Painters of Love

Simula

I was tapping my foot on the ground while waiting for my drivers arrival. He was late again. Siguro ay hindi na naman nito namalayan ang oras, 'yon ang palaging dahilan nito sa akin na nakasanayan ko na.

Ngunit, isang oras na itong late at kanina pa ako sa waiting shed ng school namin. Napuwing narin ako kanina kaaantay ngunit ni anino nito wala.

It's already 5 pm, I should go now maybe the driver forget me. I stood up and start to walk. I was humming a song when a car stops infront of me.

A tall man went out the car and walk to my direction. He has this stern look on his face. I can directly see it when he went closer to me. He was wearing his white long sleeve and even if didn't expect him to see here i feel like i knew he would be here.

Bumungad sakin ang seryosong tingin ng anak ni Daddy. Hindi ako nagsalita at binuksan ang pintuan ng passenger seat. I was quietly leaning on the window while he drive his car.

"You should text me when the driver didn't pick you up."

"Why would I do that?! I'm not your priority. You should just focus on your class, Ivor." I couldn't control my damn emotions.

"You're my obligations, Crei."

"I'm not."

Muli akong natahimik. I should control my emotion when I still can. This past months that I'm avoiding him, I know he knows. Ilang minuto ang lumipas ng makarating kami sa mansyon. Nauna akong lumabas at nagmamadaling pumasok sa loob.

I saw Daddy sitting on the sofa. He smiled when his eyes darted on me. Binaba niya ang hawak na remote at tinaas ang dalawang kamay nag aabang ng yakap.

Mabilis akong lumapit at humalik sa pisngi niya saka ko siya niyakap. I miss him it's been two months that i didn't saw him because he's out of town.

"Did, Ivor pick you up?"

"Y-Yes, Dad. So you're the one ordered him to pick me up?"

"Yeah. Your driver is in a vacation for months." natigilan ako.

"What?! Anong sasakyan ko, Daddy?" 

"Ivor will drive you from school." I dont want him to drive me, Daddy. I cannot uttered a word. I remain silent until the door opens.

He's eyes looked on me directly. I keep calm until he reach the sofa and sit their with Dad.

"How's your school, Ivor?" dad asked him.

"Good, Dad."

Hindi ako umimik nanatili akong nakamasid sa paligid. I started to tapped my foot as a sign of boredom. I awkwardly smile when they're eyes looked directly in my foot.

"What is it, Crei?" daddy uttered.

"Uhm... Can I just use the car you gave me, Daddy?" I'm hoping he'd say yes but he shrugged his head. Dismayado akong tumingin kay Daddy.

"I already talk to Ivor that he's the one will pick you up to school." napanguso ako. I'm already old but Daddy always babying me.

"He's busy with his study, Dad. He can't make it." dahilan ko.

"No, I'm the one will pick you up, Crei." sinamaan ko ng tingin si Ivor na nginisian lang ako.

"I'll just commute so I won't bother you."

"Crei, Ivor will going to pick up to your school. It's final." sambit ni Daddy.

"But Daddy,"

"Crei, i said it's final. Go to your room and change your clothes." naiinis akong lumakad palayo sa kanila.

I hate him so much! Damn! He should just focus in his study and don't bother me.

Nagtungo ako sa kwarto ko at nagpalit ng damit. I wear a button Casual Knitted Long-Sleeved Cardigan and pair it with black trousers.

Binuksan ko ang pinto ng kwarto upang lumabas ngunit hindi pa man ako nakakaalis sa kinatatayuan ko ng may humila sakin papasok sa kwarto ko.

Inis ko siyang tinignan. Gusto ko sana siyang hampasin ngunit ako ang malalagot kay Daddy.

"Bakit ba?" umiwas ako ng tingin at binaling 'yon sa mga daliri ko sa kamay.

"I am aware that you are avoiding me, Crei. But you cannot avoid me to longer because we we're living in the same roof."

"Ano naman sayo?! Kung nilalayuan kita, wala ka namang magagawa don. Si Daddy lang naman ang dahilan kaya ako nanatili dito." napanguso ako saka siya nilingon nagtama ang mga mata namin na agad ko namang iniwas.

Hangga't kaya ko pa ay iiwas na ako sa kaniya. Because even if I tried to stay away from him, my heart wouldn't be able to stop beating for him.

"Get out, Ivor." I uttered.

"No. I don't want."

"Get out now, Ivor." madiin ang pagkakabigkas ko ng pangalan niya.

"No, Crei. We will talk." he murmured.

"Just get out, Ivor! I don't wanna see you in my room."

"We will talk Crei. We'll talk, please." Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko na agad ko ding winasiwas.

"What?! We're not going to talk because we're not close. So just get out!" Pinigilan ko ang sariling mag salita pa dahil baka may masabi lang akong iba.

Nanatili kaming nakatayo sa kwarto ko. Ramdam ko ang titig niya sakin na pinipilit kong baliwalain.

He shouldn't be here. Damn. Daddy might caught us.

"Leave now, Ivor." mahinahon kong sabi.

"Fine, Crei. I'll leave."

Tinalikuran niya ako at lumabas ng kwarto ko. Nawala ang munting saya na naroon sa puso ko. Nanatili akong nakatayo at napaupo na lang sa sahig. Sinandal ko ang likod ko sa kama.

For once I hated that I was daughter of daddy. I hated that I couldn't love him. I hated this life.

I want him to know what i felt for him but it just couldn't. I cannot lose a family I have right now. Even I was adopted by Daddy, I wouldn't put a disgrace in our family.

I silently cry like what I'm doing everyday. I'm hoping that Daddy didn't adopted me so I can love him freely.

Like a parallel line that doesn't intersect, No matter how close I am we will never be together.