Ex's Heartbeat (Swan Series #1)

Prolouge

Kirsten's P.O.V.

"KIRSTEN TAN! WAKE YOUR ASS UP!" Reese shouted at me with her tightened voice. Ang aga aga nandito na sa pamamahay ko yung pinsan kong walang alam kundi magalit sakin.

"5 minutes please." I begged my life to get at least an 8 hours of sleep. "Mamatay ako kung gigising ako ngayon." I covered my ears using my pillows para hindi ko marinig ang boses niya, pero sadyang maingay talaga ang pinsan ko dahil sumasakit parin ang ulo ko sa boses niya.

My head is beating as fast as my heart right now, it's probably because of the alcohol I drank last night. Fuck! I just wanna die for heaven's sake.

"No! Wake up already at maguusap pa tayo sa katangahan mo." Patapos na sabi ni Reese pagkatapos niyang hilahin ang unan na nakatalukbong sa ulo ko. 

"You broke up with Ryder" She stated. She inhaled deeply before shouting the most deafening sound I'll ever hear "ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?!" .

Sabi ko nga, gigising na.

"Reese, upo ka muna please. Ayaw ko ng away, let me explain, Okay? This is for the sake of our sanity." I paused a little "Please".

 She was breathing fast at mukhang sasabog siya kapag hindi ako nagexplain kaya ako nalang ang magaadjust. 

"Explain it, couz. Explain." Sarkastikong tugon niya sakin.

"He got-" I sighed. Ano ba ang sasabihin ko para manahimik na ang kaluluwa kong 'to? Jusko "boring." I reasoned out. That was the best reason to explain why I broke up with, my now, ex boyfriend.

The reason that I broke with Ryder Lewis is not because he's boring, or whatever, but because I am still the cowardly cat who's afraid of love. I was still too afraid to continue a long and a committed relationship with someone. Ryder  is a playboy and I tried to trust him, but I can't. He also got a lot of flaws, which, somehow I liked, however it still affected my trust kahit pa nakaraan na 'yon. It was frustrating to handle a relationship with him, honestly. 

I need my sanity and loving myself is way better than to continue my trust issues sa kanya. I can't risk anything for a mere romantic relationship with him. That's disgusting. I value  myself and my happiness more than anything else.

"Seriously?" She gave me a dumbfounded look. She inhaled deeply, again. "What did I expect from you again Kirsten?" 

"Uhhhh I don't know? That I'm brokenly in love with someone?" I asked standing up to get ready for my graduation ceremony this morning.

"I'll probably never see you like that." 

Well she's right! I will never break myself for a mere human being, except nalang talaga kung kamukha niya si Gojo. Life is peaceful kung wala kang boyfriend, pero nakakainggit rin naman from time to time. That's why I stay with my 3-1 month rule! 3 months walang boyfriend, 1 month naman na may fling ako. Pero syempre paminsan minsan I break the rules, especially with my ex boyfriends. 

How I remember my high school days

"Are you really breaking up with me Tin?" He said with tears on his face.

He is my first boyfriend and I don't want to be with him forever. I know that sounds evil, however I need to break up with him. We're only in grade 9 and I still have a lot of things to experience in my high shool days and a boyfriend is not so helpful at all. Naawa ako sa kanya, but I can't do anything. He's not the one for me and vice versa. I shouldn't have asked him to be my boyfriend because...

I lost my bestfriend, after that break up. It was immature of me, I know. However, I do not regret what I had done with him, because after that break up he strived more, even without my patience.