Insecure

1. Can you not?

I wake up to the annoying sound of the alarm my green iPhone 5 which is resting by my bed, sighing I push myself out of bed and turn it off while making my way across the warm carpet to the bathroom. I brush out my Wavy hair and straighten it with my rose gold and black GHD's after pinning the front back i grab my pink spotty makeup bag which contains my face. After putting a few layers of mascara and some concealer I quickly powder over my face and exit the bathroom. I sigh as I see my boring old clothes and decide on black skinny jeans and a 1975 black band shirt with white socks and white converse, I grab my bag and phone and get ready to catch the bus to what I call hell but most call school. On my way out of the house I grab an apple and a granola bar to eat on the way.

After walking down a few streets in the cold weather, I see my bus pulling into the stop, I clime into the zoo/ bus and make my way to the back where I put in my headphones and try to forget the world around me. Now would probably be a good time to introduce myself, I'm Florence O'Conner but I preferred to be called Flo, nobody in Holmes Chaple knows either of my names and I would like to keep my full name well hidden. I have long blonde hair with light brown natural highlights I have a slight tan from having family with a villa in Dubai, I'm pretty short to be honest and I'm not model thin.. far from it. I've grown up my whole life living in London the busy city with such beautiful surroundings but a year ago my 'dad' left me and my mum and we had to move to a small cottage in Holmes Chapel. Its very different from London with such greenery and quiet roads its cute with little coffee shops scattered around but school is far from cute. My school is Holmes Chapel High ( my school has some major creativity ;) ) and it's horrible to be honest...

Back in London I had a small group of friends I wasn't popular but I wasn't a total loner like I am now. I have no friends I sit on the library computers at school emailing my friends back home. The popular people are many Cara, Harry , Zayn , Niall , Louis , Liam , kendall and tonnes of others. To be honest Cara isn't that bad she seems quite nice, before she found out I was a nerd she said we looked quite alike but I think that it was just the dark eyebrows because she is stunning, she always looks like she just walked out of a magazine.. All the others are awful though, The 5 boys I mentioned earlier tend to bully me but I put up with it what's there to do about it? Kendall is awful too she tends to start stories about me but again what can I do about it?

The bus is in the school parking area I jump off the bus and make my way to my form class there's no major bad people in my form class really they just ignore me instead, I'm fine with that I don't really want to be gossiping to a bunch of wannabes at 7.45 in the morning really.. After registration I go to biology which I hate because their all in that class and guess what? they are all in my class at they all sit around me like they are circling me I've tried to get my seat change but my teacher hates me and probably does it on purpose. I sit down on my seat bringing out my text book, workbook, maroon school planner, light pink ted baker pencil case which was an expensive leaving present from my friends back in London and mac book pro. doodling in the back of my planner I start to here the class filling up and I can defiantly here the populars coming in with Kendall's high pitched laugh which puts me in its so whiney and annoying, god damn! They all pull out their chairs and start sniggering at me already, I take a swig of lemon water from my Jack Wills water bottle to try and calm myself down if I don't I could have an anxiety attack. A few minutes later Mr Clark makes is way into the class telling us to be quiet in the process of putting his belongings on his work desk he rambles on about something that I personally have no interest in, daydreaming I look outside to see the rain tumbling down on the old school benches and making the playing fields turn to sludge. Soon enough class is over and I have a free period putting my books back in my bag I make my way to an a sofa and desk near to the class I just walked out of, too exhausted to work I put in my headphones and listen to the soothing sound of Arctic Monkeys fill my ears.

Let me skip to lunch in my boring school day, lunch is the 2nd worse time of the school day for me. Lunch is when I usually end up getting some ones food or milkshake all over me and that's not always the nicest thing to have on your clothes all day.. I sit in the corner of the canteen hoping nobody will see me this time. I pull out my apple biting into it I see them all walk I laughing the girls showing their asses with their short shorts and crop tops which personally I think should be band from school and the guys with either the jock jackets from sports teams or plaid shirts with their names painted on the back.. stupid really. I quickly get up of my seat trying to get out now I've finished my food and can now walk freely around the school premises I sneak round behind them but suddenly Louis Tomlinson spots me I think he's looking at someone else and start to pick up my speed I almost reach the door before I hear

'Where do you think your going?'

I carry on walking and open the double doors speed walking towards the library but sensing that some ones behind me turning around I see Niall Horan following me I sit down on one of the comfy chairs and wait for my verbal abuse but it never comes I look up and see Niall looking down on me with a guilty look on his face he whispers

' I'm so sorry their doing this to you, I really don't like it, nobody even knows your name and your being bullied, I wish there was something I could do to help.

'It's okay Niall I can cope' I reply keeping quiet so that I don't disturb anyone reading silently. He's sighs standing up and wiping his hands on his ripped skinny jeans before he leaves he looks at me and says

'Go out the back entrance because they'll be waiting for you today and they might hurt you, please be careful Flo' before walking out and closing the doors behind him quietly. How does he know my name? Nobody knows my name? maybe he saw it on one of my books, he's in loads of my classes, I'm so happy that this is my last year of high school then I can go on and leave this hell hole.

Lucky for me this day went quite quickly I start to make my way out the back entrance like Niall told me to looking at all the stupid prom queen posters hah like I'm going to that I slip out the back door and take a different route so I would have to walk pass the populars and any other people at my school, 20 minuets later I finally reach my house, unlocking the white door and chucking my bags down. I go straight to my room and sit on my hippie styled bed and open my laptop from my bag pressing the Skype icon and clicking on my best friends name

after it ringing a few times I am greeted with the shining face of my best friend back home Madeline but she hates that name so I call her Dee.

'DEE' I scream down the computer

'FLO' she screams back after talking for a while she comes out with

' 'I am missing you so much Flo, I cant believe your in Holmes Chapel now without me.. My parents want us to move to New York! NEW YORK FLO!' she beams at me

'' Dee that's great' I sigh because if she's living it up in the big city and I'm here in Boring ol' Holmes Chapel she'll forget me in no time.

''Yeah, we were looking at houses and their all so amazing flo! were getting a spare room especially for you! You can decorate it when you come to see us! The collages there are just incredible there too.'

''sounds fab dee, look I really got to go..' I tell her not wanting to listen to anymore of this amazing new York stuff, I feel like such a bad friend but I need some time, Me and Dee have been friends since we were in primary school so its going to be weird not seeing her

''Oh, okay flo-bear, I miss you so much! Chat to me when you can yeah?'

''Yeah of course dee, I love you' I tell her

''lava you too, ill be down to Holmes Chapel before I leave!' she promises

''Sounds perfect dee, message me some photos of your house and uni?'

''Sure thang, see you soon!'

''byeeeeee' we hang up and I change into some really comfy mini mouse pjs from primark, don't judge there so soft! I brush my teeth, take of my make-up and put my hair in a messy bun and clime into bed while putting my phone to charge and setting the alarm.