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Fanwai: Hello, Wensheng

 Hello, I'm Wen Sheng.

My name is Cheng Ruzhou, and my nickname is Wensheng. The villagers call me Junsheng, and my mother calls me Xiaowen, Wenwen, Piboy, Bad Boy, Bear Monkey, and Preserved Egg...

Originally, I lived in Shuihuai Village and had a happy family.

Grandpa and grandma are kind and amiable. They are kind old people who are willing to do good things. People in and outside the village like them.

My father is gentle and serious. He is a principle-oriented man. If he steps on the bottom line, no one will forgive him lightly.

My mother was a gentle and virtuous country woman who was very good at housekeeping but also had a small temper. She is beautiful and soft, but also stubborn. There are so many boys and children in the village, she always likes to stare at me, let me eat noodles, let me eat vegetables, let me read the playbook, let me not go into the river, do not catch snakes, do not... Anyway, she wants everything. It's what I don't want, what I want is what she won't let.

Oh, how helpless.

My father was used to her, saying that a man should be nice to his mother, or he would not be a man, especially my mother is quite squeamish.

Moreover, my father said that my mother has a baby, and she may give birth to a little sister for me. She must be a smart, cute and soft little sister.

But I like my younger brother or younger sister who is just like me, so I can lead her to fish, go up the mountain, catch rabbits, and play sparrows!

However, as long as it's my own sister, I like it, whether she's a squeamish or a tomboy.

I'm a good boy, so I have to be nice to my mother, can't make her angry, eat noodles? eat! Read the playbook, read!

I can memorize it for you, do you believe it?

I can dig out a book you haven't seen before, can you believe it? If I can't figure it out, I'll make up my own!

Hey, if I don't get used to her, I'll go crazy when she talks. When my mother babbles, she doesn't speak loudly, so she just babbles, softly and softly. Hey, how many people envy my father, envy me, and say that my mother is gentle, she is a hard-to-find good woman.

You didn't hear her talk!

Go crazy!

Fortunately, there are still two uncles and second aunts who were talked about instead of me.

Although the second aunt is a bit stingy and not so easy to get along with, the second uncle is happy and knows his fate and never argues with his grandfather and father. He did what he could and did not fight for the right to be in the family, because he knew that he would be in charge without a father and elder brother, and he could not support so many people by himself.

If that had not happened, our family would have died of illness in that ancient and peaceful village. When I grow up, I will marry a daughter-in-law and take over the account books from my parents as a housekeeper.

Year after year, day after day, generation after generation.

Damn, it's too monotonous and boring, the world is so big, I want to go out and explore.

When the enemy entered the country, we fought back hard. So many people joined the Red Army and the Eighth Route. Why should I stay at home for peace?

How could grandfather and father, who have always been upright and strong, allow the old Cheng family not to participate in the war?

When I was seven or eight years old, my second uncle smuggled into the army, and we went together, but my father caught me and put him in confinement.

Later, I learned that none of the men in our family could go there, because he had a name in the Japanese and puppet army, and if one of the men in the family was lost, he would be shot in the village as an anti-Japanese activist.

They did what they said, so my father didn't dare to take the risk.

But he didn't do anything either. I found out later that he quietly gave food to the anti-Japanese organizations, and even used the family's money to buy penicillin for them.

The business captain and the political commissar were two people he knew. They sneaked into my house several times to ask for help. My father and grandfather tried their best to help.

Later, the Japanese surrendered and continued to fight Lao J. I have also participated in several rescue operations, hiding several wanted underground parties in the cellar of my house, and with my help to cover them, the spies of the G party could not be found. Because it's my secret base, full of my toys - rubbish, my mother said.

If that hadn't happened, I'd probably have repeated my father's path and wouldn't have encountered such a strange thing.

When the local tyrants divided the land, our family was beaten.

I can't figure it out, I can't figure it out even if I want to break my head. Why are we secretly resisting and supporting the anti-Japanese? Why are we counter-revolutionaries? It must be the beast Cheng Fugui who deceived the top and the bottom.

Cheng Fugui held a grudge, incited the whole village to criticize my grandfather, and shot my grandfather to death because of his privilege.

My grandma is old and respected all her life, but she couldn't bear to be humiliated like that when she was old, so she chose to hang herself.

She said that she walked clearly, afraid that grandpa would be alone on Huangquan Road, and she would have to accompany him.

