CRONUS (Charmer of Females)

You Found Me

"Are you certain that this is the dress you wish to wear tonight?" Kim questions as a teasing smirk blooms across her face one that has my cheeks flush with a fierce wildness. 

"Yes," I reply attempting to disguise the unease that drowns me with a feeling of utter breathlessness. "Should I perhaps change then? Do I not look good in it?"

"No! You look ravishing Yara, the male you desire with the entirety of your heart shall surely be entranced by your beauty."

"Do you not find it sinful that instead of being excited by the probability that I may discover my male soon I am instead endeavouring to entice a wolf who isn't mine?" 

"I am not an adult and you know that the advice you are looking for I cannot give you for I am on the same boat as you with Christos. We are young and I believe it is not immoral for us to have crushes or be infatuated with another. Growing up, males aren't taught to save their virtue or their first kiss for their mates, but we females are bound to such absurd rules. Whatever you want to experience in your life before you find your moon blessed do it! I will stand by you, Yara."

She giggles lovingly as I yank her towards my heat to envelop my limbs around her flesh embracing her as my response to her words. "You look beautiful, Yara. Happy birthday I love you." Her sweet words that are whispered out sink into my ears like a pacifying lullaby slaying away all my worries about turning eighteen and about...the charmer of females. 

"Thank you and I love you more." I gently nudge her cheek with the tip of my nose and she does the same with mine, our bond of friendship seems to only grow more powerful with each passing year rather than breaking apart like most female friendships. I am grateful that I have Kim in my life she has been my moral support ever since we became close at fifteen years of age.

"Come now the party has already started and they are all waiting for you at the main pack grounds."

I take in a deep breath to settle my pounding heart that refuses to contain the surging ache which wounds me. I definitely will not know who my male is tonight for my wolf still sleeps but on the other hand, now that I am eighteen I can belatedly do something with these burdensome feelings of mine I can finally have a taste of the male I have endlessly yearned for during the last four years. Four years is how long I relentlessly pursued Cronus even I cannot believe it I have never been the one to chase my pride never allowed it but with him, it was and still is very much different. 

This truth petrified me because I couldn't prevent the alteration that had ultimately occurred for what started out as pure curiosity shifted into a smouldering crush that torched me alive then moved to a heartwrenching 'like' and now finally has evolved to the last phase to...love. Wolves would ridicule me if I claimed that I loved Cronus because I would be just like all the other females waiting for her turn in the never-ending queue demanding his heart and soul praying that he ends up being mine. Just one out of the many and to add to that I stand at the very last. 

Loving him comes naturally for my species because what about him cannot be loved? Forget his tantalising looks that mesmerise or his ever so charming smile it is all about his personality. The way he cares when others do not, the way he sees what wolves are blind to, the way he is patient, thoughtful and understanding the way he can do nothing but just stand beside me and that is more than enough to make me feel at home. The closer we got last year the more my heart only danced to his music. I spent four years with him not family not friends just lingering somewhere in the middle without a label yet he has mercilessly conquered my soul in every way. 

Turning eighteen is something we females look forward to for your wolf is birthed and your male is shown to you in light but here I am so upset by this for today is the last chance I get to have with Cronus. Either we become something or nothing at all and this is why my heart bleeds for it is a risk that I will be taking.