I awoke early the next morning, I changed into a jacket with some track pants put my hair into a ponytail and took off out side on the catsle grounds to go for a run.I have been running for the past few years whenever I had the time to it helps alot with my thoughts and anxiety. Plus it makes my body release endorphines which then make me happier. Well chemically happieer.
As I was running I came across a bench by the black lake and sat down watching the sun rise with my knees against my chest. It was beautiful I've always thought the sun rise and sun set was one of the most calming things to watch. I could sit here forever and still be happy. I have not been able to take my mind off of the fact I'm going to be placed with some man today and have to marry and have children with him, what if he didn't even want children would he hate them would he hate me or would he love me and his future children more than anything in the whole world.
I'm not sure how but I managed to start walking back towards Hogwarts while walking and reciting spells in my head trying to figure out a way to get my parents memories back I saw that hair again that blonde hair, he looked up from the ground and made eye contact with me his eyes looked so full of something I just couldn't pin point what it was. He stared at me for a few seconds and started to look as if he was going to explode with something it wasn't anger I don't think but it was something I quickly looked away walking back into the castle.
McGonagall and the rest of the teachers started passing out the 200 question test offer sending all of the students under 6th year off. I looked at the first question
What would you rather do for a night off?
A-go to a party
B-read a book you've been dying to read
C-invite some friends over
D-hang out with s/o
This sounded like some stupid muggle quiz I would have taken with my friends in the 3rd year.
A majority of the questions where just like that but there was also some deeper more emotional ones
How did the war effect you(go into as much detail as possible)?
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Everyone was so concentrated it took me about twenty five minutes before I looked up turned my paper in and walked out of the great hall I couldn't be in there the room felt so off like our life might end today dramatic I know but being married off to random people isn't a common thing anymore for a reason.
I ended up somewhere on the castle grounds reading a book about magic memory loss I have read what feels like hundreds of books and still have not figured out a answer. But I will spend the rest of my life figuring this out if I have to.
"Hermione, how are you? Are you okay? You have been very avoidant the past few weeks it feels like." I met eyes with Ginny she was wonderful she always cared but she was also one of the brightest people I've met in my entire life "I'm doing good Ginny I've just been really overwhelmed with the whole coming back here and then finding out about this new law it all just feels like too much." She looked concerned but her expression softened. "I agree this whole law is bloody horrible if I don't end up with harry I am going to show up at the ministry and hex them myself".She was scared I could tell by the look in her eyes. "oh Ginny we all know you and harry will be with each other you guys are basically perfect for each other we all see it" well I sure hope so anyway because I don't see either them being happy with out each other.
"I hope so Hermione, do you have a idea who you will end up with or who you want to?" Ginny was smirking and nudging my shoulder I couldn't help but laugh at her "There is no one I want to be with I just wish there was a option to be independent I don't need a man or kids to be successful and happy. I have my friends and that is all I need." Ginny rolled her eyes "there has to be a part of you that just wants to be loved by more then just your friends" I shook my head going to back to my book, I think she got the hint after a few seconds she got up and left. I just have never felt like I needed a man to tell me how he wants me to dress how to talk or what he thinks.
Hours later and I'm back in the great hall. We are going to find out who are new partner is and I'm on the verge of a panic attack I can't even focus on what is happing who is talking it feels as if I just fought and survived a war for my life to be ended as soon as it started again. " All students please pay attention I will be calling off pairs of two the person who gets called first will stand up and go to sit with their partner. Houses are no longer how you will be categorized listen closely." McGonagall took a deep breath then sighed as she started with the first pairing. "Luna Lovegood and Blaise zabini" my eyes quickly darted over to Blaise his eyes looked as if they were going to pop out of his head. "Ronald Weasley and pansy parkson" Ron immediately started yelling to no one in particular rambling as he walked over to pansy he sat down and left more then five feet in between him and Pansy. This went on for what felt like forever as McGonagall called pair after pair the gasps louder after each one.
"Ginny Weasley and Harry Potter" the entire gryfindor table erupting in cheers Ginny and Harry kissed like they just got married. "Hermione Granger and..." I connected eyes with McGonagall she gave me such a sad look " Draco Malfoy" the cheers where not heard anymore I couldn't breathe I couldn't see I couldn't hear the last thing I remember is Ginny yelling "HERMIONEHERMIONE" then all went black.
