Depressed Dice

Help Me

⚠️⚠️TW: SUICIDE ATTEMPT AND SELF HARM MENTIONS!! ⚠️⚠️

Kevin's POV
I  shot up from my bed, hearing a thud, metal clattering, and broken sobs. It was probably Dice, he comes home late due to work and sometimes stays up until he passes out on the floor, but that didn't explain the metal. I walked over to the bathroom and opened the door. I really was not prepared to see what I saw. An unconscious Dice was laying on the ground, bleeding out. "DICE!!" I screamed, grabbing him and carrying him to our bed. I ran back into the bathroom and grabbed as many bandages from the cabinet as I could, I bought a ton of them when I saw Dice's wrists for the first time. I ran back to Dice, who was slightly awake now, and wrapped the bandages around his arm. "...Kevin...?" He groaned, squinting his eyes to see me."Dicey, why?" I asked. He looked down and started crying, pulling one of his hands away from me to cover his face. Then, I remembered. The celebration of those two kids today. Cuphead and Mugman I think? They defeated King Dice and the Devil and set the debtors free. God, he must feel awful about it.

I pulled him close to me and hugged him, which made him cry even harder. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry" He mumbled out, burying his tear-stained face into my chest. "You're okay, everything's okay," I comforted him, "Just PLEASE try to talk to me if you have the urge to do that again. You scared me pretty badly." Dice wiped his tears and looked up at me, smiling. I didn't want to show it, but I was ecstatic. I haven't seen my Dice have a genuine smile in so long. Eventually he fell asleep in my arms, and so did I not long after.

Dice's POV

I woke up, feeling someone's arms around me. I looked up and saw that it was Kevin, who was still fast asleep. I remembered the events from last night and cringed, I can't believe he saw me like that, he probably hates me now. I slowly and carefully crawled out of his arms so I wouldn't wake him up and looked at the alarm clock next to our bed. Shit, I have work in 30 minutes.  I hurried to get ready and left after saying goodbye to my sleeping family.

As I walked into the casino, I noticed some of my employees staring at me. Pirouletta walked up to me with a worried look, "We heard about what happened yesterday with you and boss. Are you okay?" I nodded, hoping she didn't realize I was lying. "I'm fine Pirouletta, you don't need to worry about me." I assured her that I was okay and went to help get the casino ready. After a few minutes, the casino opened and people starting flooding in. However, I didn't have time to interact with the customers, because Devil came out of his office and very loudly called out my name. "DICE, GET IN HERE NOW!!!" He yelled, attracting the attention of many costumers. I walked over to his office, dread filling my body, as I ignored the many eyes watching me.

They know what you did last night. They're all laughing at you.

I know, just shut up before boss reads my mind and hears you, I thought.

I sat in the chair across from boss as he glared at me. I looked down, avoiding his gaze. "So, Dice, you know why I called you in here, right?" I nodded, tears threatening to spill out and break me, but I didn't let them, not in front of boss. "Let's cut to the chase here. Why did you do... that?" He asked, pointing to my arms. I looked at my arms, then Devil, then the floor. "If I say it, you're gonna fire me." I whispered as I started to tear up. "Dice, I'm not going to fire you no matter what the reason is. I just want to know, that's all."

My breathing started to speed up and my vision started to blur. I couldn't tell him, I just couldn't. "I....i..."

He's going to hate you forever.

I know.

Look at you, pathetic motherfucker. You're too scared to say why you cut yourself. Here, I'll help you. You cut yourself because you're a pathetic bitch and nobody gives a shit about you, not even your own family likes you.

Shut the hell up, please just shut the hell up.

"Dice, hey, get your head out of the clouds and answer me." Devil said, snapping his fingers. "I'm-i'm just doing it to cope with stuff, okay? I needed an outlet and nothing else worked and nobody cared enough to ask me if I was okay, so I started doing this." The tears started getting worse, and it was getting harder to hide them. "Are you insane? We all care about you, you could've talked to any of us instead of hurting yourself." Boss said, looking at me sympathetically. He got up and moved towards me. He stood next to me and put his hand on my shoulder and looked me in my eyes, which were bright green now. "Dice, everything's gonna be okay."

That sentence is what completely broke me.

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Srry that the ending to this chapter kinda sucks, I'm just tired and wanted to hurry up on it😅