Surgery

Chapter 8

AN- i actually wrote all of this last night but it got deleted -_- anyway, i hope your enjoying this, sort of lol, Love ya's -Kat :)

EDETHS P.O.V

I slumped down on one of the chairs at the back, why did liam have to be my partner? Gosh...

"You have a scar from that needle" Liam said bluntly as he sat down next to me. No one else was here so if this conversation turned into a fight, no one would have to know...

"Yeah, well i have alot of scars" I snapped

"Your not really in the position to snap" Liam mumbled

"Yeah well i thought the same thing 3 weeks ago when i was crying myself to sleep every night, when i slipped into a deep hole of deppression, but honeslty? i dont care any more of what others think of me, because you and everyone else in the school ALREADY HATES ME" I Basically screamed at him. "You know what liam? go fuck your self" I said. That was really the first time i said that to someone, and i ment it.

I ran out of the room and out of the school. I didnt want to go to the hospital, i wanted to go to the beach. I pulled out my phone and called a taxi, it was about 20 minute drive from the school but it felt like forever. I just wanted to be alone.

I got out of the car and payed the driver. I walked up to the jump, i wasnt going to jump in but this felt like the most safe place at the moment, which is strange...

"What are you doing here?" I heard a deep irish voice say

"Niall" I jumped at the sound of his voice "I-" i sighed "Im just trying to get away from every thing, i couldnt stand being at school, everyone hates me there" 

"Liam doesnt" Niall stated quietly

"No, no, im sure he does. I just want it all to stop, The cancer, the bullying, not being with liam, not having any friends. I just want to leave, get it over and done with. Liam should never of pulled me out of the water... I didnt deserve it. I just want to go. Im done with everything" I said, silent tears poured down my face.

"Dont- Dont say that" Niall said, sitting beside me.

"Its true" I whispered, it was true, all of this was too hard "I have no one" I added

"You have me, and liam and all the other boys" Niall whispered back, pulling me into a hug.

"No, I dont. I dont deserve any of this I shouldnt be here. This is your spot- I... I have to go" I mumbled, I stood up and ran down, i didnt want him to follow me- I didnt want to interact with anyone.

2 hours later of walking, i was finally back at the hospital, i couldve called a taxi but i thought the walk would do me good.

"Hey hun" Shaz said as i walked past

"Hey, shaz, can you shave off all my hair for me? I would rather get it over and done with now than to lose it day by day..."

"Sure!" Shaz said excitedly

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I looked so different, i felt so different, Lighter. So much lighter.

I walked into my room, i couldnt help my self but all i wanted to do was run my hand over my bald head.

"You have another chemo session tomorrow" Shaz ducked her head in and said.

i sighed "Okey dokey"

A second after shaz left i got a text.

From Niall- Keep your chin up love, Liam doesnt hate you and neither do any of the other boys or myself.

That was literally the first text i had gotten in a month, i was a little bit sad that i hadnt gotten one from liam but i had to push those feelings down, whatever feelings they may be...

Suddenly, my phone buzzed again.

From Liam- I dont hate you...

Well... okay then? But he has no other feelings for me... okay well its a start i guess... 

To Liam- But you have no other feelings for me?

My phonebuzzed a second later

From Liam- I honestly dont know anymore, you didnt have to lie to me... can we meet up? just you and me? so we can talk about this? Hows the park in 10 minutes?

To Liam- Sure, see you then

huh, he was going to see my shaved head....

AN- Sorry!!! Sorry about the short chapter, put the next one up soon Love ya's -Kat xx