quotes, poems, rants

poems

into our minds we go to be free
to become whatever we wish to be
to escape the pains of reality
to move past our haunting tradgedy

but like any dream it must come to an end
where we return to reality, alone to fend

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i've seen it all. the violence, the cruelty, the
sadness of the world. i've seen it all. while
others shut their ears and eyes to the world,
from the pain and sadness that awaits them.
in this city of black and grey, it's full of those
who are afraid of pain. yet here i stand. at the
end of it all. recieving it all. and they're afraid.
they can't see, the beauty of the world, no matter
how monotone it is. do you fail to see? will you
continue to ignore? all in the hope you won't get
hurt? can't you see, that even beyond these dark
skies there is hope that's waiting to be grasped.
look away for a moment, and reality gets lonely.

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heart's falling

from deep within, my heart's torn

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though i was at the merge age of four,
i was told that my eyes looked as though
i were a sixty year old man whose wife had
just died from cancer my deep ocean blue hues
held the wisdom of someone who had lived for
years i was the young girl who understood what
the adults were talking about, because i knew
that if i didn't they would dull my mind and i
would never be able to be what i wanted and
would have to fit into society's ideals of perfect
when i was far from it. Because i understood my
spark will never go out and i will forever remain a
child on the inside, though i had to grow up too
fast to remain the way i wanted to, i'm still a child

...right?

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i walk the face of the earth once more,
a mindless puppet, my strings are torn.
the creaky bones, the bad eyesight,
yet the chance to turn wrong to right.
wars-a-waging, old mans guilt,
the worlds now on more than just a tilt.
parents weeping, children slain,
bloody thoughts, fear of reign.
in the shadows, a creature did lurk,
he whispered to me, hiding a smirk.
" thou shalt be killed if thee can't find,
the demons lurking in thy mind. "
so of i ventured, to quench my thirst,
of corpses piled, hearts-a-burst,
and on that quest, what did i see?

the wicked path of destiny.

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im swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and i feel darkness is slowly pulling me under
i yell for help, but no ones there to hear it
i begin to see the water at eye level
and i kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
but the darkness wont let go of its hold on me
and i slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the water starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that were once so full of life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
i know that this path doesnt lead to happiness
but why doesnt someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness' grasp?
because no one knows i stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so i give in to the thing that holds me
all of the strength and all of the courage
that i once held in my heart
cant save me from the water
so i slowly slip beneath the world of conscientousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
i dont want to fight anymore
ive given in to the darkness

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my eyes close
im holding onto
my memories
and hatred.
alone in my head...
so silent

i cant explain the way
my tears run blood along my veins
if i let go of my pain
ill cease to be, give into the plague

war is coming,
i can hear it in my heart,
blood will flow
along the grounds of the innocent,
i can't deceive
the darkness anymore...
im letting go, im losing control of myself

you beat my down
so low and now
im crying my soul
im loosing control
you led me to a
place where i
cant feel my face

death is just an anesthetic
for whats to come
a body left behind with no face
feeling numb
all alone i cry here
fading into nothing
all alone i lie here
dying...

...loosing myself...

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heres just a few poems, idk really