Dreams into Reality

My Life

(This is old) 

At the time that I was in the tenth grade in high school, I wrote poetry and stories. I am never have forgotten when someone in my life made me feel like this, like a weak person who is being very hurtful to me.

Even though we went to our separate ways, it doesn't change the pain away. Like one time, I and they always share poetry and they threw me away, and she threw the friendship necklace away and I never forget what it looks like.

I like to put an example of an old poem that I could try to remember. It was about true friendship and never will break away.

'When I first met you,
We were enemies and became best friends,
We grew until something bad happened,
And we came back together,
Our friendship will last forever,
True friends tell each other the truth and never lie to each other,
That is why we are indescribable.'

It hurt me when I saw this and it made me feel so weak in my life and sometimes that I don't know why I am here anyway?

I had people in my life that I was been bullied and I been thrown away like no one cares or sees my problems.

Well, it's life and no one knows why. I don't know why things happen.

More reasons why I am like this is that my personality is strange and weird, and most of my AntiSocial life. Well, depression,
anxiety, eating disorder, and others that I have that made me what I am.

I don't have many friends physical cause I don't go out much as I stay home all the time. That my life. My isolation that my family made me feel worse and I don't know why this happens to me between them and me?

I don't deserve this for what I get from them, some of my family doesn't talk to me. They would be a job, be busy, or doing something that I don't know about. I want to be free and I been hurt too many times and I wish that I get out of here where I live at and moved on. My past still haunts me since I was 4 years old.

I guess I deserve what I get for granted. :(