Loved you first (Harry styles)

11. Goodbye kiss

*Lou's POV*

I'm about to say something else, to break the silence, as we were all just staring at each other, when a cry from down the hall does it for me.

"I'll go." Madi says. "It's my turn." I put my hand up to stop her.

"M-may I?" I ask. I hadn't seen them since they were a few hours old. They're two weeks now. She looks hesitant but allows me. Harry glares at her and she shrugs. I walk quietly to the babies, following the noise. I walk into a room that was clearly a baby room. Pastel colors and small animal prints everywhere. I walk over to the mint green crib and see a green eyed, curly haired, angel. She's the one making all the noise, so I pick her up.

"Hey, Ellie. You're... Uh... Not my baby... I'm... I'm uncle Louis. Why are you crying, love?" As I say that, another cry comes from the brown crib across the room. I walk Over and pick up Levi with my other arm, so I'm holding two screaming babies.

"Shhh... Uncle Louis is here... Calm down... Stop crying..."

"You're gonna need these." I jump and turn around to see Madi with two bottles. One green and one brown. We had decided not to go with the cliché colors of blue for boys and punk for girls; changing it to brown for boys and green for girls. I smile at her.

"They're... " I clear my throat, "they're beautiful." I finally get out. She smiles, taking Levi an handing me Ellie's bottle.

"Thanks. Here," she gestures to the rocking chair next to hers. "Sit" I do as I'm told and begin to feed Ellie. After five minutes of silence I can't take it anymore.

"I'm so sorry." When she hears this, she bites her lip. "Hey, why are you nervous?"

"How do you know I'm nervous?"

"Biting your lip. We were together three years, I do still know things about you." I say sadly.

"Oh. Right. Well, I knew we'd have to have this conversation. That's why I told Harry to stay in the kitchen. So we could be alone."

"So... You two are together now?"

She nods, then shakes her head, then sighs.

"I don't know." She admits. "I... I still love you" I look up at her.

"I still love you too! That's why I'm so sorry! I-" I stop because I'm interrupted.

"Lou. I still love you but... That doesn't mean that... That I can forgive you... I just don't know if I can." I close my eyes, dropping my head.

"I was afraid of that..."

"I'm sorry Lou. I still want you in my life, I don't know if I could completely live without you. That and the babies need you, too."

"I understand. And thank you."

"No problem. And Louis?"

"Yes, love?"

"Would you mind... Like.. Would you hate me if I went out with Harry? I really do like him." She looks sadly at me, afraid of the answer.

"Oh Madi. No I won't be mad. Or hate you. I don't think there's a way on this earth that I could hate you. But... Could you keep the snogging to a minimum? When I'm around. When I'm not here, go crazy., but... Will you?"

"Of course, Louis." I'm relieve as I'm not sure I could have handled that. "Look, I think she likes you." Madi smiles and looks at the baby in my arms.

"Who wouldn't?" I joke but look down at what she's talking about. Ellie is snuggling up to me, done with her bottle. "Aww! That's so sweet!" Madi smiles and looks at the baby in her arms.

"Well it looks like Levi is ready for his afternoon nap, as well. So I guess we an put them to bed." I nod, getting up carefully, as to not wake Ellie. I place her in her crib and walk over to Madi, who was watching her little boy sleep. I gently turn her around and swallow.

"Can... Can I have one last kiss?" She gives me a sad look, but nods. I lean in slowly, pressing my lips to hers. This kiss wasn't like any we'd shared before. This kiss was not filled with lust, passion, or urgency. No, this kiss was filled with love. And goodbye.

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*Harry's POV*

Madi told me to stay in the kitchen so I get out stuff to make sandwiches. It IS lunchtime. I make 5 and sit at the table, checking my twitter. Madi and Lou suddenly come out of the Baby Room, laughing.

"So things went well?" I ask.

"Yeah." Madi says. "You made food?"

"Yeah" I nod, smiling.

"So how many do we get? I only want one, you guys can have the rest."

"Well that works out because I get three." I say jokingly. Louis looks at me grinning.

"Way to be a Niall!"

"Talking about me, huh?" We all jump at the sudden arrival of my Irish mate.

"Hey, Niall!" We all chime.

"I, uh, better make some more sandwiches..." I say getting up.

"Oh, no. It's fine. I just ate." We all stare at him. "No, really. Just ate." He says, rubbing his stomach. Madi chuckles.

"Never thought I'd see the day."

"Me neither, actually." He laughs. "Where are the babies?" Niall and Liam had been coming a lot lately to see them. Zayn had, too, but not as much as Nialler and Leeyum.

"They just fell asleep, sorry. I'm sure they'll be up in about 30 minutes, though." Madi says, truly sorry.

"Oh, it's okay. I'll wait." He says with a smile.

"Okay." Then Madi said the thin I know was on all our minds. "So Niall, who your girlfriend? The one you went to see when you dropped Harry and I off." He blushes.

"Well... Her name is Shae. She's perfect for me."

"Aww!! Nialler!" She jumps up and down, excited for our little Niall. I smile. I'm going to miss her while I'm on tour. Just 3 weeks away. My smile disappears. Louis walks slowly over to me.

"Harry. Can I talk to you for a minute?" I nod, curious of what he wants to talk about. We walk past a blushing Niall and a gushing Madi, who wants "every single detail at this very moment!" Into the living room. Lou looks at me.

"Look, Harry. I'm really sorry for all I did. Is your face okay?"

"Yeah. It hurt pretty bad, but I'm okay."

"Okay. I'm really am truly sorry for that. I'd understand if you didn't want to be friends anymore. But you understand why I was angry, right?" I do. I feel awful for that, as well.

"Yes. I'm so sorry. I should t have done that. She was yours."

"Yeah. But Harry?" I look up at him.

"She loves you. More than she ever did me. I can see it in her eyes. She loved me, sure, but she's IN love with you. If she was with anyone, I'm glad it's you." That just warms my heart. ;) I smile at him and he returns it.

"Thanks."

"No problem. What about tour. It's hard. We leave in three weeks, and were gone for 6 and a half months."

"I know. I was just thinking of that. She's got the twins and she'll be all alone."

"I thought about about that when... Well... Before... And I asked her if she wanted to come with us and she refused. She wants the babies to stay in one spot."

"I understand that... Lou, are you sure it's okay? Me going out with Madi?"

"It's fine. I promise. She loves you. And at this moment, you're what's best for her, which is all I want."

We share a bro hug and walk into the kitchen where Niall and Madi are still talking about Shae.