Swan Goin' Wolf

A Calm

 Jacob has been a wreck since he has been back, and Sam's newest headache. Jacob's temper was becoming worse than Paul's. One wrong statement had him growling and shaking so hard that he was forced to run if if was going to make it out of the house before phasing. Sam was worried at me and the other imprints. He feared what would happen if Jake's temper got any worse and he was still in the house when he phased. He especially worried about little Claire who wouldn't know to get away, but would walk forward with a question. Quil had started bringing Claire around when he knew Jake would be on patrol, he was terrifies of something happening to that little girl.

Today was finally enough. Sam had a patch up job with Jared and Paul on the other side of the rez, Quil and Leah are on patrol, Embry and the younger boys are at the beach for the day and are sure not to come by till they have to patrol or it gets late. I had called Billy's and told him to send Jake over when he got a minute. It was only two hours before Jake walked through the door. I was setting a tray of cookies on the stove top that I had just pulled from the oven.

"Sam need me?" Jake asked as he took a seat at the table.

"Nope. I called, I want to talk to you." I said and took a spatula and removed some of the cookies from the tray and laid them on a plate before placing them on the table.

"What do you want to talk about?" Jake asked as he picked up one of the hot cookies from the plate.

"Because I know when everything gets hard, it's helpful to talk to someone about it." I said and folded me hands in front of me on the table top. Jake raised an eyebrow.

"Who's saying that I'm not handling what's going on?" Jake asked a little irritated.

"Cut the shit, Jacob." I said and he seemed shocked by my harsh words. Generally, I made it a rule to curse, but with Jake's behavior and vocabulary, I thought it would get my point acrossed.

"You know as well as I do that your not handling your emotions about Bella." I said and the shaking began. I waited till he calmed himself before continuing.

"That's exactly why I know. Before, you were able to control the wolf more. Now you are letting him consume you. It's not safe, someone going to hurt, if this continues and it's why I wanted to talk with you." I said and knew he was going to become defiant by the set of his jaw and the slight glare he was giving me.

"I can handle it fine, I have control of my wolf." Jake said and I nodded playing along.

"And so did Sam." I said and all shaking stopped as Jake looked at me scared for the first time since he had phased.

"Sam had control of his wolf. He had been in control for a while when we met. You know that it was only one split second that he lost his control and now we'll both need to live with the evidence of what can happen on my face." Jake sat quietly, motionless in his seat as he stared at me.

"Do you understand, Jacob? Even with control, you need to keep your emotions in check. What would you do if you lost control and you hadn't noticed that little Claire was too close? How would you live with yourself?" I demanded and Jacob opened his mouth, but nothing came out. He tried again with the result.

"Exactly, there would be no living with yourself. Have you noticed how long it's been since seen her?" Jake thought about it.

"Almost three weeks." Jake said and I nodded.

"How much did you usually see her before you ran off?"

"At least once or twice a week." Jake looked confused.

"Exactly. Your brother is terrified of what could happen if Claire was too close to you when you get angry. You need to get your temper under control and I think a good start would be to talk about it." Jake sat quietly for a minute, deep in thought.