In her whole life, she gave birth to children for her grandfather, and he has always protected her and respected her. Although she is a woman with small feet, she has never read a book, has no culture, and does not understand the big truth. But the husband and wife have the same blessings and the same difficulties, and she understands this truth.

She was old and could no longer be a drag on her children, so she hanged herself and asked no one in the family to stop her.

I begged her not to die, but she smiled and let me live.

"Child, you have to live to the age of grandpa grandma, and there are still several decades."

At that time, when I looked at the body of grandma, I couldn't tell how I felt. I couldn't cry. The hemp wrapped in mud smeared my whole body, I couldn't breathe, and my body became heavier and heavier.

Both my father and second uncle were arrested and locked up. They were criticized and beaten. It was said that they would also be shot. My mother was locked up with the women of the second aunt, and they smashed and looted their homes.

They locked me up with Ye Sheng Pandan, how could I let him be locked up! I escaped, I'm going to find my parents, I'm going to save them.

Now that the Japanese have surrendered and get out, and no one has given our family a name forbidding us to fight against Japan, I am going to fight!

I sneaked into the ancestral house, but I didn't expect someone at home. When I saw Cheng Fugui, the beast, he actually wanted my mother to follow him, and said that he always liked her.

Of course my mother wouldn't! He can't even match my father's hair, why should my mother be with him!

He beat her, tore her clothes, and threatened her, saying that if he didn't, he would kill my father, kill me, kill my second uncle, and kill our whole family...

My mother cursed him if he couldn't beat him.

I'm so angry, I'm going to explode with rage, I dare to bully my mother and kill you bastard! I went to the cellar to find a knife to chop him to death.

Unfortunately, I wasn't strong enough to beat him, but he beat me instead.

He stepped on me and threatened her, and I shouted loudly, "Mother, we don't have a coward in our family, so I'm not afraid of him! I'm not afraid of death!"

My mother couldn't stand it.

That beast beat me hard, but I wasn't afraid of the pain at all, and I didn't beg for mercy.

I had a chance to bite Cheng Fugui, but he got out and threatened to kill our whole family.

I told my mother not to be sad, I was not afraid of death, and neither was my father.

She just looked at me quietly, her eyes were so reluctant and unbearable, I coaxed her to be happy, sang to her, and recited the playbook for her.

"Look, I'll actually have more."

She finally cried, hugging me and crying in a low voice.

My sister is gone.

It hurts so much, and seeing my mother hurts me even more, I feel like it's going to hurt to death.

My mother said the same thing as my grandmother. She can't drag us down. If she lives, my father and second uncle will not be able to live. She doesn't want the old Cheng family's reputation to be discredited.

"We can be wronged, not humiliated," she said.

I don't understand, I hate how I can't figure it out, I'm a man, why can't I understand what they say?

Grandpa said, it was dawn, the Japanese surrendered, and we were all freed. Who knew that our house was raided by Cheng Fugui, he died, and grandma died.

Mother said, we can't live if she lives, I don't understand.

Is that the bastard Cheng Fugui? I'll just kill him.

If I can't kill him today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, I can always kill him!

But the mother is still dead, she is hanged just like the grandmother.

My mother is dead, it hurts so much, I really want to die, everything in front of me is blood red, and my mind is pounding like thunder, and I can't calm down.

I have only one thought, kill that bastard!

So I escaped and found another knife, I was going to kill Cheng Fugui. As a result, when he was not there, I cut down his eldest son, and they beat me.

Am I afraid of pain? Actually scared. The pain of sticking fists and feet on one's own flesh and blood is indescribable, but I don't cry out in pain. Compared with my grandma and my mother, I don't feel any pain.

My grandfather died, my grandma died, and my mother died too.

I don't feel pain.

I listened to my ribs being broken, I heard my blood splatter, listen...

I don't feel pain.

I want to avenge my mother!

I'm going to kill their whole family!

I want them to pay their debts with blood, and the elderly, children, cats, dogs, pigs and chickens can't be spared! ! !

At that moment I suddenly had a mysterious friend.

I have the heart to kill Cheng Fugui, but I don't have the strength. My friend has the strength. He makes my body full of strength like an adult.

I beat them back hard, breaking Cheng Fuwan's ribs, breaking Cheng Fugui's son's ribs, and beating... until I fainted myself.

When I woke up, it was several days later, and my second uncle said that I had walked through the gate of hell and was in a coma for several days.

Fortunately, Captain Shang and the Political Commissar came in time and saved us.

I don't understand, why can't they come earlier, why can't they save grandpa, grandma, and mother, why can that bastard Cheng Fugui be able to do bad things, and there are people who support him?

