Poem Made by Me

That Certain Person

I used to look for a certain person

a certain person that I thought

would make me happy

would make me have a purpose

would make me comfortable

would make me feel safe

would make me feel pretty

would make me feel no pain

would make me complete

would make me feel not lonely

but as I set the standard to the people around me, to the people I've met, to the people I stayed loyal and spend my time with.

the more I get to realized that they are not that "certain person"

I felt betrayed, I felt sadness, I felt anger
for believing that they are that "certain person"

I felt dissapointed to them but mostly I felt dissapointed in me.

For believing that they would change and be that "certain person"

I started not to walk to the same path as them

I started leaving them all behind

And I started not to believe that a "certain person" would crossed my path

It is just me and my shadow

Then I realized, that if I cannot find that "certain person"

I decided that,

I. Would. Be. That. Certain. Person.

I am way too busy looking for someone

that I forgot that I have "me"

Me who can do what I want

Me who I work hard to be where I want

Me who can be whoever I want

Stop looking for a certain person.

Be that certain person.