One: Words

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//Harsh words ahead//

It's Saturday, 4 in the afternoon, and I'm doing nothing but staring at the ceiling. Kaninang umaga pa ako ganito, wala akong gustong gawin. Nakahilata lang.

I don't even have the motivation to use my phone. I'm literally doing nothing, as in nothing talaga.

I took a pause to just process myself.

What on earth am I doing? I'm wasting so much time. I could do pending school tasks, I could talk with friends. Hell, I could go on tiktok and scroll endlessly for videos. But no, instead I'm wasting time by laying down and doing nothing.

Nakakapagod, kanina ko pa sinasabi sa sarili ko na kikilos ako, magiging productive ako, magbabago na ko.

I have tons of requirements to pass but here I am, thinking of how I'm to manage my life and how my future should be when I'm doing absolutely nothing.

After hours of convincing myself (Not really, tumingin lang ako sa kisame at natulog), na eto na, I'm going to do it- tumayo na ako!! Now, what should I do first? Tumingin ako sa kwarto ko and oh my gosh.

It is such a mess.

Ang daming balat ng chips sa sahig, may mga crumbs pa nga eh. 'Yung madudumi ko ding damit, kung saan-saan na nakalagay.

No wonder mom is always mad.

Shit this makes me want to go and lay down again. Ughh no. No Nika, kailangan kumilos ka na. For the sake of being sane, maglinis ka na Nika.

Kailangan ko na talaga kumilos.

I can do this! Yup, I definitely can. Uunahin ko muna linisin kama ko then I'll take out the trash.

Keri ko 'to, go go go!

Okay, I started by putting my pillows and blankets away then pinalitan ko yung bed sheet ko. I also changed my pillowcases. I went to look under my bed and I found the stuff toy my bff gave me.

Gently wiped off the dust and I put the stuff toy on top of my bed. Hah! Finally done!

See? Nagawa ko siya. I'm proud of myself for that. Next stop is 'yung iba pang kalat sa kwarto ko.

Inuna ko muna yung sahig since makalat talaga s'ya. Picked up the trash and nilagay ko yung dirty clothes sa laundry. Went to grab our vacuum to remove the dust and crumbs on my floor.

While cleaning my desk area, I found something smelly on my school backpack.

"Why does my backpack smell like this? Parang may nabubulok" I asked myself as I held it within my hands.

I prepared myself and when I opened it...

NAKITA KO YUNG BAUNAN KO NG PAGKAIN NA 3 WEEKS OLD NA. YUCK! I almost dropped my bag at the sudden scent.

What the hell. There are tons of molds na. It smells so bad na talaga. Shit.

I ran downstairs to the kitchen and tinapon ko na yung baunan ko, hopefully hindi makita ni mom.

"What is that smell, Nika?" I heard a voice from behind.

Please don't be my Mom... Haha...

I turned around and wow, so lucky of me, it is my Mom.

"Hi Mom, uhm hehehe will you get mad if I tell you what it is?" I laughed nervously, my hands fidgeting with each other.

"It depends" She said in a monotone way.

Ahhh... I feel so nervous. Help.

"Well kasi ganito po, I decided to clean my room and-" she cut me off.

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