I don't understand, I can't figure it out, I'm not convinced,

and then they say I'm crazy, that I have mental problems.

Yeah?

Maybe.

I know that something is wrong with my new friend. He is very strong, ruthless, dark and violent, and believes in blood for blood. Whenever I want to beat people and kill people, he will help me.

We were on the farm, and there were people protecting us, but there were also people who bullied us, always wanting to beat my father and second uncle.

When I couldn't stand it, I asked my friends to beat them, so that they wouldn't dare to bully my father and my second uncle.

Of course, they said I was completely insane.

They call me Dashazhou, Dasha.

It doesn't matter, my name is for my family anyway, they call it whatever they want.

Dad told me that I can no longer go crazy and kill people, otherwise I will be locked up or shot, he doesn't want me to die.

So I understand that my friend who can kill can't come out often, because then I will be beaten to death, and he can't protect my father and second uncle when I die.

I gave him Cheng Ruzhou's name because he would protect us like an adult.

I missed my mother, and then I started singing.

I have a friend who can sing opera. He is like a pure actor. He sings, reads, plays, and has excellent acting and singing skills.

Those who dare not beat and scold us, but also want to bully and exclude us, cannot beat and kill them, so my friend will scold them for me.

Curse them to the point of being bloody!

I gave him the nickname Junsheng, because he is handsome and has the ability to charm all beings - this is what the officials of the farm said, they are cultural people.

I don't want to see anyone except my father and second uncle, and Junsheng will help me deal with them.

Oh, my second aunt doesn't want my second uncle, let's go, maybe this is what my grandma and mother said about being a drag.

My second uncle later married a better daughter-in-law. She was handsome, gentle, and a bit timid sister, who was right in line with our family.

My new second aunt is a very nice woman, and I think she is also a bit silly. She originally wanted to hang herself like my mother, but my second uncle saved her and enlightened her, so she wanted to marry my second uncle. Despite the twists and turns, the two are still together. After getting married, she is no longer afraid of seeking death, and is happy every day.

She is very nice to Ye Sheng and Xiang Lan, but they always say bad things about her, she is really a little silly, and she is cute.

If my mother was here, my mother would definitely like her.

Even if she is criticized and does a lot of work, she does not cry or feel sad, and smiles slightly all day, as if there is nothing to worry about in this world.

She infected everyone, and everyone around her was happy with her, picking wild flowers for her, and decorating the dark and broken house.

Except for those two bastard kids.

Junsheng also liked her very much. He sang for her, and she liked listening to the show, so they went to other actors to listen to the show together.

With her company, Junsheng is much better, but Junsheng's sharpness is in his bones and cannot be changed.

He will attract some people on the farm to covet. The bastards always want to take the actor as their own except for listening to the play, and men are inferior! It makes me stumped, I don't want to deal with boring, disgusting, disgusting people.

So I had another friend, and I gave him Wen Sheng's name.

He is simple and stupid, laughs all day, and is very popular. He seems to be only four or five years old. I think when he is four or five years old, he is the happiest when his parents won't force him to study, and even if he is naughty, others won't scold him.

A boy, after the age of six, the good days of his life are over! ! !

Therefore, Wen Sheng is so good, so happy, happy when he has something to eat, and happy when he can listen to and sing.

But he was too stupid to do anything other than sing and listen to operas.

I have to help him, or he will be bullied. Although I can't control the tempers of Cheng Ruzhou and Junsheng, I can control Wensheng.

Wen Sheng is too stupid and naive. He doesn't know our existence, but Cheng Ruzhou and Junsheng do.

Although I can't change him directly, I can slowly influence him. Even if I keep talking to him, over time, he can actually change.

This little fool is very happy, eating and drinking foolishly. They said that I am not so crazy, I will stop beating and killing people, and there is no need to lock me up.

Oh, by the way, my second uncle and new second aunt gave birth to a new brother named Dongsheng.

I don't like the two children of the former second aunt, and I don't like watching them.

I like Dongsheng very much. Dongsheng is very handsome. When he was a child, he was thin and small, and his eyes were dark and bright, which made people panic when looking at people.

How strange.

I don't know if he can see me.

I'll try to get him food to replenish his body, so that he won't starve to death, that would be a pity.

Others don't trust me to stay with Dongsheng because they are afraid that I will hurt Dongsheng. Only the second aunt is not afraid and asks me to help Dongsheng. The second aunt said that I was neither crazy nor stupid. She was a good child. She fed her milk to work, and let me watch Dongsheng. The former second aunt and those bastard children would make things difficult for her, and they would not help her at all. Eat, selfish.

