Second chance ff

Like A Fate

Shopping mall

yura....
i turn my head back as soon as i heared someone call my name.
Yura: han nn bi nn..
My leg start to shaking..its feels like I'm going to collapse right here...

He keep looking at me and i don't know how to control the expression on my face ..
He comes to me even closer..and reach my hand..looking straight into my eyes.. I can't.. i do feel happy got to see him back..but it's definitely different now.. we're now nothing..

Hanbin: Yura.. it's u ...

He blow my name again with that questionable face..

Yura: Hanbinn..why u he...

I don't even finish my sentence yet but he already hold on tight my wrist.
I tried to release his grip but he hold it just to tight..and it hurts..

Hanbin: Why..why..why..u left me all alone..

He said and still looking into my eyes..
I don't dodge the stare but..i feel like my eyes get watery when he ask me why i left him..
It's not I'm happy to do so..

Yura: Let go of me...ur hurting me...

What i was thinking to say right now it's not same on what i say..all i want to say i miss you but i make the boundaries between us..coz i must..

Hanbin: Yura ...tell me... why u left without saying anything..
Yura: I don't have anything left to say nor explain to u
Hanbin: at least tell me what have i done make you hate me this much..
Yura: u...i just... don't love u anymore..
Hanbin: Liar..u love me so much ..
Yura: u ask me and i answer it clearly and now u don't trust me.. ok fine i tell you then ... I don't love ..i hate you.. i already have someone else that i love..

He stiffened there ...

Hanbin: u..love someone else wh..who..

He losen my hand but not.release it.
And i also don't want it to happen..
I didn't pull back my hand i want him to hold my hand more longer..cuz i miss him I miss the time we spend together..

Yura: u don't need to know..

I answer him softly..
He look me with that disappointed face..like I'm make something terrible..yet it is i left him..but... I don't want to explain it..

Hanbin: have i really in your heart ones..

Now I'm the one who stiffened..
What the hell I'm going to say...how can i say yess..he..he..might might figure out soon..if i say no it might hurt him a lot and also me..

Yura: u are but now i don't love u ...u may ones in my heart but now i love someone else who is much better than u..

( I'm sorry) i only can say it in my heart one day i will apologize to you for sure..i must ...i must to leave u or else u will ruin with me ..i just want u to achieve ur goals.. I don want u to fail i want you to be happy..love is where u can find anywhere but ur dream must come true..

Hanbin: so it is.. I'm not good enough .. I'm sorry..

He finished his word and turn around..now why am i feel like i have been abandoned.

Yura:U are to good for me.... I don't fit u ..

I said in low tone to prevent him to hear me..

Yura condo...

Lili: what !!!u guys bumped at shopping mall!!!

Yura: don't shout lili u too noisy..yuh..i meet him there..

Lili: then.. did u two get back.

Yura: what are u talking that won't happen..how could he will accept me back..i leave him when he in trouble remember..