long gone.

too far.

*Addisons pov*

"Isobel Stevens I'm not done yet and you know it! What will it take with you to get over the fact that people know we're together?" I regretted the words as soon as they came out of my mouth. Izzie just stood there silently. I can't believe I just said that, to my own girl friend. What kind of evil person does that? Oh right I forgot! me! "Izzie, just talk to me you know I didn't mean it. I'm sorry, you wanna hate me hate me! Just know I don't hate you. no matter what you do."
"You know I don't hate you ads don't give me that. You knew I wasn't ready and you still told everyone. why?" Izzies words hit me like a ton of bricks. Why the fuck did I do that? To get back and Mark? Derek? Meredith? Sometimes I don't even know what goes on in my own brain. I went too far. Izzie has hated me then forgave me too many times, I'm not going to make her do it again.

*Izzies pov*

"Addison Adrianne Forbes Montgomery! You don't get to say all that then go silent the minute I say something. I will forgive you, you know I will, but please for God's sake give me some God damn space!" She knows I'm just going to bake a bunch of muffins then give them to her when I finally stop hating her, I really should just skip to the muffin part and not do all the hating. I know she just told everyone about us to get back at Mark, Mer and Derek, but still her words still stung I can still hear them echo in my head just like the echoed through the halls of the hospital. I still remember what she said as clear as day. I can't even repeat it without feeling sick to my stomach. God I wish George was here. He could snap me out of this so quick. The way he always did when I was with Cristina. I don't miss George in a "oh I'm gonna cry about it way" I miss him in a "oh shit who am I gonna complain to now then when shit goes south have a shoulder to cry on!" way. He's always been my person, far before Ads, before Cristina even before Mark. But now who am I going to complain to when shit goes south? Addie went too far.

"Addison I baked you something, come here quick before it's cold!" I don't even have to say I forgive her, she just knows.
At the end of the day I'll always forgive her, I always forgive everyone, doesn't matter what they did. I think that's my weakness. That's why I'm still here. I believe in the good. I want to believe in the good. I have to believe in the good, and I truly think that Addison is good. I think. Mark wasn't good clearly. Seeing as he cheated on me multiple times, with Lexie each and every single time, and yet I forgave him each time. Addison wouldn't cheat on me. I know she wouldn't. She knows what that's like. "Before you eat can I ask you something?" that was so stupid of me to say of course I can ask her something. "Why do you card so much if people know about us Izzie?" she asked me a question before I could ask her one, well played. "I grew up in a trailer park! I was surrounded by outcasts and misfits and whatnot. but being gay just never seemed like an option, you know that, I've told you multiple times." Remember what I said about forgiving her? Well I lied. What she did is just unforgivable.

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