I hate them!

I made delicious food for Dongsheng only, not for them.

These days have been relatively peaceful, but sometimes I still can't help but let Cheng Ruzhou fight back those who bullied us. It's obviously wrong for them to bully us, but if I fight them back, it's our fault. I don't understand, but my father and second uncle will be punished for this.

I understood that in order not to hurt my family, I couldn't show up myself, only Vincent was safe.

I asked Cheng Ruzhou how he could show up less so that no one would notice that something was wrong with Dashazhou, and he said sleep.

I haven't slept since the accident at my house. It's weird, why don't I want to sleep? Anyway, I seemed to be constantly awake when they were sleeping, I was afraid that someone would come to harm us in the middle of the night.

If I sleep, I don't know what's going on.

What if the fool gets bullied if I fall asleep? What if someone gets killed? I'm worried.

Slowly Dongsheng grew older, and he was surprisingly smart at the age of three or four. He didn't like talking to outsiders, and he didn't fit in with the people around him.

Everyone said he was a little devil. His eyes were scary at a young age. He could compose children's songs and scare children to tears. I like listening to it the most. When Xiao Dongsheng was the only one, I would play with him and teach him something.

He shouldn't remember.

With Dongsheng accompanying the fool, I have nothing to worry about. After all, when the body grows up, Wensheng has the strength, and Dongsheng has the brain, so no one can bully them.

Then I fell asleep.

Then I went crazy again because of my dad.

My father also died.

Wen sheng didn't know, he didn't know anything.

After that, the days went by very long.

Dongsheng grew up, and the second aunt took them back to Shuihuai Village. Silly Wensheng was extremely disappointed, but unfortunately he couldn't go with him.

His loss was influenced by me, and I was so lost and pained that it affected him.

He wouldn't have been in pain, he didn't know what pain was.

Just like Cheng Ruzhou, he is only violent and does not think calmly, while Junsheng is naturally coquettish and mean.

Wen Sheng is only pure and stupid, nothing else, he will not suffer, will not be violent, and will not be complicated.

He only has true love, that is all my love.

I know Dongsheng is a good boy and the hope of our family. He is so different and he really fulfilled his promise back then.

He said, "Brother, don't worry, I will take you home."

He never regarded me as a fool or a lunatic, he only regarded me as a brother.

When he brought my family to pick me up and my second uncle, I actually had a feeling of completeness, and I wanted to disappear, not to interfere with their future happy time, so as not to be destroyed by me.

Then I saw Linlin, as if I saw my mother.

They don't look like her, she is more beautiful than her mother, like a flamboyant rose, bright, energetic, and sassy, ​​not as quiet, soft-spoken and petty as her mother.

But the light in their eyes can penetrate directly to the bottom of their hearts. Silly Wensheng responded to her eyes and voice, and he was very excited.

At that moment, I was also confused. Is my mother dead or gone? Is she coming to pick me up now?

She is my mother, I thought, and then Wen Sheng obediently knelt down and called her mother.

Dabao and Xiaobao are almost the same as Dongsheng when they were young, and they are more cute and smart.

I have two more brothers!

The life after that seems to be able to be welded with the life before the accident. If I disappear and do not exist, then Vincent's life will always be happy.

I tried to make him look like a whole person, and I told him the good things about his childhood a million times and only the good memories.

The sugar extracted from the gallbladder was sweet to him.

I hope he can grow up again. Of course, that's just my hope. He can't grow up, just like Cheng Ruzhou can't be quiet and Junsheng can't be normal.

But I hope he can grow up and live happily instead of me.

In this way, Dongsheng and Linlin will be happy.

I think maybe I should disappear completely so that Vincent can grow up on his own.

That day, Linlin took us to laying tiles. The loudspeaker stimulated my nerves again and again. Cheng Ruzhou suddenly appeared and raised his hand to attack her. Although I could communicate with him, I could never control him. Don't hurt your family.

He just wanted to kill Cheng Fugui and end this matter completely, so that the pain of the past would no longer affect the present and future life.

With a knife, it slashed on the arm, bit off the animal's ears, and killed him!

But that kind of revenge is not as violent as it used to be, because I don't want Dongsheng and Linlin to worry, second uncle and second aunt to worry, and I don't want to scare Dabao and Xiaobao. I think they are Dongsheng when they were young. They are my brothers.

