TWS: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE AND SH
ALSO THIS ONE IS KINDA LONG BUT THATS OK
At ten I lived for time with friends
Weekend long sleep overs,
The laughter that filled the air,
The people there for you when you need it most,
The ones there as your rock,
How you can be yourself,
And never have to pretend.
I lived for school lunches with friends,
The ones where nothing is eaten,
Because you are all hardly breathing,
The ones where no one else is in the room,
Just you and those you love.
I lived for the trips to The Barrel,
Stuffing our faces with candy,
Spending our allowance money,
On enough food to last us months,
And eating it all at once.
I lived for beach trips with Eliza,
The salty air in our lungs,
Seagulls calling,
For their friends at sea,
The freezing water on our toes,
The sound of our laughter,
That covered the sea,
And the sound of the water,
As we dove right in.
At age twelve I longed for one thing,
To see my sister figure one more time,
To reverse the time,
And go back to when she was here with me.
Everything changed on that one day,
May 6, 2020,
The day I got that call,
I heard her wavering voice on the other side,
As she told me what she would do,
I told her to wait and to just hold her place,
But the only thing she said was,
"I can't find a reason to stay,
Because I know,
I was not meant for this world,
So, I'm leaving."
I longed to see her before she left,
To maybe talk to her,
Convince her to stay,
I knew I couldn't,
But I still wished I could try,
Because before it was her and me,
Against the world,
