❤Tipsy Premika❤ [Vriti FF] [Completed]

Redemption

Akash's POV

I sat down with gauri, I needed to let it all out before mind explodes. She is unsuspecting and I will not be able to forgive myself.

"What is it, akash?", gauri asks and my heart is sinking

"Do you remember, I told you few days back that we needed to re-evaluate our relationship?", I ask her slowly.

"Yes..it is again about the engagement conversation?", she asks, her face slowly turning dull.

"I..I guess, but...", I stutter

"Akash, is everything okay?", she asks.

"I have been a terrible boyfriend, after everything went downhill...I didn't know what to do"

"I thought the long break was over?, akash you asked me 6 months long break, to rstart your career, and I waited!"

"Well I..."

"So your mom does not know that we took a break right? That's why they were talking about our engagement and all this time I thought you initiated the conversation"

"Gauri..I am sorry"

"No akash! I am sorry...sorry for hoping that you will love me as much as I do!! Honestly, our breaks are longer than our entire relationship!", she screams at me

"I know. I hate myself more. But, you need to know few things. Can I have your attention?", gauri looks at me and nods slightly.

"Go on", she speaks slowly.

"This was few years back, when we joined college, I was this shy guy with zero social skills but I was so fortunate to get a best friend like you and udita and rohit. And, it was were things were happier, when mishka was still with us.
When mishka left, I was devastated, heartbroken. Even though I spent little time with her, our bond over vihaang and just being able to be that person she opened up to made me really get attached to her. She was my first love, and I know you helped me get over her and helped me through my drinking phase when I was clueless on how to move on. You became my comfort and my safe space. You made sure, I slept well, eat well, you were there for me when I had nightmares and pushed me to see a therapist when mishka's disappearance eat me alive.

I started dating you, and the guilt of dating someone else when mishka was out there somewhere, eat me alive. I moved on though, or that's atleast what I thought.

"How is this related?", she asks me curiously

"Its mishka....she is back", I respond.
I could see her expressions changing almost immediately. I could sense the fear, the anger and the relief all at once.

"How even! Where was she? Is she okay??", she asks and I hold her hand, because its now or never.

"Gauri, I did something really fucked up and  I dont deserve your forgiveness, I don't", I respond

"Akash, you are scaring me now!"

"Gauri...I.."

"You what?"

"I kissed mishka"

"You did what?!", she looks horrified and the next thing I know is she has slapped me extremely hard.

Gauri breaks down, and starts sobbing terribly. She stops me from getting any closer and all I could do is stand next to her, feeling absolutely shit.

How could I ever do that? I wish I knew the answer. But, seeing mishka fighting for life, scared me like I have never been scared. That moment, all I could think was about how I was going to lose her forever and regret never confessing my feelings.