No more fluff only angst >:'( thank you all for the reads though :)
Tw. Intrusive thoughts, body Dysphoria, gender Dysphoria and derealisation
I'll put Tw where triggers
may start and where they end.
Stay safe out there if you don't want to read I'll put a summary at the end.
Y/n pov:
When I woke up Max wasn't by my side and all her things was gone, I go downstairs and ask Phil where she went "oh good morning y/n, max had to go home a little earlier due to a family problem"
"oh, ok thanks Phil" I would lie if I said I wasn't a little sad. I had so much fun hanging out with Max. Well we have school tomorrow anyway so I'll see them there. I went back up to my room to change and put on my binder and some make-up.
Tw Dysphoria, intrusive thoughts and derealisation.
I looked in the mirror but the person looking back at me wasn't me.. Or at least it wasn't how I saw myself in my brain. I looked to long at the mirror again, I looked at every single flaw, every single feminine thing about me. >awwe would you look at that, once a girl always a girl, hahaha!< no no no not now I can't do that now. I dont want the voices to come back... I've been doing so good.. >aww come on, really? You're going to cry? You're a weak girl.< tears start to roll down my cheaks >do it. They won't miss you. They don't love you. Just do it. Kill yourself.< please make it stop.... I fall down to the floor holding my hand over my ears, crying. It doesn't feel real I don't feel like I'm in my own body.. Is this even real?
Tw over
I guess someone hears me crying because the next second someone is running through my door and embrace me in a hug wispering something. I cling on to the person like they were my only life line. Like if I would let go I'd lose them or die. Why, why me? What did I do to deserve this? I looked up, at the person hugging me,to my surprise it was the least expected. Technoblade was hugging me and wispering reassurance to me? I stopped crying and was just hugging him by now. "please.... Don't tell the others." i said so only he could hear. "it's okay.. I won't.." he answered me, we sat in comfortable silence for a bit after "y/n.. What caused it? What happened?" he asked after a few minutes. And I just answered "bad brain" and heard him hum understanding. "I get those too y'know?" I just looked at him confused "I also get bad thoughts, and I understand you" he looked down and smiled at me, I smiled back. Our moment was soon over by the fact of Phil shouting "BABY BIRDS! TIME FOR BREAKFAST!" ne and techno just looked at each other before bursting into laughter and going down to get breakfast.
Alright so summery. Y/n woke up to Max gone. They go to Phil to ask about where Max are. Max left because of family problems. Y/n goes up to get ready but looks in the mirror and doesn't like that they see. Soon a voice tells him that they'll never be a real boy and y/n has a breakdown. Techno comes in to y/n s room and calm then down then they eat breakfast :)
A/n alright, sorry for not posting in a while but here you go! I've been working on like 5 or 6 other fanfics! If you like this one I recommend you check out my other ones :)
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