well he jsut happend to stop by my room.It ends up he is going to school tomarro"I pick up my proper eating fork and begin to eat as I talked more about Ryan with my dad.

I have to addmit it,Curiosity often over comes me.

What does it mean if I don't care to love anymore,Have I given up or am I just sick of it?-Ella