𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐌𝐄 || greys anatomy

'new flesh'

"Bea. Can I call you that? Or would you prefer me to call you Beatrix?"
"Bea is fine." I was sitting in a small conferting room on a large orange couch. Polar opposite to Amelia's royal blue couch that was located in the living room of her apartment. "So Bea, how are you today?" The shrink questioned in a somewhat sympathetic tone. This was the 3rd shrink appointment I had gone to this week. Ever since Bailey had mentioned the idea my parents had been pushing me to go see the shrink. I mean what would they know about this sorta stuff? "I am fine." I said glaring out the window that had a really pretty but busy view of Seattle. My first shrink session I didn't talk once, the second session I balled my eyes out. Now in our 3rd session I was very unpredictable at this point.

"Bea today I want to talk about how you felt in the moments leading up to your over dose." I had put my guard up on whether I should tell the truth or not when it comes to this topic but I sighed, took a deep breath in and blurted out; "Uh I felt hurt, sickened by what I had heard moments before I swallowed those pills."
"What made you feel sick, Bea?" She kept saying my name in each sentence. It was a tactic that therapists used to make you feel more comfortable, as if the new for a long time you. I don't know how it works exactly but it obviously works nonetheless. "My father."
"What did he say to trigger these emotions in you?" she intertwined her fingers with each other and leaned in towards me. "I don't know," I said as I looked down and started to fidget with the loose strings on my hospital gown. "He said I couldn't see my brother, Leo. It was our birthday you see, he's my twin and at that time the incident was still affecting my father so he said no to me seeing him in a quite aggressive manner. I guess that hurt me. He's my brother, you know?" I said in a monotone voice, it was like all emotion had been drained from me. I didn't sleep or eat or whenever some came to see me I made minimal to no effort to have a conversation with them. I regret listening to Ellis. I wish I was dead.

"When you tell me you feel sad, what else do you feel?"
"Scared."
"Why?"
"Because I was scared I would never be able to see my brother again. He was my everything."
"Was?"
"Well, I guess I just don't give a shit anymore." She winced slightly at my aggressive but careless words. "I guess that I don't see a point in caring anymore."
"And school? You haven't been back yet, how do you feel about going back?" I had completely forgotten about school. I hadn't been because it was the holidays but the holidays were quickly coming to an end. "Well, at least I will be doing something, keeping my mind off the truth."

The timer rang loudly in my ear. The shrinks face changed to a smile. "Well thank you for coming today Bea, I will see you in the next two days!" I stood up not giving her another look. I hurriedly opened the door and slammed it behind me. My parents who were sitting down outside the shrink's office quickly stood up. I turned the opposite direction to where they were standing because they were blocking the hallway and I walked quickly around the corner hoping they wouldn't catch up to me. "Bea.." I heard my fathers voice call out. Echo of his footsteps getting closer to me, so I picked up my passes and took a right, Speed walking quickly to my destination.
(Chapter inst done just need something to post!?)

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