Insanity kill's

well this sucks...

After I finished my entry my nap lasted a whole fifteen minutes, a nurse walked into my room and tells me I have a vistors. For the entire time I have been here I have had no visitors, which really does suck because it makes the days take for ever and you have nothing to look forward too. I began to make my way to the door of my room and the nurse stops me, She is being really nice today it is starting to scare me she pulls me close to her and nicely and quietly which is unusual for her " Be on your best behavior, Having visitors can be a little overwhelming at times and if you want to leave at any point you can come find me in the room and i will take you back to your room." as step a little back I say thank you and okay and we make our way down to the visitor's lounge.It is weird I have been here for almost three year's and I have never been in this room. When I am fully into the room I see three people but they are not facing me so I have no clue who they are. It is not until the woman turns around you could tell how nervous she was she kept fidgeting and she looks familiar. Then it clicked ! "Mom?"she quickly turned around to face me and she smiled and then to men turned around and I quickly ran to them and hugged my mom and dad and taking in how much I missed them both. I was so caught up in the moment with my parents that it took me a minute to realize my best friend zayn was sitting in the chair next to the ones my parents were in. I walk over to him and embrasse him into a hug, I did not realize how much I truly missed these three people. After Zayn and I finished hugging we all sat back down, it was really awkward for a minute because it was dead silent. "So Zayn how is that horrendous place we call high school?" I lightly chuckled trying to start small talk. " Ehh it's ok I rather not go to school most of the time but thats every student." As zayn and I continued to talk I could see my parents talking to each other about something, and it is beginning to bother me that neither of them has said anything to me. As mine and zayn's conversation becomes awkward

silence I turn to my parents who decided that after three years they will come see me. " so Meredith and Robert what made you two decide to come see me today?" I know I startled them when I addressed them by their names. My mother was not Pleased, " Christina I am your mother you till address me as your mom not by my name same with your father you understand me?" I just began to laugh and that infuriated her and I could tell zach was getting a kick out of this. " Whats so funny Christina?" my father or should I say robert says in a very serious tone. " What's funny, why am I laughing at my so called parent, well let me enlighten you! Three years you have let me sit here, yeah I get you want me to get better but the worse part of all of this is that you never came and visited me or called me. So why did you guys come today of all days?" I did not realize I was crying until I finished and I felt someones arms around me. I turned and saw zayn holding me, I completely turn around and hug him back and sob into his sweater.

I wipe my eyes and take a deep breath and grab a glass of water from the nurse she also hands me a kleenex. I walk back to where my parents and zayn are sitting my mom looks up at me and I can see that her face is wet with tears as well, I hand her an extra kleenex I had. After about five minutes my mom is finally calmed down and she clears her throat. " Christina your father and I both love you so much, we have not come to see you because we were scared you would not get better and see us would remind you too much of what you left. We came here today because your birthday is tomorrow and Dr. Night suggested we should come and see you, so we decided to celebrate your birthday today instead of tomorrow. We are truly sorry we have not kept in touch but we thought that was the best thing we could do to help you get better." you could hear she is holding back tears and I seriously want to go home with them I kinda understand what she means but I have missed them so much and it hurts to know that they chose not to come see me.