Swan Goin' Wolf

Apologizing

Suddenly he seemed to be everywhere. At the grocery store, at the beach, at the diner, and he even came into the library a couple times. I don't know why, but I was starting to feel a pull toward him. He started to star more and more in my dreams and so did a black wolf. I had no idea why a wolf would have any meaning in this complicated puzzle that was becoming my life. Though the biggest shock was when Jared had come into the library. Since he and Paul had stopped talking to me they had avoided the library. An even bigger shock was when he came over to the desk and leaned over so his head was above my computer screen as I logged returned books into the system.

"Things are changing, Sunny." Jared said and I scoffed looking around the room before looking up at him.

"No shit. One of my best friends ran off to college to hide from past memories. Then the only other friends I have ditch me for the rez's loner. I know things are changing." I said and continued scanning the books.

"That's not what I meant, Sunny." Jared said and I saw a tremor run down his arm before he clenched his fists.

"Then what did you mean, Jared?" I asked with a sigh, setting the books aside and leaning back against my chair crossing my arms as I looked up at him. He had grown a good eight inches in height since this all started.

"I mean that things will somewhat get back to normal, just with some changes to the term normal. Paul and I have gone through somethings that only Sam can relate to and staying away was for your safety." Jared said and scoffed.

"My physical safety or my mental safety? Cause I think you just might have failed a little on the mental part." I said and I could a flicker of pain in Jared's eyes.

"Mainly physical safety and a little mental, but you'll learn why eventually." Jared said and I glared at him.

"If I'll learn about it eventually, then why don't you just tell me now? We haven't kept secrets from each other since Paul got laid for the first time." I said and Jared cringed.

"It's not my right to tell you." Jared said and I laughed.

"Then who's is it? Paul's?" I asked and Jared shook his head.

"Sam's?" I asked and Jared nodded.

"Does this have something to do with why he's been following me around town?" I asked and Jared looked surprised at my question.

"He's been following you?" Jared asked and I nodded.

"Yeah tell him that if he's going to follow the police chief's daughter that he needs to be a little more inconspicuous." I said and I saw another tremor run down Jared's arms and his jaw set. He looked pissed.

"I'll take care of that." He said but it sounded more like a growl.

"I'll talk to you later, Sunny. I have to go." Jared said and started to leave, but not before coming around the desk and giving me a tight hug.

"No matter what, Sunny. You'll always be one of my best friends and my sister at heart." Jared whispered in my ear. This all left me confused beyond belief. They go from being my best friends to wanting nothing to do with me, and now suddenly they say that they've gone through something and only Sam Uley can tell me what's going on.

I tried to think it through what was getting no where. I was broke out of my musing by someone clearing their throat. I hurried checked out the book and returned to the task of scanning the returned books. I decided that I would the chips fall where they may for the time being, but eventually better come sooner rather than later.

After my shift at the library I decided to go down to the beach to sort out my mind. As I pulled up to First Beach I recognized Paul's truck in the parking lot. I wondered if he would react similarly to Jared at the library. I knew Paul liked the cliffs and was probably just up there, so I figured I could stay on the far end of the beach away from the cliffs. No sense in pushing too far in one day. I walked down to the alcove and the tide pools and sat down on the edge. I took off my shoes so my dangling feet would brush the cold water as the tide came in.