In the end, we chose to let Cheng Ruzhou continue to sleep.

There is no pain when you fall asleep.

Maybe because I kept talking to Vincent all the time, just like my mother did, Vincent was finally influenced by me, started to grow up, and became more and more able to communicate with others normally.

I am happy for him. Every time I see Linlin smiling, I am very happy.

I don't want her to suffer any grievances.

Every time she encounters something, I panic and become so irritable that I can't control myself, but I know that I can't become Cheng Ruzhou or Junsheng.

That time, she was chased by a dog with Dabao and Xiaobao. She was so frightened that she lost her mind. For a moment, I wanted to become Cheng Ruzhou and kill that bastard. They don't have the power they used to be, and my body has grown to have power far beyond theirs.

I can do it!

It was Dongsheng who appeased me, he killed the dog, drove Cheng Xinda crazy, and then sent them to the labor camp to experience our torture. did what I wanted.

A tooth for a tooth, blood for blood, Dongsheng has the brutality of Cheng Ruzhou, but he also has the simplicity and kindness of Wensheng. He can control himself very well, and he will not hide in the dark like me and never see the light again.

Suddenly I have a desire to stand beside them, I also want to protect Linlin and never let her get hurt again.

Maybe my desire is too strong, and I actually control my body. I'm older than Vincent, and I won't be as naive and innocent as Vincent, but no matter if I'm violent or sharp or simple or quiet, they will never doubt that in their eyes, this it's all me.

They love me and trust me completely.

It's a very safe feeling.

But I know that only Wen Sheng is the most suitable for this family. Although he can't communicate with me and doesn't know my existence, he will gradually get better under my influence.

I can't ruin all this, because I can't control Cheng Ruzhou and Junsheng, I can't guarantee not to go crazy, only Wensheng is safe.

In the end, I returned all this to Vincent, and I will not allow anyone to destroy the beauty of this home, including myself.

Vincent understands me more and more, and I can empathize more and more.

Everyone thought he was getting more and more sensible and everyone was happy.

Time, day by day, I feel very happy, just like lying on the warm water, comfortable, even if it disappears in the next moment, there is no regret at all.

Vincent was more and more influenced by me. He would think of the happy things when he was a child, and when he was thinking about the happy things, those sad pictures would pop up involuntarily.

I don't want him to suffer. Those sufferings are just as good as me. He doesn't have to remember anything.

Wen Sheng is a good boy. He loves this family, loves Linlin, loves to sing, learns English, learns to sing, learns to act, and also makes TV dramas and movies. I feel all these joys and hardships.

As for the exclusion and discrimination imposed on him by outsiders, he was not influenced by me and responded with irritability and tit-for-tat. No matter how the outside world treats him, he is always so pure and kind, and does what he likes with his mind.

This is better.

I feel, I influence, I am happy.

Wen Sheng is getting more and more popular, but he is still so innocent, he can withstand the humiliation of others and the overwhelming honor, because he doesn't care. He only has his mother and family in his eyes. He sings to sing for his mother, to make money to support his family, to be happier, not to make others happy.

Therefore, he doesn't care about the honor and disgrace that others think.

very nice.

The family tried him to see if he wanted to get married and have a daughter-in-law, but Wen Sheng really didn't understand. Even though he looked a lot older under my influence and was no longer so childish, his mind was still single-minded and pure.

Commonly known as less root tendons.

Although I want him to marry and live a normal man's life, I don't want it in my heart. I just want to protect this family. I'm not interested in forming a family by myself.

All my love and affection have been given to this family, all I want is my grandma, my mother, my sister, and my family will be together forever, and no one will be able to separate us.

I'm not suitable for marriage and I don't want to lie to anyone.

So when Xiao Jie asked Wen Sheng if he wanted to marry her as a daughter-in-law, Wen Sheng said what was in my heart, "I want you to be Xiao Jie."

Not a wife, but also Xiaojie, our family's eternal friend, not someone's wife.

I'm sorry, we don't have the energy to love another woman. We have grandma, Linlin and Baosheng in our family.

As long as Linlin and Dongsheng don't chase us away, we will be together forever.

As time went by, we became happier and happier, and Cheng Ruzhou and Junsheng slept longer and longer.

Then one day, they left without saying goodbye.

I was dreaming when they left.

I had a very terrifying dream. I was jealous of Wen Sheng and completely wiped him out. I became more and more irritable, evil, and even had inappropriate thoughts.

