In The Closet. [READER × KIM NAMJOON]

_14_ Pace

✨Y/N's POV✨

My head felt heavy. Like I was drowning and the water was pressing hard on me. I tried to open my eyes but it was too hard. All I could see was darkness in back of my head. It felt warm. Astonishingly warm in the cold water. Only thing my senses can register this time was a fragrance. The sweet freesia and lavender kind of. It felt beautiful, if the smell can ever be that. It's the scent which I encountered not a long time ago but I can't remember where. It was faint then but now it was stronger.
A light gush of wind hit my cheek and I relocated my pupils.
I realised I was staring at the dark with my eyes open without realising. I wasn't in water then! Where was I? My room? No, not the familiar feeling of my room. I stared at the ceiling trying to remember if that was the fan of my room.

Another gush of warmness and I tilted my face to that direction and found a face, bathing in the moonlight that melted my heart.
Skin, like carved out of clouds, glistening slightly. Lips slightly parted and now I can hear the light breathing and felt another warm breath. His forehead and bronze fringes, now black in the night's darkness was shining with reflection of night luminosense. The silver light faintly covered his face, highlighting his high and perfect nose, the soft hallows of his eyes which was now closed.
The human sculpture was so close that I could even see the silver of his eyelashes.
His hand was draped on my waist along my arm, warm fingers interwined with mine, keeping me close to him.
His chin was brushing my shoulder and I inhaled in the mesmerization at how ethereal he was. He looked like the human incarnation of moon glowing in silver. My heart ached to touch his face, to caress his silky hair and like he was reading my mind he came closer, as if there was any space left between us. His hand at my waist made me turn my back on him and pressed me against him nuzzling his head against mine and that's when he breathed on my neck making shivers run through me from head to toe. I was warm in his arms but a chill went through me when he spoke in his raspy sleepy voice. The whisper entering my soul from ears. Like a mixture of velvet and mist smoke.

"Y/N"

Some mixed emotions flowed through me at once. The feeling of freefall or roller coaster, when you're so light that you don't know whether you're going up or falling down.

And the moment slowly fell back as it was. The wonderful comfort of the warmness, his even breathing, only this time it hits on the back of neck making me forget all the other things. I never got to know when my eyes closed again clutching firmly on the hand that kept me close to his beating heart.

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"Earth to Y/N" a small hand shook me out of my trance and I blinked at the confused looking face, "did you even heard what I said?" she asked doubtfully.

"I am sorry, what"

"Really Y/N, you're like this from the morning. I thought it was because of the exam. After that you're still out of it. What happened?" Jisoo asked cocking her head to side. "Did something happened between you and Namjoon last night?"

Yeah, I told her. Taehyung would have told her sooner or later so it was best if she got to hear about my crush from me, myself. She never once complained about telling her sooner and just listened to my theories of not liking me back. She encouraged me to confess but I just couldn't. It's too much to even think about that situation. What if he rejected and I would never be able to see him in the eye ever. It would be so hard for me to come to college again where he taught.

"It's nothing like that" I shooed away her grin "it's just this images keep coming in my mind" It was more like I said to myself.

"What? So now you're having daydreams about him!! Just tell him already Y/N!" She was more excited for me than me.