Thoughts

My Mind and Actions

My mind,
Not having anything much inside,
Wonders about what to think about and how not think about nothing or something.

I could think about food or what to wear,
Where to go or what to work on for Money or for pride,
To live with ease or to live with peace.

I could think about plans,
Of what I should do the next few months, years or so.
But I can slack, slumber and stay in bed alone for longer hours.

I could think about going around town, meeting people and bond with them, dining and drinking.
I could walk around safely and peacefully, have nothing specific to do for the day.

I could talk to random people online and tell them anything I want.
I could talk about my thoughts through an AI app or talk to my self.

I could sing and dance to my heart's content or be exhausted, shout out and sing from the top of my lungs.
I could be a fan of my narcissistic side or a hater of my lazy days.

I could sleep all day and all night and do nothing, avoid contacts, avoid people and crowded places.
I could stay up late, use my phone until the battery turns 0%.

I could try cooking another dish, learn something new, learn any new interesting skill.

I could try jumping up and down a mattress, roll to my sides, roll on the floor, do walling, sleep on the floor, stare at the ceiling, shower alone, lie alone on the bed, sleep, roll over and repeat.

At times, I feel like a narcissistic posting my thoughts and pretty decent pictures and almost liking them after a looking at them for more than a dozen of times.
Most of the time I wonder and wander alone, try understanding this conflict that I am in.

Some people inside my head think something is wrong with me.
I kept asking my self the same question and thought about how I ended up sabotaging my own plans and published my own thoughts with the attitude of not liking intrusion but with the desire to be heard.