Later, one day at the end of the year, I sang a piece on the stage of Shuihuai Village to kill Qin Hui, and then used my sharpened sword to kill Cheng Fugui and Cheng Fuwan's family.

I also piled those heads neatly on the graves of grandpa, grandma, and mother to worship.

When everyone was looking for me to catch me, I quietly sneaked back to the new ancestral hall, the memorial hall.

I looked through the books, the portraits, the photographs, and finally decided to bury myself there.

A fire starts from oneself first, and then burns the entire ancestral hall clean.

Dongsheng and Linlin rushed into the fire to save me, but I drove them out. I sang and performed in the fire to pay homage to the blood and tears we lost.

"We don't need to commemorate, we just need to sleep."

Then I woke up, but Cheng Ruzhou and Junsheng were gone, only me and Wensheng. Wen Sheng still didn't know my existence, he thought we were one person, I was his inexplicable sadness and forgotten past.

I want to give my life to Wen Sheng and disappear with Cheng Ruzhou and Junsheng.

At this time, I saw a book, it was a translated book, which was bought by a foreign friend of Linlin.

The book was called Multiple Personalities.

When I read that book, I suddenly realized that a lot of things have been figured out all at once.

According to the book, multiple personalities are a protective measure born from my huge trauma, which is actually a delusional disorder. Multiple personalities, multiple personalities, I lost a unified sense of my personality and thought we were different people.

The book says that only love can heal the wounds of the soul.

I hid behind Wen Sheng, feeling his happiness, and being cared for by my family all the time, which made me more and more sober.

I realize more and more that Wen Sheng and I are one person. He is my purest side. I separate all my anger, darkness, love, and hate to create those friends.

Cheng Ruzhou, Junsheng, and Wensheng were all imagined by me, and I am the last reason.

But I still like to think of them as friends, not just my crazy hysteria. In this way, I have been silent and crazy for half my life, but I have someone to accompany me, and it is meaningful, not just a fool and a lunatic.

Before Dongsheng had avenged his revenge, Linlin gave birth to another younger sister.

Baosheng is as beautiful as a fairy, and as smart as an elf.

I have a grandmother, I have a mother, I have a sister, I have a family.

They all love me, and I am truly complete.

Because I became more and more peaceful and let go of my obsessions, Cheng Ruzhou and Junsheng would disappear.

Now maybe it's my turn, even if it disappears I have no fear and no regrets. Because for this family, Wen Sheng and Cheng Ruzhou are still around.

I said good night to my family, and said goodbye with good night, and I hugged them one by one.

To be honest, I don't like hugs very much. I'm not as simple as Wen Sheng. I hate being restrained, and I hate too close physical contact.

But I want to say goodbye to them and tell them that I love them.

When I hugged Linlin, she was obviously a little confused, and asked me, "Wensheng, what's the matter with you?"

Yes, she is so smart and sensitive, she has studied so many spiritual books, and she knows me like the back of the hand.

Although she didn't try to call my friends, she must know something.

I said good night to her and silently told her that I will always love her. As Wen Sheng fell asleep and fell asleep, maybe when I woke up the next day, I would disappear completely.

I had a beautiful dream. In the dream, my grandfather and my mother said goodbye to me together. They smiled at me happily and made me feel good. Watching them go away, I didn't catch up, and I didn't have to cry, but it was peaceful.

I waved goodbye to them.

I woke up when the morning light shone on the earth, and the rays of light were reflected on the windowsill.

I didn't disappear because I was Wen Sheng.

I was healed, all the resentment, darkness, stubbornness, mania were all put down, and now my body and mind are relaxed and happy.

Once again, I was perfectly integrated with my body, without any obstacles, and my identity and emotional cognition were completely unified.

I realized the simplicity of Wen Sehng, with only love in his heart.

Although I am completely awake, I do not want to return to the normal rules that people recognize. I am still Wensheng, I have grandfather and grandmother, I have parents, I have younger brothers and sisters.

I will always be me.

I love you, I love every grass and every tree in the world, I love Linlin, I want to be a movie star, I want to be the pride of our old Cheng family, as good as my family.

I want to go to sleep with the starlight every day, wake up with the morning light every day, and walk forward step by step along the twists and turns of life, every step is not lonely, not panic, not resentful.

Whether I look back or look forward, there is light and love in my heart.

If life is a practice, I have experienced half a lifetime of crazy resentment, and finally I am willing to take refuge in innocence and kindness.

Hello, I'm Wen Sheng, and my life has just begun.