Missing

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"Let. Go. Me."
"Oh darling~  You know that's not gonna happen.  I can't have you running away again. I just got you back"
"Go to hell"
"Gladly for you~"
"You're a real psycho you know that"
"oh please, you're only feeding into me even more"
"I could never love you"
"You don't mean that-"
"Yes. I. Do."

I say between gritted teeth with that he grabbed my face pulling me into a kiss. I was trapped once again.

"Still mad at me lovely?"
"No, I could never be mad at you. I love you too much"  I said as I embraced him and gave him another kiss.
None of it is true I hate him. I wish I could just kill him. My body betrays me though.
"That's more like it.You just wanted my affection didn't you? You know you could always just ask me for it and I'd gladly give it to you lovely~"
God I wish I could punch you in the face rn.
"Well sadly I have some business matters to attended to. I'll be back later. Don't miss me too much love."

With that he finally me alone. I scrub hard at my lips and anywhere he touched. God how did it get to this- I waited until I no longer heard his footsteps before I finally relaxed. He was crazy to think I would ever return his feelings. How could I? I sighed and decided not to think about it anymore. I would only end up lost again. There was no point anyway. God I just wish- Ahh- No. I'm not gonna do this. I just want this nightmare to end. I flipped over on the bed hugging the plushies for comfort. Despite being held captive he gave me a really nice room. Most people would kill to be able to live how I have been- I mean what's not to "love". A huge bedroom, all the plushies and manga I want, every streaming service or subscription you can imagine- He just gets it for me. But it still doesn't change the fact he took me and man- I question how he can be sure that he's in love with me.

Honestly I feel like- I don't even know anymore- I'm tired. Tired of it all- The constant change between being tortured and then being pampered. It just confuses me. I don't know how I'm supposed to process the situation. But I'm just used to it at this point. Nothing really hurts but I act like it does. The fear I feel when he does all those things is enough for me. I can only imagine if I actually felt the pain. Although I do feel as if they're catching on to me. Lately they've been taking deeper measures to the ways they "punish" me.  Like-

Today, when they were electrocuting me in the chair again. They almost put me in a pool- and then when they where cutting me again I felt them put more pressure than they usually do- I'm starting to think he's slowing wanting to kill me. But then the "love" he has for me-

Just then the guards came in. I guess they've come to  take me the room again- God please help me. I don't think I can take much more of this place.
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WHAT-
WHO?
What is going on???
What will become of them?
WHOS HE???
Many questions to which unfortunately cannot be answered.
Short chapter cause-
No se-
But I thought it'd be nice to test this new perspective.